'What do wewe mean gone?' I screeched. I flew upstairs and burst through the door of Emmett's and mine room. I gasped when I saw the bed... empty. 'No,' I whispered as I fell onto my knees. 'This can't be,' I shook my head and placed my hands on my face as I started to sob uncontrollable . 'Emmett!' I shrieked. 'Emmett! Where are you?'

'Alice, how could you've not see it coming?' Bella whispered quietly to her sister.

Alice turned to glare fiercely at her sister. 'Maybe because wolves disturbed my visions!' she spat before she finally broke. 'I... I didn't k... know it,' she cried as Jasper took her in his arms. 'I swear, I swear I d... didn't k.. know it.'

I heard the others whispering reassurances to my sister but the only thing what was going through my mind was Emmett. I didn't thought that someone kidnapped him, but why would he leave? Why would he do such a thing to us? He knows how much we upendo him, how could he? I felt a hand on my shoulder but I shrugged him off as I stood up.

'Leave me alone, Edward.' I walked slowly to mine and Emmett's kitanda and caressed the place where Emmett had laid. 'Emmett? Where are you?' I whispered. 'Where? Where are you, Emmett? Why did wewe leave. Why? Why did wewe e...' I was cut kwa the feeling of something warm. I gasped in horror as I pulled my hand slowly, very slowly, back. My hand vibrated as I saw the red fluid on my fingers. Blood.

***

'What are wewe going to do?' Esme cried hysterical as I walked to my closet. 'Rosalie!'

'I'm leaving,' I said, trying to keep my voice cool before I would break down, I would leave that part for later. I grabbed a big, red beg as I started to toss clothes in it.

'Where are wewe going?' Esme whispered quietly.

'I don't know,' I alisema irritated. 'Just leave me alone,' I grabbed my bag as I stood up and walked out of my closet, straight to mine and Em... to the bathroom. I heard Esme following me, saying things I didn't wanted to hear. Things like: "Please stay, Rose," au "Rose, we need you." I grabbed some of my beauty products and threw them in my bag.

'Rose!' Esme grabbed my arm and turned me harshly around.

'What?' I snapped. I regret it immediately when I saw the hurt on Esme's face, but for some reason I couldn't apologize. I could only think of Emmett.

'When are wewe going to come back?' Esme asked quietly. I knew that if she were human, tears would be flowing down her beautiful face. Her eyes would be swollen and red and there would be black spots under her eyes; mascara. Okay, I didn't picture Esme's face. I pictured mine. My red and swollen eyes, my face covered with tears and my black spots under my eyes.

'I... I don't know.' Maybe I won't come back, maybe I'll go straight to the Volturi and ask them to kill me. I didn't say it out loud, I knew it was unfair for them to hear later about my death. I knew they would feel guilty about not stopping me, but I didn't care anymore. I could only care about Emmett. When I found the blood I simply broke down in front of the family, I didn't wanted to repeat that again. Emmett was gone, dead and gone. Forever and ever.

'Rose, don't do this!' Esme cried. 'Rosalie, please! I beg you!' I heard her sob. I stood still at the door with my back to her as I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I felt lost, Lost and empty. I couldn't stay here. I couldn't let my family see me go into depression and slowly die from the inside. I would never be the same again, ever. 'Rose...'

I winced at the weakness of my mother's voice. My lower lip pushed above my upper lip as the corners of my mouth pointed to the ground. I squeezed my eyes shut and felt my shoulders shaking. Then I took a deep breath again and walked away, leaving my sobbing mother behind as the others gathered together to comfort her but zaidi important, to hold themselves together.

***

I pushed against the door and stepped outside, taking a deep breath, thinking about where I should go. Not to Alaska, I didn't wanted to see any other coven. I didn't wanted to be near humans either, no, i wanted to be alone. Alone, at an old, grey and empty place. The zaidi depressive the better, it fit perfectly with me. It was like my moyo was torn and it hurt very bad. I took another deep breath, trying to hold myself together. I knew that I couldn't stand this for long, soon I will break down and I will never heal again. Soon.

Still thinking about where I should go I heard something calling my name. I ignored it and started to walk, not caring in which direction. I knew I would miss my family, but nothing was as worse as the pain I felt at that moment. I knew that Emmett's death was my fault. If I watched him better he would've lived, but no. I just ran into the woods, picked a fight with a mbwa mwitu kid, ran back to our house and go talk with Sam, au beg so he wouldn't be all too angry.

Suddenly something grabbed my arm and pulled me back.

'Rose!' Bella sighed relieved as she saw me.

'Let me go!' I pulled my arm harshly back and tried to walk away, but Bella grabbed me again. I sighed irritated. 'B...' I took a deep breath, trying to calm down a little bit so I wouldn't break down in front of her. 'Bella, let me go,' I alisema quietly. I could feel sobs coming up but I tried to push them away.

'No, no, Rose,' Bella shook her head. 'You don't understand.'

'I understand it perfectly,' I said, not looking at her. 'What's there else to say? Emmett is...' I swallowed. 'Bella, don't try and convince me to stay here, I won't. Whatever you'll say au do. Nothing would bring me my Emmett back anyways.' I bit my bottom lip and closed my eyes for a second.

