Because it ultimately showed me that I would have to take risks ( or literally nothing would happen), and I would have to learn to live with failure ( and display indomitable spirit without isolating from everyone else around me, who ironically were all succeeding while I was the one failing).

The cost of having a full life that comes with its sacrifices ( and pulling so hard to reach your goals) is the ONLY way to live. Otherwise, you just are waiting on chance or on circumstances that are outside of you--- and those don't always line up with what you're hoping for.

This used to be my case. I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disease when I was nearly 18. But before the diagnose I used to get sick a lot (early teens). I changed schools at 15, the first year I spent a month at a hospital in another state where they took a lot of tests trying to find the diagnostic (No luck). I returned home and was sick for a month. I recovered. Practically I was already out of the school but the principal said "If she manages to pass her mid term exams, she can continue the year". I only failed the math exam and the math teacher accepted to give me another chance. I managed to pass the second time.

My classmates didn´t understood and for them I was the strange girl, the weird girl. They didn´t treated me badly, they were polite but they never tried to know me. I only found out they thought I was strange because they posted on a social network page they had for the classroom (They never even asked why I hadn´t gone to school). Only 2 (now) ex-friends knew and they only saw the "superficial" part. One went to my school, the other didn´t.

During the month I was sick I remember listening Disney songs lots of times and "Part of your World was one of the ones I constantly repeated. It also helped me because I kept pushing not only to show everyone I could return and continue with my life, but also to show myself I wasn´t letting it stop me. And in the present I´m still showing people I can be Part of their World.