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Harma's story: I Killed Them        

Each siku I'm face with killing myself au killing the people around me...I guess I made up my mind? I guess I chose to let myself lose control? And do what felt right...even though I new it wasn't. I new that it wound come back and haunt me one day. Well really it haunt's me every siku every dakika and every second. From when I'm sleeping from the moment I did that unthinkable thing I did. It will never leave because I know there watching...
    But no one wound believe that a little 13 mwaka old would do such a thing. I mean look at her, Look at her cold purple eyes and perfectly cut black hair, and small but healthy body. She looks harmless. Just a missing piece in the game who was left behind and saved. au in other words not killed. Not killed kwa the still not found Wood mitaani, mtaa Murder. The case still is open. Mrs. and Mr. Lowing and there Oldest Son, Oldest daughterand new born baby boy were all killed. No one know's who did it. But I know who did it I know who killed them I know who cut them and shot them stabed them hanged them and made them go crazy. I know who Killed them...Because...because I killed them.

~~~~~~~~~~Envy's story: The Broken Hearted~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

    Have wewe ever loved someone so much that it hurts? au have wewe ever wanted something so badly that wewe would any thing for it? Well if wewe have not let me tell wewe one thing...It's an terrable feeling. The feeling when your so desprite that wewe wound kill, hurt and cry. I've done and felt all those things and look were it's lead me. It's lead me to a world a pain and death. The death here is almost untouchable. Now I don't know what to do? He broken my heart, And I don't know if it's fixable. I think I'll be like this forever. Be anger and hate hurt and pain and broken...But I don't what to be those things I want to be happy and free and...and Loved.
    I want to be loved like everyone else. But there's no one left to upendo me. There all gone and who would upendo me after what I've done? Who would upendo a girl who killed so many people and hurt even more? Even if there was someone which I hope there's not. I would most likely kill them in the end...I can't trust any zaidi au upendo au even be loved but does mean I'm broken?

~~~~~~~~Misty's story: No zaidi Light

The light is gone,
the women,
who proved to me,
that beauty still does exist,
even in the cruelest circumstances,
but she is gone,
the light has gone,
now im alone,
hiding in the dark

all my hope
all my dreams
all my happyness
have died
iv died
i should never be happy cause then all
i feel the pain
why should i live
why should i die
all there's things
go around and around in my head
iv scream
iv cryed
iv locked my self in my room
cutting myself
waching all the blood from my cuts
i dont feel any pain
i feel nouthing
my tears are full of pain
i feel so cold
that painful night
iv died from the inside
my eyes have no light
iv got scars
they say
'i wish i was dead! '
i
have nouthing to live for
nouthing to be loss if i die
why should i live
the world has no light to me any more
iv died
but wewe dont know
do wewe care
do wewe feel the pain
i felt
do wewe cry
i will never know...

Soft tears fell down her face as her mother craddle her in her arms saying. "Light will come back, light is here, Light will always be with you." She began to sing along. "Light is strong, light will win, light is life and love." Her mother pitted her up so that her scarlet red eyes were looking right in to her icy blue eyes.
"Remember the light will never leave you, your strong don't let the darkness win." Her voice so warm and sweet. She gentlly kissed her forehead and hugged her sweetly and slowly rubbed her head. And before she new it she was asleep once more...
But all dreams have to end even the brightest soul's have darkness deep with in them...specially ones with dark past...and future's. Darkness can devour a person making every little disappear, making the room dark and evil like a black hole with no way out. But we all know that, that's no way to live your life scared and confused hiding in the corner of your room. But what if one little girl had to...because she was to scared to sleep...

wewe look at her she looks like a normal girl. Her hair tied back with a ribbon and her new shoes polished. And she's wearing her new dress that has bright colors of pink red and white with flower's thron every which way. She looks normal right? Well this little girl with scarlet eyes and pale white skin has a few secret's...But lets not get in to that. wewe look at her yes she's little and sweet but her moyo and her destiny are much darker....
I have but one swali for you. Do wewe believe in Magic? If wewe do then I have another swali for you. Do wewe believe in Witches and vichimbakazi and Heros? If wewe do keep reading...because I have another question. Do wewe believe in darkness and light? Because dakness and light live in everything in everyone...even you. Some have zaidi darkness then other's some have zaidi light. But no madder who wewe are wewe both...but one little didn't believe there was any light left for her. Because her life was felled with monster's and deadly dreams. All she saw was darkness and evil...could even imagine that. Only seeing darkness no light no good only bad. I coldn't even imagine what she thinks when she goes to sleep at night wondering if she'll wake up and it will be better again au wake to everything she's ever loved gone...But no one cares about the little blonde girl who cries on Brixtion street. No one cares that she cries herself to sleep au the terrible things she does in the bathroom while her parents are away. No cares about little old Misty S. Roseberg...

