HUGS & KISSES XOXO

I'm love
I'm desire
I'm pain
I'm denial.

Call me whatever you
want me to be.
Call me!
That's all wewe see.

I'm pale
I'm tired
I'm love
I'm desire.

My kiss is so deep.
Can wewe feel my soul
talking?
My kiss is so soft.
Can wewe feel me?
Will wewe dream me?

I give my upendo to you.
I haven't chosen that,
it's just how it meant
to be.

I hide my tears from you,
i lock my the pain inside of me.
That's the place
i wish wewe never find.
That's my soul,
sorrow and desire.

I give wewe all wewe want,
i choose the sweetest words
for you.
My touch leads you
to the highest
power of imagination,
just to onyesha you,
just to have you.

A little black flower, planted
with a seed of grace. The expression
of joy slowly shine on its face.
A little black maua, ua beautifully
devine. An elegant structure in this maua, ua u will find.


upendo and the joy of
happiness, this shows a black flowers
elegance. the color of
this maua, ua so proudly stand out.
wewe are a little black maua, ua without
a doubt.

Note: I would like to bring this out to a little girl that was killed in chicago where i live. so smart, so nice, so good, but why did she had to die..... she was part of the light and now i must find her in the darkness and bring her back to life.

Sounds of past

echo in my head,

seeking for

the truth,

remembering,

memorizing...




Sounds of past

still harm my soul,

but now I'm strong,

I can accept the truth.




Sounds of past

echo in the depth

of my heart,

though some truths

have never been found.

We just see these

through our eyes.




Sounds of past

still echo,

sometimes silently,

but we know

that the past still

lives inside,

as a memory,

as a burning wound.




Sounds of past

still echo

inside.

As a memory,

as a burning wound.

away wewe left
flying far from me
shooken kwa the wind
the pain
we were meant to be

far wewe left
Never to Return
the pain destroyed wewe
wewe were never to be whole
There was nothing left to learn


wewe left me that cold night
Without even a hug
I was left behing
all alone
with just a red lady bug

wewe left me
crying alone
A week had passed
slow and painful
my red lady bug sat dull

wewe were still gone
never coming nyumbani
I couldn't forget wewe
but wewe were still here
the red lady bug was still here

I knew wewe were gone
there was no hope
but somehow I felt wewe
I knew wewe were near'
the Red lady bug was nothing to fear

wewe are still gone
not coming back
I miss wewe
I feel wewe
and all I have left is the red lady bug

The Doll

Left & lonley
Abondoned & destroyed

the doll will seek revenge

The hate and pain have all subsided and left a fiery passion for revenge

The doll will have revenge

In pursiut of unfair justice in an unfair world

The doll will gain revege

The war that rages the hate that raises
All left the doll empty & tattered & broken

The doll will get revenge

The doll left broken kwa the side of the rode
Ignored kwa all mankind

The doll will receive her revenge

Who determines what is just in this unjust world

Not the doll au me au you

In a world of wrong what is right

Not the doll au me au you

Who leads the way in this endless maze called Life

Not the doll au me au you

One zaidi Chance

kwa Cody Herman

Do wewe remember the good old days?

When we used to laugh and play?

Nothing worried au stopped us

We would run until we were breathless

Tell me, when did it stop?

Why did it all drop?

Was it because of something I did?

I know I was stupid

I didn't mean to do it

It came bit kwa bit

It wasn't till the end

That I knew I had Lost a friend

It never worked out

But kwa then there was no doubt

If I could turn time back, I would

Even if it was just to see our childhood

I ask for one zaidi chance

Just to advance

To turn back the clock

For our friendship again to unlock

It was my entire fault

Our comradeship didn't just halt

I wished I never started that romance

Again, I ask for one zaidi chance

U Grab My Hands Off the blind
I feel Warmth that firstly strange
Where will u take Me??????

u onyesha me Colors,,,
U onyesha Me sadness
What was The truth u meant??????

U takes me in different Way,,to Love
That was Not also Kiss,,,Hugs,,,Playing
U onyesha Me Care,, Joy,,, And deep
that was Not about how birds can Flown away..
this is how to feel when they r Flying,,,
It was not to watch the Blossoms come...
it Learn about How to Wait until it Blooms....

U makes Me that cry was a way out too...
u make me believes that Laughs Also hides in the sadness


Now I know...
ur Loves Changes ME...

When I think of wewe
A tear falls and I start to cry
And brings me to sleep like a childs lullaby
When I see wewe
I have to look away
And pray that my hurt can come another day
So I can feel better
When I hear your voice
I have to tune it out not that I have a choice
We may like each other
But if we come together and start
We would burn our soles and fall apart
Your like moto and I'm like ice
When we touch we hurt each other
We will never be able to be together
And for now all I can do is wish

She inhales sharply.
She hates the irony, and the pain is too much.
She cannot see his face;
He has advanced from behind.
But she does not need too,
She knows his face too well.
His kisu digs deeper into her soft cheek.
He is carving a heart;
Mocking her obsession of him.
He whispers something incoherent to her.
She wishes she had listened closer.
He caresses her unmarked cheek with his gloved hand.
She closes her eyes,
Half wishing it was over,
Half wishing it would never end.

-Emily Rose-
7-20-10

~*As she rolls the dice*~
~*I must think twice*~
~*About who I stand by*~
~*If we lose the bet*~
~*I'll surely get*~
~*A big shot to the head*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*At least for a while*~
~*No one ever understood*~
~*Why he killed an innocent child*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*I will be dead*~
~*It surely is true*~
~*I will wait until wewe die*~
~*So I could be with you*~

<3

She lays there crying, dreaming about flying.
She picks up the knife, ready to end her life.
She tightens her fists, ready to end all this.
As tears roll, she starts to feel droll.
She feels numb, why did they call her dumb?
She still, about to take a pill.
He comes in, hopeing she her depression wouldn't win.
He feels dumb, but ready to run.
He lays in kitanda with her, she's cold and dead.
He thinks " I'm too late, she met her fate."
He takes a knife, wishing she could be his wife.
He thinks to himself "I upendo you, I wish wewe where here to say wewe do too."
They both ended there lives. Entering the light they see eachothet, and hold one another tight.

it drounds wewe in its deepiest sorrows.. wraps around your body ... addicts wewe worse than a drug... itsquese wewe moyo untill its vanished... it kills wewe slowly and pinfully from the inside to the out side... puts the slashes in your wrists and legs... makes wewe feel dead..... inside and outside untill your nothing at alll.... makes me put slashes in my head.... makes me fate my own dread... it keeps comeing... so dround me in my own poison and take the pain away from the upendo that has vanished..

Cold and quiet
night
is sleeping
along with
peaceful souls.


But mine
looks
at night,
thinking
and mourning,
it cries
at long,
silent nights...


Looking
for a comfort,
it stares
at glittering
moon.
As I cry,
moonlight
is watching me...


Listening
to my sorrow,
it follows me.
As I cry,
it watches me,
trying to
give me a peace.


As I cry,
moon is looking
at my pain,
trying to
comfort me,
it sings me
a lullaby.


Giving me
a spark of joy,
it covers me
kwa its glow,
imba me
a lovely
lullaby,
it guides me
to the stars...