Hey!! Ok I'm going out of town until Saturday...so won't be able to write until then..unless the weather turns yucky then I will be able to.

End of Part 24

I realized at that moment that I was in upendo with this woman. I had hurt her and her family, yet they all came out to find me and make sure that I was ok and didn't hurt my family. Yet when she saw me she wanted to comfort me and that meant zaidi then anything in the world.

Our kiss began to get a bit too intense, my hands moving up and down her back as her hands knotted in my shati and held me close to her.

Someone cleared their throat and someone else laughed quietly. I kissed her one zaidi time before grinning and turning back to the rest of the family.

"Oops." I said.

"That's one way of saying it." Edward alisema as he laughed again.

"Emmett, I believe wewe wanted to talk to Carlisle about your idea?" He asked as he stood up to let Rosalie and Esme sit on the tree.

I turned back to look at their faces, how could I think they were monsters? All of the caring, concerned people who looked zaidi like something from a painting then the monsters that I had imagined while running.I took a deep breath before turning to face Carlisle and hopefully convincing them that I could see my family from a distance, for what could be the last time.

Part 25

"Ok Carlisle, I understand your idea of not wanting me to go back and see my family. Edward explained it all to me, and I truly do understand. However; I was wondering if there was a way that I could go there and watch them from afar." I asked.

"We were thinking that we...I mean he could go outside the property and just watch them, so he knows that they are all right before we move." Edward said.

"Yes, I was thinking just being able to know that they are doing alright would be amazing. I didn't leave on the best terms, I fought with my father.." I alisema as the memory of our last encounter returned.

"Emmett, it's ok." Rosalie alisema as she hugged me.

"I just, we just didn't have very nice things to say to each other and now that they think I am dead. Please could I go and just make sure they are ok?" I pleaded.

"Emmett, I don't know. I know that wewe would not mean to hurt anyone in your family, but wewe are so new still." Carlisle said.

"I could go with him." Rosalie alisema as she smiled up at me.

That meant a lot, her saying that she would go with me. I really wish that I could introduce her to my family, I knew that my mother would upendo her and my sisters would too after they got over the jealousy. Oh and my brothers..wow they would not believe it. I had to laugh, thinking about how they all would respond to her.

Edward laughed and shook his head. "Yeah, she gets jealousy a lot. And she enjoys it." He alisema under his breath.

I smiled at Edward, realizing that his mind kusoma might not be that bad...as long as I could keep my thoughts away from Rosalie and the way she looked. Like right now how the wind was blowing her blond hair around her face and the sun glistened off her skin, making it look like porcelain. How she looked this morning, the sheet...

"Emmett!!! You're right it's not that bad, but FOCUS!" He alisema as he threw a stick at me.

"Oh..yeah...sorry." I alisema as I tried to focus.

"I would be willing to go with too Carlisle. I could keep him in check, well I would try." Edward alisema as he threw another stick in my direction.

"Well Emmett, it sounds like wewe have the support of these two. If wewe can promise that wewe won't try to interfere with them wewe could do this. Just to make sure I think it would be best if I came along as well." Carlisle suggested.

"Thank wewe Carlisle." I alisema softly.

"Esme? Do wewe want to come too?" Rosalie asked.

"Hmmm no thanks, no offense Emmett dear. I just have things to take care of if we are planning on leaving. I hope wewe have decided to stay with us, for a while." She alisema as she walked over and hugged me gently.

I smiled down at her and she went back to Carlisle and started talking very quietly. I tried to make out what they were talking about, but just when I focused on them they stopped, he kissed her and she took off back towards town.

"Alright Emmett, are wewe sure wewe can do this?" Carlisle asked as he straightened his jacket.

"Yes sir, I think I can. But will wewe help if I start to loose control?" I asked as the fear of hurting my family began to sink in.

"You won't loose control, that is your family. wewe wouldn't hurt them, I know wewe wouldn't." Rosalie alisema as she grabbed my hand and squeezed it.

"No I won't, can we go?" I asked.

Carlisle smiled and nodded at Edward, the two of them obviously having a silent conversation again. They both took off running, and after a few hours they slowed down and let Rosalie and I take the lead since we knew the way.

We ran to the outskirts of the property, when we finally stopped Edward and Carlisle mgawanyiko, baidisha off and went in different directions. I watched them both leave wondering what was going on.

"Where are they going?" I wondered.

"They are just making sure that none of your family is out in the woods, they're trying to make this as easy on wewe as possible." She alisema as she rose on her toes and kissed my jaw.

"Oh...I get it." I alisema as the reality of all of this sank in. They were out running the property making sure that none of family members were out in the woods so that I wouldn't be tempted to hurt them. I swallowed loudly, the fear returning.

"You won't hurt anyone, I know wewe won't. Come on, let's get closer." She alisema softly as she lead me kwa hand closer to the farm.

"My mother and sisters would upendo you, they would take to wewe instantly." I alisema as we slowed to a walk.

"I would have liked to meet them." She said.

We sat in the brush just off from the pole ghalani that was beside the house, the ghalani that I had hit and broken my hand in. I could see a few people moving from building to building, and was surprised at how clear they were to me even from a distance.

I could see my brothers Phillip, Michael and John, they were all moving nyasi, nyasi kavu from one building to another. I saw my sister Patricia and Carol come out of the house, wringing their hands in their aprons.

I smiled at them all, I didn't realize how much I missed them until I saw their faces. I felt myself starting to stand when I felt two strong hands come down on my shoulders and push me back down.

"Emmett, please remember. They don't know wewe anymore, wewe aren't the same person. We can only watch." Carlisle whispered behind me.

I took a deep breath and realized he was right, I couldn't stomp out of the woods and go hug my annoying sisters like I so badly wanted to. I couldn't go running into the ghalani and knock over the nyasi, nyasi kavu bales just to make my brothers mad.

I sat back on my heels and took a deep breath, I didn't realize how hard this was going to be. I closed my eyes and focused on what I had promised, I couldn't go out there, I couldn't interact with them I could only watch...like a ghost.

I looked to my right and saw Edward frown and nod, obviously he had heard that and agreed with me. Is that what we were going to have to be, nothing zaidi then ghosts? Something that could never be seen, but could watch another life go by?