~~MADE UP THIS POEM~

Pain, Pain Go Away,
Come again another day.
If wewe don't then I will sing.
Pain, Pain Go Away...
My eyes are heavy
My feet are in flame
I cannot hear what wewe say
I cannot say what wewe say
My limbs are numb
My arms are armed
I cannot walk
I cannot run
I have got stuck forever in the magical tablet of sun
Pain pain go away
She left forever
She won't come
It's only wewe and me
Pleasure far away
Frost gather on my wings
I try to fly
But the gravity defy
The higher I rise
The further I sigh
There's no escape from this inescapable lie.
So
Pain
Pain
Go
Away
 Harma when she was little
Harma when she was little
 Envy little
Envy little
 Misty little
Misty little
posted by SongGirl50701
 Tears...
Tears...
Hall of Fame

by SongGirl (Maria mason)
Hall of Fame:Consequences

    
The siku Has Come To Seak Light, What DOES SOMEONE Do When They Have No shoulder To Burry In?
"How does a girl come out from a rabbit hole, un changed? The answer: She doesn't."
"It's time to stop pretending and take my moyo in my own hands. Leave your prints on my moyo but I've got nothing to loose." ~Laura Walter

"You can't help to turn back and hope that you'll get another shot but its not. Let the soothing doubts around wewe get too wewe is just simply something I can't do. So I am locked up tight in a...
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posted by SongGirl50701
 Wearing Kat's hat
Wearing Kat's hat
Song Girl~ I have been listening to a lot of muziki that has been making me understand life but I found a lot of songs that makes me realizes this is similar; BUT OH MY GOD!!! I FUCKING upendo wewe THREE DAYS GRACE!!!!!!

Songs I upendo kwa Three Days Grace:

get Out Alive
Never Too Late
Riot
Animal I have become
Pain
The Good Life
Break
Let It Die
Operation
Its All Over
over and Over
Time Of Dying
Gone Forever
One-X
Running Away

"Life Starts Now"
uchungu, chungu Taste
Break
World So Cold
Lost In You
The Good Life
No More
Last To Know
Someone Who Cares
Bully
Without You
Goin' Down
Life Starts Now

"Transit Of Venus"
Sign...
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posted by SongGirl50701
 Crazy Girl
Crazy Girl
Crazy Girl

"I don't know what I did to deserve this."
"I just want to curl up and just die in the core of the earth."
"I've never felt so alone. I don't know why they called me all those mean names. I just want to fit in."

Soon there will be laughter instead of the voices.
The new ditches are dug with Satin softly speaking towards us to drag the blade.
Names marked on us like banners, but they don't understand decide to cut wewe and deny their skill while they tear wewe apart.
oh, either way would have been the way to awaken from the depths.

So the Angel of me dies with the screams of my blood.
Still...
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posted by BooBooBear981
~~~ FOR ALL THE PEOPLE IN UNCOMPREHENDABLE PAIN~~~

Black moyo Black Soul

Filthy like Coal

Dark moyo Dark Soul

Not even a Role

Gloomy moyo Gloomy Soul

Left there Broken

On an Abandoned Knoll

Cold moyo Cold Soul

Never a Whole

Bloody, Hurt, Plenty of Wounds

Nobody Heard that Piercing Cry

Leaving Scars

I might as well Die

With my Black moyo and Black Soul

Maybe wewe will come kwa

And Watch me Weep

As I zoom in to a forever Sleep

~~~ Anonymous

"A Note from the Author"

Every 4o sekunde a person dies from suicde. Decreasing the population. Bloody brutal deaths au easy painless ones. But People will never know how much it hurts. The Depression, Bullying, anything that Brings wewe down really does hurt. Most of the time wewe don't even know what the person is doing, and how much pain they are in. I wrote this for everyone in as much pain as i am au even more. May someone wipe away their tears,
 "I wonder if they'd miss me..."
"I wonder if they'd miss me..."
Hearing Damage
CHAPTER 1–Damee’s Past.

December 24th, 2004

I smiled as I saw two faces in the mirror. One of them was mine and the other was of a woman who looked to be in her late twenties with dark brown hair and dark cerulean eyes. She was wearing a dark blue dress with diamond earrings and her face full of light make-up. In the mirror, I thought of her as a princess like in those fairytale stories.
The woman was my mom.
My mom breathed, squeezing my shoulders gently. "You look beautiful sweetie," she said.
"Thanks mom." I smiled a small smile, looking over at her. I was scared of my reflection,...
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Did wewe know that 160,00 kids stay nyumbani from school everyday?

