Things were better after that. It was... boring I guess. But being bored is better than being raped. I walked for hours upon hours, still seeming to get nowhere. I was starting to believe I was truly lost. My stomach felt like it was starting to digest itself, which I hoped it wasn't, but I wouldn't be surprised. The only time I had something to drink was when it rained. I'd walk down the road, with my mouth open at the sky like a complete idiot. It worked a little though, and I kept myself from dehydrating.
It was three whole days before I got close to home. But I was so hungry and tired and hurting that I couldn't even bring myself to be happy. I stumbled on the sidewalk, just two blocks from the apartment. Then my body just couldn't take it anymore and I passed out.
***
I woke up, and my head was killing me. I rolled over on the sidewalk, only to see that it wasn't a sidewalk. I jolted all the way awake, hyperventilating.
I was home!
I jumped up from the couch, looking around. No one was here.
"Hello?" I called. I heard something from down tha hall. Carmine ran in, looking shocked.
"Harley! You're ok!" He ran over, and swooped me up into a giant kubeba hug. "I thought wewe were dead au something!"
"How the hell did I get here?" I asked. He laughed.
"Mrs. Jenson, the woman down the street, saw wewe passed out on the sidewalk. She came and got me, and I brought wewe here."
"Where's Nikolai?" I asked.
"Grocery shopping. He'll be in for a big surprise when he sees wewe here."
"That reminds me," I said. I smacked my palm upside his skull, making a loud thud. "That's for not coming to get me!" Carmine sighed.
"I guess I deserved that..."
"You deserved much zaidi than that, mister." Just then, Nikolai walked in. He was holding three bags of groceries. They fell to the ground, apples and oranges and what not rolling across the floor.
"Harley...?" he whispered. He stood there frozen in the doorway. I ran over to him and gave him a giant hug.
"Nikolai! I missed you!" I was actually crying. He hugged me close, and kissed my forehead.
"Harley! What are you...? How'd you...?" he was at Lost for words. So was I, frankly. Then Nikolai frowned. "Harley, do wewe know how much trouble we're going to be in if they find out you're here?" I frowned and took a step back.
"So don't tell them," I alisema dully. "I just got here and wewe want me gone already?" Maybe Felicity was right.
"No, I just... I don't want anyone else getting in trouble around here..."
"Nikolai, Reed didn't do it. Someone else killed Dalton."
"You don't know that," Nikolai sighed.
"Yes. I do," I insisted.
"No, wewe don't," Nikolai alisema sternly. I clenched my teeth.
"Let's not talk about this now, ok?" Carmine interrupted. "Harley, wewe look awful. Why don't wewe go take a shower, and I'll get wewe something to eat?" I sighed, but went to the bathroom for a long hot shower.
***
I ate a lot; considering I hadn't eaten barely anything since I'd left Gail's. The thought of her saddened me, which also surprised me. Sure, she was annoying, and rude sometimes, but she was the closest thing I'd ever had to a mom.
And thinking about Gail reminded me of my sisters. Ok, they weren't really my sisters, but again, they were the closest things I'd ever had to sisters. I missed them. I could talk about anything with them. With Nikolai, Carmine, and even Reed, there was that boundary, because they're guys. They just don't think like I do sometimes. It's hard for us to understand each other sometimes. With Scout, and sometimes Aspen, she just gets it.
"So, what was the foster nyumbani like?" Carmine asked. He sounded kind of worried, like he thought I liked it better there than I do here. Did I?
"Well, the woman there was named Gail. She was nice. And there was a girl my age there that I shared a room with. Her name's Scout. Then there's a little girl named Aspen, and another little girl named Jezebel. There's a baby girl named Bride... And Gail has a German Shepherd named Sky. She hated me at first, but then she was nicer." Carmine nodded.
"Geez.... All girls. That musta been annoying," Nikolai said. I frowned. Is that what he thought of me? That I was annoying? He got up and went to go watch TV. Carmine noticed, and smiled at me sympathetically.
"Don't mind him," he whispered. I shook it off.
