Harma's story: I Killed Them
Each siku I'm face with killing myself au killing the people around me...I guess I made up my mind? I guess I chose to let myself lose control? And do what felt right...even though I new it wasn't. I new that it wound come back and haunt me one day. Well really it haunt's me every siku every dakika and every second. From when I'm sleeping from the moment I did that unthinkable thing I did. It will never leave because I know there watching...
But no one wound believe that a little 13 mwaka old would do such a thing. I mean look at her, Look at her cold purple eyes and perfectly cut black hair, and small but healthy body. She looks harmless. Just a missing piece in the game who was left behind and saved. au in other words not killed. Not killed kwa the still not found Wood mitaani, mtaa Murder. The case still is open. Mrs. and Mr. Lowing and there Oldest Son, Oldest daughterand new born baby boy were all killed. No one know's who did it. But I know who did it I know who killed them I know who cut them and shot them stabed them hanged them and made them go crazy. I know who Killed them...Because...because I killed them.
~~~~~~~~~~Envy's story: The Broken Hearted~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Have wewe ever loved someone so much that it hurts? au have wewe ever wanted something so badly that wewe would any thing for it? Well if wewe have not let me tell wewe one thing...It's an terrable feeling. The feeling when your so desprite that wewe wound kill, hurt and cry. I've done and felt all those things and look were it's lead me. It's lead me to a world a pain and death. The death here is almost untouchable. Now I don't know what to do? He broken my heart, And I don't know if it's fixable. I think I'll be like this forever. Be anger and hate hurt and pain and broken...But I don't what to be those things I want to be happy and free and...and Loved.
I want to be loved like everyone else. But there's no one left to upendo me. There all gone and who would upendo me after what I've done? Who would upendo a girl who killed so many people and hurt even more? Even if there was someone which I hope there's not. I would most likely kill them in the end...I can't trust any zaidi au upendo au even be loved but does mean I'm broken?
~~~~~~~~Misty's story: No zaidi Light
The light is gone,
the women,
who proved to me,
that beauty still does exist,
even in the cruelest circumstances,
but she is gone,
the light has gone,
now im alone,
hiding in the dark
all my hope
all my dreams
all my happyness
have died
iv died
i should never be happy cause then all
i feel the pain
why should i live
why should i die
all there's things
go around and around in my head
iv scream
iv cryed
iv locked my self in my room
cutting myself
waching all the blood from my cuts
i dont feel any pain
i feel nouthing
my tears are full of pain
i feel so cold
that painful night
iv died from the inside
my eyes have no light
iv got scars
they say
'i wish i was dead! '
i
have nouthing to live for
nouthing to be loss if i die
why should i live
the world has no light to me any more
iv died
but wewe dont know
do wewe care
do wewe feel the pain
i felt
do wewe cry
i will never know...
Soft tears fell down her face as her mother craddle her in her arms saying. "Light will come back, light is here, Light will always be with you." She began to sing along. "Light is strong, light will win, light is life and love." Her mother pitted her up so that her scarlet red eyes were looking right in to her icy blue eyes.
"Remember the light will never leave you, your strong don't let the darkness win." Her voice so warm and sweet. She gentlly kissed her forehead and hugged her sweetly and slowly rubbed her head. And before she new it she was asleep once more...
But all dreams have to end even the brightest soul's have darkness deep with in them...specially ones with dark past...and future's. Darkness can devour a person making every little disappear, making the room dark and evil like a black hole with no way out. But we all know that, that's no way to live your life scared and confused hiding in the corner of your room. But what if one little girl had to...because she was to scared to sleep...
wewe look at her she looks like a normal girl. Her hair tied back with a ribbon and her new shoes polished. And she's wearing her new dress that has bright colors of pink red and white with flower's thron every which way. She looks normal right? Well this little girl with scarlet eyes and pale white skin has a few secret's...But lets not get in to that. wewe look at her yes she's little and sweet but her moyo and her destiny are much darker....
