I crawled under the blankets on my kitanda and buried myself in the darkness. I heard the phone ring downstairs but I didn’t get up to answer it. I had an idea of who it might be and I did not want to speak to them. I wanted to be left alone to think about what had happened. What did happen? Had I over reacted? Did I blow the whole thing out of proportion? See, I had always wondered why Edward would want me. I am nothing special but he is. He is like an angel, so beautiful and loving, and then there’s me. Just me. I am so plain that I could be bread. Bread! Yeah, ok I have a couple of magical powers and I can run really fast and probably lift a monster truck one handed without breaking a sweat but I’m still human. He is a vampire. A vampire! How can wewe forget your boyfriend’s a vampire? Honestly, I must be stupid. He shouldn’t be interested in me. He shouldn’t be, it’s unnatural. I was so caught up in my own little fairytale that I failed to notice it.
The phone rang again but I ignored it. I was not moving. I felt salama in this darkness. Like nothing could hurt me. Nothing could penetrate the blankets that surrounded me.
The phone continued to ring and I was guessing that they weren’t going to give up. Well they would just have to enjoy the disappointment coz I ain’t moving.
The tears came now. After all the thinking part was done it was the crying now. The tears came thick and fast and I couldn’t stop them but I didn’t care. I just let them fall. Time passed for me in a haze of blurry vision and wet tears. I hadn’t heard the phone ring so I assumed that they had taken the hint. I was so close to sleep, here in my little den. I turned onto my back and felt me head touch the bottom of the pillow. I scooted up a bit until the mto was completely under my head and then I dragged the blanket back over me. I had just closed my eyes when I felt the weight of the blanket lift off me. I snapped my eyes back open and screamed when I saw the hulking shadow bending over me, holding my blanket. So much for nothing being able to penetrate my blankets.
“Kayla, sshh!”
I shut my mouth. I squinted my eyes in the darkness and saw my most favourite person ever (after Edward).
“Jacob!” I sounded like I had a bad head cold. I sniffed and sat up.
Jacob dropped the blanket back on my kitanda and I moved over a bit so he could sit inayofuata to me.
“I didn’t hear wewe come in,” I said, wiping my eyes. There were still a few tears coming.
“I’m very quiet when I want to be,” Jacob smiled. “Have wewe been crying?”
“No,” I said, sniffing. “What makes wewe think that?”
“No reasons other than your eyes are red, wewe sound like wewe have a cold and you’re still crying.”
I didn’t answer. I just wiped my eyes again, trying to stop the flow of tears. I kicked off my shoes for something to do. Jacob stared at me with his deep brown eyes; trying to read my mind, find out what was wrong.
“Why didn’t wewe answer the phone?” Jacob asked. He sounded annoyed with me.
“Was that you?” I asked. “I thought that it might have been him.”
“No, it was me. I called wewe cell but that freaky leech that can see the future answered. She alisema that wewe had gone nyumbani to get some stuff and left your cell phone.”
“Don’t call her a leech,” I mumbled. I wasn’t up for fighting with Jacob so I didn’t really shout at him.
“Why didn’t wewe answer the phone when wewe thought it was him?” Jacob asked softly.
I wasn’t going to tell him. I didn’t want to involve him but it just came out. My mouth opened and everything that had happened from fighting the Felinata to me running here just flowed out in a torrent of tears, anger and some incomprehensible sentences.
When I was done I could see that Jacob was shaking. His hands were balled up into fists and I knew what this meant.
“Jay, calm down,” I said, putting a hand on his arm. His hot skin was still unfamiliar to me but it wasn’t uncomfortable. It felt strange, kind of nice and fuzzy.
His shaking subsided slightly but his hands were still fists.
“I should kill him for saying that,” Jacob alisema through gritted teeth.
“No!” My hand tightened on Jacob’s arm. I didn’t want him hurting Edward au getting himself hurt.
“He made wewe cry! I would never do that!”
“Only coz I’d kick your ass,” I said, smiling slightly. My hand tightened even further. I was trying to warn him without saying anything.
“I should have it out with him,” Jacob said, zaidi to himself than me. He was oblivious to my hand and my tightening grip. “Give him some ground rules. What he can’t do to you. How he should treat you.”
“Jacob!” I said. My nails broke his skin and some blood began to trickle down his bare arm.
“What?” he looked at me hand and the blood that was running down his arm. “When did that happen?”
I let go of his arm and sighed. How could he not have felt that?
“Look, Jacob,” I alisema and I looked straight into his deep brown eyes. “Just leave it, yeah? If wewe got involved who knows what would happen? I don’t want wewe to get hurt.”
He stared straight back into mine.
“He hurt you, Kay. He needs to be taught a lesson.”
“You need to be taught a lesson!” I half shouted. “A lesson on how not to interfere in other people’s lives!”
He just laughed at me.
“Don’t do it,” I pleaded with him. “Please, don’t go there.”
“I am going to go there,” Jacob said, standing up. “I’m going to tell him not to mess with wewe au I mess with him.”
“Jacob!” I shouted as he walked out my door. He didn’t turn back.
I groaned and jumped off my bed. I nearly ran downstairs before I remembered to put my shoes back on. I found a pair of trainers in the living-room and hastily shoved them on.
As I ran through the forest I tried to tell myself that I was going to the Cullens to make sure that Edward didn’t hurt Jacob. But I knew that I wanted to protect Edward zaidi than Jacob. Although he had alisema that, au rather thought it, I still loved him. I didn’t want him to get hurt because that would hurt me too. But if anyone asked why I was at the Cullens it was to protect Jacob.