"So. Are we gonna go find whoever did kill Dalton?" I asked. Nikolai pursed his lips; he was still sure that Reed was the one that killed him. Carmine shook his head.
"Just rest today. We can go tomorrow au something." I groaned. It was late though.... I went to my room, which I hadn't seen in almost three months, and went to sleep. That night, I had a terrible dream.
I dreamt that we did get Reed out of jail, only he wasn't the same. He was... changed. He wasn't nice anymore, he was zaidi like Nikolai, in the moody way. Then he was in the kitchen, when he grabbed a butcher kisu off the counter. He stabbed Nikolai in the heart, then ran after Carmine. I locked myself in the bathroom, leaning against the door. I cried and cried as I heard Carmine scream. Then Reed threw himself against the door, trying to get it open.
I screamed as I woke. I sat up on my futon. I looked around my dark room, but everything was still. No one was there. I sighed a breath of relief, and laid awake for the rest of the night.
It was three whole days before I got close to home. But I was so hungry and tired and hurting that I couldn't even bring myself to be happy. I stumbled on the sidewalk, just two blocks from the apartment. Then my body just couldn't take it anymore and I passed out.
***
I woke up, and my head was killing me. I rolled over on the sidewalk, only to see that it wasn't a sidewalk. I jolted all the way awake, hyperventilating.
I was home!
I jumped up from the couch, looking around. No one was here.
"Hello?" I called. I heard something from down tha hall. Carmine ran in, looking shocked.
"Harley! You're ok!" He ran over, and swooped me up into a giant kubeba hug. "I thought wewe were dead au something!"
"How the hell did I get here?" I asked. He laughed.
"Mrs. Jenson, the woman down the street, saw wewe passed out on the sidewalk. She came and got me, and I brought wewe here."
"Where's Nikolai?" I asked.
"Grocery shopping. He'll be in for a big surprise when he sees wewe here."
"That reminds me," I said. I smacked my palm upside his skull, making a loud thud. "That's for not coming to get me!" Carmine sighed.
"I guess I deserved that..."
"You deserved much zaidi than that, mister." Just then, Nikolai walked in. He was holding three bags of groceries. They fell to the ground, apples and oranges and what not rolling across the floor.
"Harley...?" he whispered. He stood there frozen in the doorway. I ran over to him and gave him a giant hug.
"Nikolai! I missed you!" I was actually crying. He hugged me close, and kissed my forehead.
"Harley! What are you...? How'd you...?" he was at Lost for words. So was I, frankly. Then Nikolai frowned. "Harley, do wewe know how much trouble we're going to be in if they find out you're here?" I frowned and took a step back.
"So don't tell them," I alisema dully. "I just got here and wewe want me gone already?" Maybe Felicity was right.
"No, I just... I don't want anyone else getting in trouble around here..."
"Nikolai, Reed didn't do it. Someone else killed Dalton."
"You don't know that," Nikolai sighed.
"Yes. I do," I insisted.
"No, wewe don't," Nikolai alisema sternly. I clenched my teeth.
"Let's not talk about this now, ok?" Carmine interrupted. "Harley, wewe look awful. Why don't wewe go take a shower, and I'll get wewe something to eat?" I sighed, but went to the bathroom for a long hot shower.
***
I ate a lot; considering I hadn't eaten barely anything since I'd left Gail's. The thought of her saddened me, which also surprised me. Sure, she was annoying, and rude sometimes, but she was the closest thing I'd ever had to a mom.
And thinking about Gail reminded me of my sisters. Ok, they weren't really my sisters, but again, they were the closest things I'd ever had to sisters. I missed them. I could talk about anything with them. With Nikolai, Carmine, and even Reed, there was that boundary, because they're guys. They just don't think like I do sometimes. It's hard for us to understand each other sometimes. With Scout, and sometimes Aspen, she just gets it.
"So, what was the foster nyumbani like?" Carmine asked. He sounded kind of worried, like he thought I liked it better there than I do here. Did I?
"Well, the woman there was named Gail. She was nice. And there was a girl my age there that I shared a room with. Her name's Scout. Then there's a little girl named Aspen, and another little girl named Jezebel. There's a baby girl named Bride... And Gail has a German Shepherd named Sky. She hated me at first, but then she was nicer." Carmine nodded.