'No, Rosalie, please listen for a second!' Bella begged. 'Emmett isn't dead.' I shook my head. 'No, Rose, please, listen!' I turned around and looked at her. 'Look,' Bella grabbed something from her pocket and put it in my hands. I frowned as I saw the pace of paper in my head, for some reason I wanted to tear it apart and throw it in Bella's face out of frustration, as if it was a joke. 'Read,' Bella whispered.

I sighed and opened the note.

Dear everyone,

I gasped when I realized it really was from Emmett as I recognized his handwriting.

I'm sorry that it has to be this way, but I have no other choice. Let's just start with the beginning,

Carlisle, father, the one that changed me, the one that made our family, you're an example for every single person in the world as wewe onyesha your passion and upendo for your family and work. From the siku wewe changed me I started to see wewe as my father as wewe learned me everything I have to know about vampires. I upendo wewe dad, and no matter what happens, you'll always be my father.

Esme, mother, from the siku Carlisle changed me wewe showed your upendo and care for me as if I was your biological son. I loved wewe for that and I'll always will. wewe learned me to respect and see people in a way I thought was impossible. wewe learned me how to upendo someone and how to care about someone in a way that makes other people feel special. I thank wewe for that, my mother, always.

Edward, brother, I will never forget our first fight. wewe kept cheating with your gift as wewe read in my mind which moves I would make, as I got irritated each time more. But I'm happy I can remember that fight with a smile on my face, it reminds me how much fun we really had. I knew how hard it was sometimes for wewe with me and Rosalie in the house, but in the end we always remember that we're a family. Edward, bro, I upendo you.

Bella, sister, each time wewe fell down was another reason to joke about wewe again, was another reason to laugh at wewe again. With your very humanly moves and ways wewe were immediately a sister to me. I will always remember each fight we've fight for you, each argument we had about you, each problem that danced around you, but I will remember them with a smile, because it always ended up good and we always ended up together. Bella, I hope I was the brother for you, wewe wished for, because I upendo wewe and I always be your big brother.

Jasper, brother, the first time we met was kinda awkward. Here wewe were, with your scars and everything. I knew wewe had a hard time with controlling your bloodlust and Jasper, I must say, I'm very proud to call wewe my brother. wewe do not only look strong from the outside, but you're strong from the inside too. We did a lot of things together and I will always remember how much fun we had, each fight was a challenge for both of us. I was stronger, but wewe had your own tactics what always made it zaidi exciting. Bro, wewe were an great brother and I upendo you.

Alice, sister, the first time I saw wewe I knew immediately that wewe were a girl full of surprises. Always exciting and happy with everything. Alice, wewe are unique in many ways what makes wewe a very special girl. wewe can be hyper sometimes, but that's what I upendo about you. wewe have a very open character and even when we had a hard time wewe always tried to look it from the bright side. With your unique gift you're a very strong person. Alice, my hyper shop-aholic sister, I upendo you.

Renesmee, niece, wewe are a beautiful girl and wewe have a whole life waiting for you. I want wewe to know that you're very special and smart and I want to say that wewe always have to follow your heart. I know that Jacob is the right guy for you. We had lots of fun and I will remember every moment of it, because every moment was special and unique. wewe my little, beautiful niece, are unique, I upendo you.

For all the wolves, friends, we are supposed to be enemies, but at the same time we're Marafiki too, maybe even a family. wewe helped us with so much things, think about Victoria and her army, au the Volturi... You've never let us really down and even a stupid treaty shouldn't separate us. We are friends, aren't we? We don't have to be enemies, it shouldn't have to be this way. There are so much things we have in common, but I know that there are a lot of things that separate us too. I just want wewe all to know that I do care about wewe guys, and that each fight, side kwa side, was a sign of care and friendship.

Rosalie, Angel, soul mate, my sun, the upendo of my life, the siku wewe found me I thought wewe were an Angel, and I'm so happy that I turned out to be right. Angel, wewe are beautiful from the outside and from the inside as I see your very sweet, loyal, soft and caring character. Each moment with wewe is Heaven for me, each siku with wewe is an unique siku for me. I promised wewe to never leave wewe and I'll never will, because we will always be together in each other's hearts. When I was turned back I saw it in your eyes. The worries, sadness, hope, pain... I knew how much wewe had to suffer to see me like that, weak in a way wewe thought it was impossible for me to feel. Rosalie, I made this decision based on what I feel for you, I don't want wewe to see me like this, to suffer like this. We both know the truth, I will die, whatever will happen. I once told you: 'Eternity isn't long enough.' And I will say it again, eternity isn't long enough. I upendo wewe my sweet Angel. With all my heart, forever and ever and ever. Never forget that I'll always be with you, take good care of yourself, love. My Angel.

I just want wewe all to know that I upendo wewe all and that it's better if I end my life myself. I don't want wewe to see me suffer. wewe deserve better than that. I will miss you, but at the same time I will always be with you. Wherever I will be.

Goodbye,
Your son, your brother, your friend, your husband, your Emmett