No one reads poetry !

There are times
when I feel your presence
at my side

There are times
when I hear wewe say
it will be alright

There are times
when I see
your face in a crowd
and I turn around

There are times
when I miss you
and my moyo begins to ache
and I smile through the pain

But then there are times
when I realize
this is just the way
it has to be
there’s no wewe and me
This poems (not written kwa me) are dedicared to my best Marafiki who I missed very badly.

There are times when
I feel strong
and I know that I
can finally songesha on

There are times when
my mind is at ease
and I can enjoy life
and all it can bring

There are times when
I miss you
and times when I’m okay
it’s getting better everyday

No matter how much time
there is in this life
I’ll think of you
from time to time
and remember wewe with a smile.

In this night
composed of beads sprinkled
of the memories and remembrance of
the days that sill live in the hearts of sorrow.


In this night
I tafuta for one soul
who can understand my thoughts,
in this night I whisper...


Your name like a blessing,
your hug like a consolation.


In this night,
magic is real,
weakness of the past has been stopped
kwa this moment of fidelity,
this moment belongs to us.


Make my demons go away,
I know,you're the only one,
the only one who can stop the pain.


Beads are sprinkled all over,
this beads of past,
rolling to the floor to my foot
just to remind me,
just to punish me
for the days when my strength
was gone,
when I was gone,
burried kwa the thoughts of darkness and grief.


But this night belongs to magic,
the magic of your presence,
this night will forgive my weakness,
so I shall forgive,
I will pick these beads and I will be free,
fear won't find me,
the night will forgive me.

In the silence of
your thoughts
wewe hear the wind of
past.


Wind of memories,
wind that whispers
the most powerful words
that are locked inside your heart.


In the silence of
your words,
wewe feel the strength
of the things that have never
been revealed,
the unspoken words that
are hidden in your heart.


In the silence of
your dark
wewe see these memories
that are never going to fade.


In the silence of
your heart
wewe hear the calling,
wewe hear the whisper of
the wind which is sent
kwa the dearest one,
the one that has a special
place in your heart.


That's the silence
of your heart.

I wandered lonely as a cloud
That floats on high o'er vales and hills,
When all at once I saw a crowd,
A host, of golden daffodils;
Beside the lake, beneath the trees,
Fluttering and dancing in the breeze.

Continuous as the stars that shine
And twinkle on the milky way,
They stretched in never-ending line
Along the margin of a bay:
Ten thousand saw I at a glance,
Tossing their heads in sprightly dance.

The waves beside them danced, but they
Out-did the sparkling leaves in glee;
A poet could not be but gay,
In such a jocund company!
I gazed—and gazed—but little thought
What wealth the onyesha to me had brought:

For oft, when on my kitanda I lie
In vacant au in pensive mood,
They flash upon that inward eye
Which is the bliss of solitude;
And then my moyo with pleasure fills,
And dances with the daffodils.

this is my favourite upendo poem, please read, it's beautiful ...
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Love's Philosophy

The fountains mingle with the river,
And the rivers with the ocean;
The winds of heaven mix forever,
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
All things kwa a law divine
In one another's being mingle;--
Why not I with thine?
See! the mountains kiss high heaven,
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister maua, ua would be forgiven,
If it disdained it's brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea;--
What are all these kissings worth,
If thou kiss not me?


Percy Bysshe Shelley
(1803-1882)

My name is hurt,
I make u feel bad,
I was created by
Someone u know.

I make u feel very bad,
I'm an emotion
U can't c me,
Because I'm inside u.

I make u feel sad,
I make u cry
About the stupidest things
And I give u the tears in ur eyes.

Someone created me
kwa something they did,
Then they put me inside u
2 haunt u forever.

I haunt u every day,
I'm like an itch u can't scratch,
U think of me,
Beautifully bad I am.

I may b
Young au very old,
I won't dissappear,
U have 2 deside when I should die.