"Geez.... All girls. That musta been annoying," Nikolai said. I frowned. Is that what he thought of me? That I was annoying? He got up and went to go watch TV. Carmine noticed, and smiled at me sympathetically.
"Don't mind him," he whispered. I shook it off.
"So. Are we gonna go find whoever did kill Dalton?" I asked. Nikolai pursed his lips; he was still sure that Reed was the one that killed him. Carmine shook his head.
"Just rest today. We can go tomorrow au something." I groaned. It was late though.... I went to my room, which I hadn't seen in almost three months, and went to sleep. That night, I had a terrible dream.
I dreamt that we did get Reed out of jail, only he wasn't the same. He was... changed. He wasn't nice anymore, he was zaidi like Nikolai, in the moody way. Then he was in the kitchen, when he grabbed a butcher kisu off the counter. He stabbed Nikolai in the heart, then ran after Carmine. I locked myself in the bathroom, leaning against the door. I cried and cried as I heard Carmine scream. Then Reed threw himself against the door, trying to get it open.
I screamed as I woke. I sat up on my futon. I looked around my dark room, but everything was still. No one was there. I sighed a breath of relief, and laid awake for the rest of the night.
Chapter 4: Sunny day
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate upendo that never fades.
"I'll see wewe later, darling." - Jack alisema and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the flowers that were growing
in the yard.
These were the days of peace and happiness.
Days were spent in peace and love.
Jack loved his job, even though he wasn't that patient with children who didn't pay attention on his classes.
But, he knew. He was doing something
important, something useful.
And most of all, he knew that his lovely wife
and beautiful little Gwenny were waiting for him
at home.
Dana was amazing at kitchen.
Jack loved everything she made.
One happy family they were.
Like every morning, Jack would go to work,
and Dana would make a breakfast and some coffee to wake them up.
Morning coffee was something wonderful
for both of them.
After having breakfast, Jack would drink coffee
with Dana, looking at her with the same gentle
and passionate upendo that never fades.
"I'll see wewe later, darling." - Jack alisema and
went to work.
Dana was still sitting and enjoying in the coffee,
watching through the window the sunlight.
She could smell the flowers that were growing
in the yard.
I lied
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get zaidi upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to songesha and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I lied to them and got caught
I confessed up and told them the truth
but they get zaidi upset
I walk down the dark hallway
into my lonely empty room
I lie on my bed, thinking
I go to songesha and I can't
I fall down
pain shooting threw me
they walk in
saying I'm faking to make them feel bad
they walk out
leaving me on the ground
crying out in pain
I finally give up
crawl over to the closet
get the gun and cocked it
put it to my temple and pulled the trigger
life...filled with hate
I've chased down all my demons
but it wasn't enough
mistreated,misplaced,misunderstood.
I keep my rhythm
I tap in time,
My muziki is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
au gradually trickle down,
It can make wewe laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
muziki is the chakula I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
muziki is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
wewe can always find a friend in music
muziki will always be.
I tap in time,
My muziki is my world
An angry beat inside.
It can crash like a waterfall
au gradually trickle down,
It can make wewe laugh and cry
That powerful sound.
My headphones on my head
The lyrics flowing though,
Filling up my brain
muziki is the chakula I chew.
It can be beautiful, strange
Crazy and cool,
I couldn't live without music
There's a style to suit all.
muziki is like a brand new life
Jumping around your mind,
Each instrument that is played
Is an ingredient to find.
There's nothing quite like music
There's nothing quite like me,
wewe can always find a friend in music
muziki will always be.
The city of light was full of marchants and villagers. Elyon stood and gazed at them from the huge silver gate. And gurding the gate was two broad shouldered men, wearing bright white robes, that glowed from every angle.
"Excuse me?" the man with blonde hair asked. When Elyon took a shaky step forward, the men stared shocked at her.
"Elyon? What are wewe doing outside the city?" The man asked. Elyon took in a deep sharp breath and took another shaky step forward. She still hadnt noticed that the vilagers were watching silently.