I have but one swali for you. Do wewe believe in Magic? If wewe do then I have another swali for you. Do wewe believe in Witches and vichimbakazi and Heros? If wewe do keep reading...because I have another question. Do wewe believe in darkness and light? Because dakness and light live in everything in everyone...even you. Some have zaidi darkness then other's some have zaidi light. But no madder who wewe are wewe both...but one little didn't believe there was any light left for her. Because her life was felled with monster's and deadly dreams. All she saw was darkness and evil...could even imagine that. Only seeing darkness no light no good only bad. I coldn't even imagine what she thinks when she goes to sleep at night wondering if she'll wake up and it will be better again au wake to everything she's ever loved gone...But no one cares about the little blonde girl who cries on Brixtion street. No one cares that she cries herself to sleep au the terrible things she does in the bathroom while her parents are away. No cares about little old Misty S. Roseberg...
~~MADE UP THIS POEM~
Pain, Pain Go Away,
Come again another day.
If wewe don't then I will sing.
Pain, Pain Go Away...
My eyes are heavy
My feet are in flame
I cannot hear what wewe say
I cannot say what wewe say
My limbs are numb
My arms are armed
I cannot walk
I cannot run
I have got stuck forever in the magical tablet of sun
Pain pain go away
She left forever
She won't come
It's only wewe and me
Pleasure far away
Frost gather on my wings
I try to fly
But the gravity defy
The higher I rise
The further I sigh
There's no escape from this inescapable lie.
So
Pain
Pain
Go
Away
Each siku I'm face with killing myself au killing the people around me...I guess I made up my mind? I guess I chose to let myself lose control? And do what felt right...even though I new it wasn't. I new that it wound come back and haunt me one day. Well really it haunt's me every siku every dakika and every second. From when I'm sleeping from the moment I did that unthinkable thing I did. It will never leave because I know there watching...
But no one wound believe that a little 13 mwaka old would do such a thing. I mean look at her, Look at her cold purple eyes and perfectly cut black hair, and small but healthy body. She looks harmless. Just a missing piece in the game who was left behind and saved. au in other words not killed. Not killed kwa the still not found Wood mitaani, mtaa Murder. The case still is open. Mrs. and Mr. Lowing and there Oldest Son, Oldest daughterand new born baby boy were all killed. No one know's who did it. But I know who did it I know who killed them I know who cut them and shot them stabed them hanged them and made them go crazy. I know who Killed them...Because...because I killed them.
~~~~~~~~~~Envy's story: The Broken Hearted~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Have wewe ever loved someone so much that it hurts? au have wewe ever wanted something so badly that wewe would any thing for it? Well if wewe have not let me tell wewe one thing...It's an terrable feeling. The feeling when your so desprite that wewe wound kill, hurt and cry. I've done and felt all those things and look were it's lead me. It's lead me to a world a pain and death. The death here is almost untouchable. Now I don't know what to do? He broken my heart, And I don't know if it's fixable. I think I'll be like this forever. Be anger and hate hurt and pain and broken...But I don't what to be those things I want to be happy and free and...and Loved.
I want to be loved like everyone else. But there's no one left to upendo me. There all gone and who would upendo me after what I've done? Who would upendo a girl who killed so many people and hurt even more? Even if there was someone which I hope there's not. I would most likely kill them in the end...I can't trust any zaidi au upendo au even be loved but does mean I'm broken?
~~~~~~~~Misty's story: No zaidi Light
The light is gone,
the women,
who proved to me,
that beauty still does exist,
even in the cruelest circumstances,
but she is gone,
the light has gone,
now im alone,
hiding in the dark
all my hope
all my dreams
all my happyness
have died
iv died
i should never be happy cause then all
i feel the pain
why should i live
why should i die
all there's things
go around and around in my head
iv scream
iv cryed
iv locked my self in my room
cutting myself
waching all the blood from my cuts
i dont feel any pain
i feel nouthing
my tears are full of pain
i feel so cold
that painful night
iv died from the inside
my eyes have no light
iv got scars
they say
'i wish i was dead! '
i
have nouthing to live for
nouthing to be loss if i die
why should i live
the world has no light to me any more
iv died
but wewe dont know
do wewe care
do wewe feel the pain
i felt
do wewe cry
i will never know...