I'm really bad,
No good inside,
Though people always say
I learnt something.

I don't help a lot
Mostly I destroy u
From the inside out,
I'm not easy 2 stop.

I create the bad times u have,
I make the desitions,
I'm bad
And my name is hurt.

Tears rolling down my cheek,
eyes red fighting to breathe.
Alone in a room,
dark and sound.
In despair for a long time.
Something wewe can't escape,
some unbearable
Words seem to slip,
body feels so weak
Windows down, curtains closed
Alone
Dark thoughts race
Memories fly
In despair for a long time
Again
Eyes closed
Skin cold, ready to walk away
Have the freedom to make choices
Forget despair
Ignore everyone who ignores you
It hurts to think
about despair
Complications, frustrations,
leave them behind.

Your here kwa my side!
Although both trapped and tied.
both confused.
used.
abused.
Your laying with me,
out in the dark,
Stars still blinding
sirens still chiming.
At least we are together
but why can't wewe see
why your really here
right beside me.
your adding to the problem
but yet wewe heal.
your like a drug
that makes me feel
like the pain is gone.
I need you
want wewe
upendo wewe
A word to strong
for wewe to bare
so wewe act if
wewe don't even care.
But deep inside
Inside your heart
wewe know I was yours
right from the start.
Although the pain that is causes
to have to wait
for wewe to realize
your certain fate.
It's well worth it
in the end
when your spending eternity with me
hand in hand

now standing on last siku of mwaka
i look back and see smiles and tears
somedays it was new too
somedays our mailboxes were filled with greetings
greetings of arrival of 01/01/2011
siku kwa siku we got used to
night kwa night we got close
so many starts so many ends
so many left so many got friends
learnt so much taught so much
learnt to smile learnt to give
learnt to die learnt to live
with loads of hugs and kisses
bye bye 2011
inayofuata time we'll say
"damn our moyo still misses
THE 2011"
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.they wanted a longer makala :P

In toss of my thoughts
are memories that still breathe.
Can wewe feel my sorrow?


Scourge this body
sodden kwa sweat
and never been washed away.
Can wewe imagine the pain?


Trapped and tied for this place,
that's your fate,
wewe will never run away.
Can I just fade away?


wewe have fought before.
Will wewe keep fighting now?
This dawn is always the same,
siku full of difficulties,
sweaty shati and empty eyes,
shaking hand that holds
this cigarette,
mind that wander in
yellow field.
Can wewe forgive your life now?

The line 'love is a fallacy' isn't justified,
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when upendo is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.

Know that dhahabu has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
upendo cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that upendo can hold, can only be caught.

I would not compare upendo to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
upendo is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.

The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
'Tis beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.

Let your mind floating freely
and wewe will see.
Open your soul to those
who will listen,
they'll onyesha wewe the bright side,
the side wewe have forgotten.

Trust just this once
and wewe will see.

The sea of your Lost memories
shall return again
if wewe make a right choice,
the choice that changes everything.

Trust just this once
and wewe will see.

How many people wewe want to save?
Who do wewe want to follow you
in this journey we call living?

Try,
trust just this once
and wewe will see.

All those dark thoughts
that have been imprisoned
in your mind
could be silenced by
the light
wewe see cloudy
and it all seems unattainable
and impossible.
Although,
the real truth is in your heart,
wewe just have to decide
what wewe want to believe.

The smallest reason
to be alive again,
one single reason to smile
along with freedom.


~ Feel it and be free... ~

Hold me, don´t ever let me go. Even if the world crashes in, bury me under your love. Even if the spring never comes, don´t let me feel the cold. Hold me when the night is so cruel. au when the scars of siku mark my skin. If wewe won´t let me go, I won´t release you. Two lovers, shielding each other from the storm. That´s who we´re going to be. Never change, never think. Let the actions flow into your hands, don´t stop. Keep going, keep your head up to the light. At the end of the journey, we will be home, the wounds forgotten and healed.