"Elyon...my name is..?she smiled and fell into the darknes, fainted. The two gaurds rushed to her aid, and the vilagers erupted into a panicky uproar
"Quick take her to Lady Alexsis!" the man with darker ahir nodded, picked up Elyon and disapered.
"Leo? What the hell is going on? This is a bad sign," an old man closest to the alone guard asked.
"I dont know," he muttered looking up at the ngome of light, "i really dont know,".
maoni PLZ
"Excuse me?" the man with blonde hair asked. When Elyon took a shaky step forward, the men stared shocked at her.
"Elyon? What are wewe doing outside the city?" The man asked. Elyon took in a deep sharp breath and took another shaky step forward. She still hadnt noticed that the vilagers were watching silently.
"Elyon...my name is..?she smiled and fell into the darknes, fainted. The two gaurds rushed to her aid, and the vilagers erupted into a panicky uproar
"Quick take her to Lady Alexsis!" the man with darker ahir nodded, picked up Elyon and disapered.
"Leo? What the hell is going on? This is a bad sign," an old man closest to the alone guard asked.
"I dont know," he muttered looking up at the ngome of light, "i really dont know,".
maoni PLZ
The pain wewe caused isn't what scarred me
The burning tears wewe left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my moyo beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain wewe left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend wewe were when wewe were here
But the legacy in my moyo that wewe left!
The burning tears wewe left me to shed isn't what burned me
Your last words aren't what hindered me
It was the Legend.
That endless struggle to win
To fight back
To not toss and turn in my bed
That secure feeling I had before you
To feel as a sharp as a pencil lead
Now that loneliness I feel without you
A constant reminder
Feeling my moyo beat again
Done with the breathtaking moments
And the heart-skipping kisses
To breathe again
Over and Done with
It wasn't those tears
It wasn't those words
It wasn't all that pain wewe left me to bare.
It wasn't the legend wewe were when wewe were here
But the legacy in my moyo that wewe left!
There I was. *sigh* Just sitting there, waiting for him. Who? wewe ask? My crush, Patrick Wellsiben, he was the one for me. Let alone, him being THE most maarufu boy in school, I was known as a loser. I was the omega of the mbwa mwitu pack. What am I talking about? Nevermind. My conscience says "Ask him out!", but my guts say "Don't do it you! He's gonna say no!" I don't know what to do! He comes near me and says "Hey." I stand there like a scarecrow smiling. "I feel stupid." "So stupid." Why shouldn't I get the attention from populars? I have short, thick black hair, I wear tank tops all the time, regular jeans and converse. So much for fitting in.
It's Funny, I Use To Be Popular. At First Some People Loved Me And Others Hated Me. Now Everyone Hates Me. Even My Old Best Friends. wewe See, I Always Found A Flaw In Everyone And Used It To Hurt Them. Not Physicly Hurt. I Made Them Feel Horrible About Them Selves. I Was The Reason wewe Cried On The Way Home. The Reason wewe Fake Sicked. Of Course Karma Came And Hit Me Like A Ton Of Bricks. I Try Hard To Be Nice, But No One At School Pays Attention To Me. Except Teachers. I Even Tried Sitting With My Old Friends.
"Hey, Guys!" I Said
"What Are wewe Doing Here?" alisema Lexi Illing
"I Just Wanted To Sit With You."
"Well, Their's No Room"
"Yeah, Right There." I alisema Pointing To The Empty Chair At The End.
"Well," alisema Victoria Khan Placing Her vitabu On The Seat. "Now It's Taken."
Everyone Laughed. Except Me Of Course. I Just Walked Away. Wishing, I Had Never Been So Cruel.
"Hey, Guys!" I Said
"What Are wewe Doing Here?" alisema Lexi Illing
"I Just Wanted To Sit With You."
"Well, Their's No Room"
"Yeah, Right There." I alisema Pointing To The Empty Chair At The End.
"Well," alisema Victoria Khan Placing Her vitabu On The Seat. "Now It's Taken."
Everyone Laughed. Except Me Of Course. I Just Walked Away. Wishing, I Had Never Been So Cruel.