Because of Bullying and beginning abused at school...

There
Alone
Afraid
Hurt
Need Help
Crying
Silent
Dieing inside
Slowly killing them selfs...

While wewe stand there and watch and don't do anything..

Most kids don't tell anyone there being bullied because there scared...

144,000 of the 160,000 are reaching out to us we listen buts theres really nothing we can do..

Because there telling theres storys on youtube..

144,000 of them are trying to reach out to strangers...

When they could tell someone inayofuata to them...

Will wewe just watch as someone slowlly...
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posted by malmcd
Hatred

I am one of the Seven Deadly Sins,
And wewe know what I am capable of.
For I am a human instinct,
And yet a daemon from the Pit,
And wewe must beware of me,
For I can kill wewe in the end.

I am the reason
You hold a grudge against your friend,
For I am the reason wewe cannot forgive him,
And I am also the reason why wewe murdered
The man who wronged wewe in plain sight.

I am the reason
That Jacob and Esau fought so
Badly and yet held a grudge.
I am also the reason why Cain and Abel
Did not get along,
And why Cain murdered Abel,
His own brother.

I am the reason why the Israelites
Made the Golden Calf
While Moses...
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posted by malmcd
Greed

Do wewe want everything in life?
Do wewe always want everything?
Anything wewe can ever imagine?

My friend, I am your worst enemy.
I am the reason wewe are
So materialistic and so miserable,
For wewe know that I am
One of the Seven Deadly Sins,
And wewe know that I will kill you
Eventually,
And it amuses me to see wewe suffer.

All wewe want is money
And zaidi money,
And wewe want the newest car,
The newest cell phone,
Expensive watches,
The newest TV,
The newest appliances,
The new iPad,
And the new iPhone.

Money is your god,
And wewe have forgotten about Him,
The one who has aliyopewa wewe everything,
The one who is the reason...
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posted by malmcd
Sloth

'Do wewe ever get off the couch, sir?
Do wewe ever get off the kitanda and stop watching TV?
Do wewe ever go for a run?
Do wewe ever simply walk around au exercise outside?
Do wewe just play video games all day, sir?
Do wewe even do any work?
Man, wewe are lazy! '

I would not be surprised if someone
Said this to you, my friend,
For I am the cause of it all.
I am one of the Deadly Sins,
As wewe humans call me,
For I am what makes people a lazy bum.

I am a daemon from the pits of hell,
As are all my other brothers,
But I must say,
That I am not a sin,
But rather a human instinct.
And it amuses me to see wewe sit around...
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posted by malmcd
If tears left scars then the world would know who wewe truly are.
For your tears leave scars and it would onyesha them how much you've cried and been crying.
It would onyesha them your pain and sadness that wewe always have tried to keep in
But one siku wewe just let it out for know reason...
Maybe it's because your friend turned on you?
Maybe it's because wewe long for someone?
Maybe it's because the one wewe want most is breaking wewe but wewe still upendo him in the end?

Maybe it's all of those things...
au maybe your just hurt and afraid that wewe can never fix your self again...

If tears left scars the world would know how much pain your truly in.
They would see that your hurt in zaidi ways then one...
They would see the real you...
But until that siku comes
I guess people will just have to hide it away...


Fierce & upendo
Malmcd
Poem Girl
Mallory McDonald
I woke up to Moms voice
"Anneri I need wewe too go out to the vines today!" Me and Anneri lay on the floor, me against the wall, Anneri pressed into my chest. At Moms call Anneri sat up, her black hair a mess.
"Coming Mommie!" she shouted and quickly ran a brush through her hair, grabbed her hoodie and grabbed her usual sack. I walked with her into the kitchen, Dad was sprawled out sitting in a chair his face on the table. Not surprisingly, another bottle in his hand. Mom handed Anneri a bottle of water and brushed Anneri's hair out of her eye.
"You know which vines to pick right? And which...
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There's a crack in my moyo from,
The Pain,
The Hurt,
From You.

My moyo has your name written all over it
My moyo beats faster when I see your face
Just your name makes me smile.

Why.
Why did wewe leave me with such as cruse
A cruse of loving you
and now I can't let wewe go
Your the only one that can fix my heart

But at the same time your the one who put the crack in my heart...

