and I see all my memories,
everything I've done,
all the things I tried to forget,
All my world faults,
everything I did wrong,
all those I hurt,
all the dreams I destroyed,
and all the terrible things I said,
My world fades away,
and all that's left,
is my terrible life,
the forest of everything I did wrong,
the dark, dark forest,
Wake up!
The devil shows wewe the bad things,
but the Lord shows wewe all the good things,
He forgives the bad,
forgets it,
and never mentions it,
He shows wewe the good thing,
the beautiful field,
full of flowers,
bright and perfect,
My world fade away,
and all that is left,
is the beauty of the Lord.
The girls screams but all their is is silence.
She sheds tears but her face is not moist.
She speaks but there are no words to be heard.
This girl, only in her mind she ever screamed for this, there was no sound. Only in her mind did she cry for this, tears did not moisten her face. And for this words where never herd. She is scared of exspression. She is scared to stand out and is scared of judgment. Becuase of this her world will be of muteness there will be no sun no moon only a gray, a gray nothingness in a line of other people all have no faces for they to are scared of being diffrent and they all to live in gray nothingness.
The girl who is scared will live in the world of gray until her scream is herd and her face feels tears.
She sheds tears but her face is not moist.
She speaks but there are no words to be heard.
This girl, only in her mind she ever screamed for this, there was no sound. Only in her mind did she cry for this, tears did not moisten her face. And for this words where never herd. She is scared of exspression. She is scared to stand out and is scared of judgment. Becuase of this her world will be of muteness there will be no sun no moon only a gray, a gray nothingness in a line of other people all have no faces for they to are scared of being diffrent and they all to live in gray nothingness.
The girl who is scared will live in the world of gray until her scream is herd and her face feels tears.
Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living kwa the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my uchungu, chungu existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living kwa the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my uchungu, chungu existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
if the upendo of your life died,
what would wewe do if they died a terrible death,
would wewe get revenge,
would wewe hate everyone,
would wewe become a murderer in return,
would wewe cry your life away,
au would wewe take your life away?
What would wewe do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would wewe do if they died terribly,
would wewe laugh because no tears will come,
would wewe cry until it is all over,
would wewe do the same,
would wewe run away,
au would wewe just throw it all away?
What would wewe do,
if wewe were hit kwa a car,
what would wewe do if wewe were dying,
would wewe feel sorry for yourself,
would wewe cry until the end,
would wewe remember everything wewe have ever done,
would wewe call your mom,
au would wewe hate the person until your life has gone away?
What would wewe do,
when everything ends for wewe au a friend?
What would wewe do?
Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My moyo is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen kwa the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am Lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to kumeza me forever
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My moyo is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen kwa the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am Lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to kumeza me forever