I know you’re in pain. It hurts in ways wewe can’t even begin to describe and even if wewe could, no one seems to want to listen.
Sure, people care and try to help… for a time… but when wewe don’t seem to be getting any better, after a while, they get tired of listening… Eventually it becomes easier to keep it all inside.
I know wewe feel like it will never get better and you’ll never be okay again. It’s been like this for so long now that wewe think if things were ever going to change they would have kwa now so this is how it’s always going to be… but it’s not. I promise it’s not.
wewe learn cope, it just takes time and I know it feels like you’ve aliyopewa it enough time already but not everyone heals at the same pace.
Tell yourself it’s okay to feel the way that wewe do.
Nobody else on this earth has lived through your life to be in any kind of position to understand your battles. Nobody else but wewe has walked in your shoes to be any kind of comparison on how wewe should be feeling right now au whether au not wewe should be ‘better’.
I won’t lie to wewe – what you’re going through will always leave its mark upon wewe as any trauma does – and that’s normal too. Nobody looks back on a traumatic life experience and giggles about it… But it’s this all-consuming depressive state… these overwhelming feelings wewe can’t control… the way those feelings isolate wewe and make wewe feel vulnerable and alone – THAT is what won’t last forever.
It DOES get better… wewe DO find acceptance. Not all at once – its gradual… like a stormy siku au a long dark night… wewe don’t just blink and suddenly it’s a blue sky. Storm clouds part slowly, allowing brief flashes of sunlight at first… then eventually disappear… Dark nights end slowly as a new siku begins to dawn…
Acceptance is the same… and I know wewe have the courage to wait for it…