I reached the Cullens house and saw Alice sitting outside on the steps. Her eyes were closed as if she was sleeping. I was going to sneak past her and had made it up the steps but her hand shot out and she grabbed my leg and stopped me going past her.
“Don’t,” she said, her eyes still closed. “Don’t do it.”
“Do what?” I asked confused.
“Walk away,” she answered. She opened her eyes and looked up at me. “Don’t walk away from him, Kayla. wewe don’t know what he will do but I do. I don’t want that to happen.”
I nodded and she let me go. She closed her eyes and turned away to face the forest again. I walked inside and headed for the stairs. If there was any luck left for me, Edward would be in his room and I wouldn’t have to look for him.
On my way to Edward’s room I passed Emmett.
“You better get in there, Kay,” he said, pointing back to Edward’s room. “The dog’s in there starting another fight. wewe better go protect him.”
He chuckled and winked at me. I smiled back and ran down to Edward’s room. Sure enough, Jacob was in there, shaking, and shouting at Edward. Edward’s face was a picture of fury. His onyx eyes seemed to be on moto and his teeth were bared.
“DO wewe HAVE ANY IDEA WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO HER?!” Jacob was shouting. “SHE WAS CRYING wewe IGNORANT LEECH! DO wewe KNOW HOW MUCH YOU’VE HURT HER?!”
“Don’t wewe dare shout at me, wewe stupid little mongrel!” Edward snarled. “I know exactly what I have done. Do wewe have any idea how I feel knowing that I’ve hurt her?”
“I DON’T CARE WHAT wewe FEEL! I CARE ABOUT KAYLA AND I SWEAR WHEN I’M THROUGH WITH YOU, wewe WON’T BE ABLE TO LOOK AT HER COZ YOU’LL HAVE NO EYES!”
“Bring it, pup!”
Jacob’s shape began to shimmer and this was my time to intervene.
“STOP!” I screamed.
Jacob stopped shaking and turned. Edward’s eyes Lost their flame when he saw me. His eyes were inaonyesha his longing to hold me and kiss me. I stared at him and I wanted to hold him and kiss him too. But I wouldn’t be taken in kwa them. No way.
“Don’t wewe dare Jacob Black!” I said, taking my eyes off Edward to look at Jacob.
“Kayla, stay out of this!” Jacob said, turning away.
“No, I will not stay out of this! This is my fight, not yours!”
“You heard her,” Edward said. “This is her fight, so why don’t wewe let her handle it?”
Jacob growled at Edward and Edward snarled back. Jacob began to shake again. I ran over and put myself between them. I had my back to Edward and I was looking at Jacob, pleading with him with my eyes.
“Let me deal with this my own way,” I alisema softly. “If I can’t, I promise I will let wewe rip his throat out. Ok?”
Jacob looked down at me and I could tell he wanted to help me. He wanted nothing zaidi than to make Edward pay for hurting me but he would listen to me. Like he said, he wouldn’t make me cry.
“Fine,” he said. “But only because wewe asked me to. I’m not scared au anything.” The last sentence was directed at Edward.
“Go nyumbani to Billy,” I ordered.
“Do wewe want to stay with us?” Jacob asked me. “I don’t think you’ll want to stay here au kwa yourself at Charlie’s. I can sleep on the kitanda and wewe can have my bed?”
“I’m fine sleeping kwa myself, Jay, but thanks for the offer.”
“Just call me if wewe change your mind.”
“I will.”
He scooped me up into a kubeba hug but put me down before I had to remind him that I needed to breathe. He then narrowed his eyes at Edward, reminding him what will happen if he hurts me again.
I watched him go before I turned to Edward.
“I didn’t send him here,” I said, quickly. “I didn’t tell him to come and do this.”
“I know wewe didn’t,” Edward spoke quietly.
“Well then,” I said. I backed away to the door. “I’ll go then.”
“Don’t go!” Edward reached out to me with a hand, his eyes inaonyesha me the pain his face wouldn’t show.
“Edward, there’s no reason to stay,” I said. “I came here to stop Jacob getting himself hurt and I did that. I should leave.”
“You came here to protect me. I can hear it in your mind.”
Damn my mind! How can wewe betray me like that?!
“Let me explain.” Edward walked over to me and stood so close I could feel his cool breath on my face.
“There’s nothing to explain,” I said, not looking up into his eyes. I didn’t want to be dazzled when trying to explain my point. “You alisema that and that’s all there is to it.”
“I didn’t say it,” he stressed. “I thought it. There’s a difference.”
“You know I can read wewe mind so it was just like wewe alisema it to me!”
“I let my guard down! I was trying to stop wewe killing me!”
“As if I would kill you! I upendo you, wewe silly vampire!”
“Then why won’t wewe stay?”
“Coz wewe hate me!”
I turned away from him and he didn’t stop me walking away. It was only when I was halfway down the hallway that I remembered what Alice said.
“Don’t walk away from him, Kayla. wewe don’t know what he will do but I do. I don’t want that to happen.”
What would he do if I walked away and didn’t come back? Would he try to kill himself? Could Wanyonya damu commit suicide? If they could I didn’t want Edward to. If he killed himself what would I do? How would I live if he was dead?
I turned around and saw him watching me from his doorway. I walked back to him and stood in front of him and looked up into black eyes.
“Explain.”
“I don’t hate you,” he said, quickly. “I was just angry and jealous. wewe alisema to the dog that there was a part of wewe just for him. I don’t want to share wewe with anyone else. I was just angry at wewe but I don’t really hate you. That was just me thinking. Everybody thinks something like that but they never say it because it isn’t true. I still upendo you, I always have. I won’t ever stop. Not over that mutt anyway.”