I can't trusted wewe
But I want to
I can't believe you
But I still lesson
I want to leave wewe and never look back
But I can't because my moyo can't last much longer

Your the glue to fix my beaten heart
It's crying for you
but wewe don't hear
wewe just walked away from me
and left me there crying in the rain

How can wewe be so curl when I gave wewe everything I had
Your a moyo breaker
wewe don't get it do you
wewe broke me
and wewe hurt me
and wewe felt nothing...
    Alice could still fell the warm breeze glide across her skin and through her blonde streaked strawberry red hair, making it fly every which way. She remembered looking over at he father with his warm brown eyes and brown hair a shade litter then his eyes. His nose big as every. She would always make fun of him for that nose. She remembered leaning in to give him a warm kiss on the check and saying, “I upendo wewe dad.” He looked down at her and said,”I upendo wewe two.” As he turned into the inayofuata road, She gasp. He slams on the breaks but it’s to late. They were...
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This is a little song I wrote after I herd that one song :P

(Female Solo)
What won't kill me will make me stronger
I'll try to stand a little taller even thought hurts
Tryin to keep my head up high
When other people beat me down
But I just say

What dosn't kill me makes me stronger
I'll try and stand a little taller
Then I'm lean'n over to help others up
And hold there hand when I'm trying to get braver
Trying to get smarter
Maybe when I'm dead they will understand
But my Marafiki pull me back up
And we will say together

(Two zaidi girls jiunge in)
What dosnt kill us makes us stronger
Make ourselves a little...
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posted by snootygirl50701
~Magically Gone~
Review
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Book 1: Blown Away
Info: Born when her mother died in livebirth,little Rocky stays with her father near a forests. Five forest that never would bother Rocky. Infact,it was home. nyumbani that was blown away when something happened. Something that grew wings and flapped it all away. Rocky's life is never the same. Just imagine,you were born and living with only your living parent. Your Angel wings won't work and wewe atleast knock down your mother's diary. The upendo twisting story will bring wewe alive to the real world. Your Angel au butterfly, kipepeo wings are going to dry...yes,yes they will!

This is for ALL wewe fly fellows! *giggles*

♥ SnOoKiE♥
♪♪♪♪
posted by snootygirl50701
 Rose
Rose
~Magically Gone~
Book 1: Blown Away
Proluage
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Dear Diary,

I never knew I was pregnant. No one would have expected it. Only,I am. Eight months pregnant with a little girl in me. I know she will be great as her owner. For her too live the life she wants to. I believe I might name her Bella au Rocky. I'll just have to wait and see....

Love to my little girl in me,
Vanessa
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Dear Diary,

Its the ninth month. I'm ready. I hope. I'll be right her...
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posted by allicyn123
"Just a waste of time," when the words hit me I didn't expect tue extreme shock even Dana looks back at Izzy with surprised eyes. I cant move, it hurts. Music? A waste of time? I can't even stop my mouth from barely falling open as Izzy stares back at us coldly and almost hisses "What? It's a waste of my time!" I'm sure wewe wouldn't have alisema that a mwaka ago I almost blurt out but I know better and just watch Izzy angrily walk away. What about all the times we spent just having a half saa a siku to at around as Izzy lightly played her guitar, gitaa and I sat there imba the lyrics. Those ads are...
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posted by malmcd
SOME WORDS AND THERE MEANINGS

The Golden Race- Golden Race is a race to the Dream Star.

Dream Star- The Dream nyota is a magical light that can grant any wish au dream all wewe have to do is touch it.

The moyo Festival- The moyo Festival is the siku when the pick the three names out of the jar to go into the race.

Unica- A place (country) were the people and creatures are ruled kwa a President. The President desides what wewe do when wewe do it and how wewe do it. There is no freedom.

Hangor- Hangor is the Capital of Unica.

Ulla- Ulla is part of Unica. It is the poorest part and it was boomed because...
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posted by SongGirl50701
Hope wewe enjoy. This is advice out for those with this..
I'm in process of making a YouTube channel and put out my songs. When I do... I'll link it out.
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Cheated.

[rap]
Like a wound au a burn, it's gonna make wewe learn.
I saved and forgave, never forget.
But what I'm about to say is worth the fit,
cause it's ancient art even if it even happened to wewe yesterday au a whole week to come pass.
'Can't press pause and play back, because the moment is now.
Can't get it back from the grave.'
I think wewe should promote it.
Even if your too late, au the cause of this blurry eyed fate.
I lived...
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posted by SongGirl50701
--Don't Claim-- But here it is---

Somewhere in some place, was a dream.

No one knew who dreamt it,
And it was so very small.

The little dream thought,
"I don't want to vanish like this."
"How can I make people see me?"

The little dream thought and thought,
and finally came up with an idea.

"I could just let people stray into me,
and they can create their own world"

The first Alice was brave and strong, her eyes were fiery red,
In Wonderland, she had a sword and ideas in her head
She cut down many sorts of things, whatever she could find
To make a path of bright red with the trail of blood behind
Alice was...
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