Soft tears fell down her face as her mother craddle her in her arms saying. "Light will come back, light is here, Light will always be with you." She began to sing along. "Light is strong, light will win, light is life and love." Her mother pitted her up so that her scarlet red eyes were looking right in to her icy blue eyes.
"Remember the light will never leave you, your strong don't let the darkness win." Her voice so warm and sweet. She gentlly kissed her forehead and hugged her sweetly and slowly rubbed her head. And before she new it she was asleep once more...
But all dreams have to end even the brightest soul's have darkness deep with in them...specially ones with dark past...and future's. Darkness can devour a person making every little disappear, making the room dark and evil like a black hole with no way out. But we all know that, that's no way to live your life scared and confused hiding in the corner of your room. But what if one little girl had to...because she was to scared to sleep...
wewe look at her she looks like a normal girl. Her hair tied back with a ribbon and her new shoes polished. And she's wearing her new dress that has bright colors of pink red and white with flower's thron every which way. She looks normal right? Well this little girl with scarlet eyes and pale white skin has a few secret's...But lets not get in to that. wewe look at her yes she's little and sweet but her moyo and her destiny are much darker....
I have but one swali for you. Do wewe believe in Magic? If wewe do then I have another swali for you. Do wewe believe in Witches and vichimbakazi and Heros? If wewe do keep reading...because I have another question. Do wewe believe in darkness and light? Because dakness and light live in everything in everyone...even you. Some have zaidi darkness then other's some have zaidi light. But no madder who wewe are wewe both...but one little didn't believe there was any light left for her. Because her life was felled with monster's and deadly dreams. All she saw was darkness and evil...could even imagine that. Only seeing darkness no light no good only bad. I coldn't even imagine what she thinks when she goes to sleep at night wondering if she'll wake up and it will be better again au wake to everything she's ever loved gone...But no one cares about the little blonde girl who cries on Brixtion street. No one cares that she cries herself to sleep au the terrible things she does in the bathroom while her parents are away. No cares about little old Misty S. Roseberg...
~~MADE UP THIS POEM~
Pain, Pain Go Away,
Come again another day.
If wewe don't then I will sing.
Pain, Pain Go Away...
My eyes are heavy
My feet are in flame
I cannot hear what wewe say
I cannot say what wewe say
My limbs are numb
My arms are armed
I cannot walk
I cannot run
I have got stuck forever in the magical tablet of sun
Pain pain go away
She left forever
She won't come
It's only wewe and me
Pleasure far away
Frost gather on my wings
I try to fly
But the gravity defy
The higher I rise
The further I sigh
There's no escape from this inescapable lie.
So
Pain
Pain
Go
Away
Harma when she was little
Envy little
Misty little
Dear Self
What if wewe don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last siku on this earth?
What if that two dakika conversation wewe had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time wewe ever spoke to her?
What if wewe never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile au talk to him ever again?
What if wewe later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would wewe be proud of the life wewe have lived?
Will wewe regret something that wewe did au did not say?
Would wewe be proud of how people would remember you?
Would wewe regret not taking zaidi chances, au not telling him what wewe really feel for him?
I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My moyo racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..
What if wewe don’t wake up tomorrow?
What if this is your last siku on this earth?
What if that two dakika conversation wewe had with your mother two hours ago, was the last time wewe ever spoke to her?
What if wewe never ever would hear him laugh, see his smile au talk to him ever again?
What if wewe later this night take your last breath?
What then?
Would wewe be proud of the life wewe have lived?
Will wewe regret something that wewe did au did not say?
Would wewe be proud of how people would remember you?
Would wewe regret not taking zaidi chances, au not telling him what wewe really feel for him?
I see a world of darkness and my hands are shaking..
My legs are numb..
My eyes heavy..
My moyo racing..
Blacking out..
Will pills in my hands..
Hoping that they'll end the pain and I'll sleep forever..
Maybe this will be my last goodbye..
My final breath..
