I met this girl four weeks zamani and since then we have spent most of our time together; we even worked out the other siku we've seen each other everyday for nearly 3 weeks. From the beginning our relationship was very touchy feely and I had no problem with that; the only thing is I think I've started developing feelings for her plus I've never liked a girl before.
After a few times of her coming round my house my family started making funny maoni like 'are wewe decent?' before coming in the room when she was around. I thought nothing of it until we were at the chajio, chakula cha jioni and they started questioning me on whether I like, obviously I alisema no and that we were just friends; I know they'd be 100% fine with it but I don't want to go round saying I like her if its not true.
We always give each other kisses and she's even aliyopewa me upendo bites! When I'm with her I feel salama like nothing could go wrong; before I met her I was dealing with controlling anxiety and depression but since I've met her myself and others have realised how much better I'm doing; I've never been good at opening up but with her its just so simple. I don't want to lead her on as she's had a pretty rough history with relationships and when I think about it I want to be the girl that changes all that for her. she also has people telling her that they like her all the time; I get jealous and don't like it when she hangs with them. I'm just not sure whether what I'm feeling is friendship and the fact I'm confused is letting me lead her on au whether I genuinely like her?
I'm not the type to tell someone I like them but I don't want to loose her either. I know she likes me, she's told me before but I don't want to say I like her back then realise that it was just friendship all long and be yet another girl who's messed her around and hurt her feelings. I just need advice/opinions that may help me become less confused.
After a few times of her coming round my house my family started making funny maoni like 'are wewe decent?' before coming in the room when she was around. I thought nothing of it until we were at the chajio, chakula cha jioni and they started questioning me on whether I like, obviously I alisema no and that we were just friends; I know they'd be 100% fine with it but I don't want to go round saying I like her if its not true.
We always give each other kisses and she's even aliyopewa me upendo bites! When I'm with her I feel salama like nothing could go wrong; before I met her I was dealing with controlling anxiety and depression but since I've met her myself and others have realised how much better I'm doing; I've never been good at opening up but with her its just so simple. I don't want to lead her on as she's had a pretty rough history with relationships and when I think about it I want to be the girl that changes all that for her. she also has people telling her that they like her all the time; I get jealous and don't like it when she hangs with them. I'm just not sure whether what I'm feeling is friendship and the fact I'm confused is letting me lead her on au whether I genuinely like her?
I'm not the type to tell someone I like them but I don't want to loose her either. I know she likes me, she's told me before but I don't want to say I like her back then realise that it was just friendship all long and be yet another girl who's messed her around and hurt her feelings. I just need advice/opinions that may help me become less confused.
a rose,
to a person,
is that meaning something?
a gift,
to a person,
is that hiding anything?
a smile,
to a person,
it is zaidi that just a friend?
a laugh,
to a person,
is that teasing them?
a book,
to a person,
is that called insulting?
everything must have the negative thought kwa people surround me.
they ask me, "is that just a friend?"
and i will say, "yes, why not?"
they again will ask, "are wewe like him?"
and i will answer, "people always thinking in negative way. how if i give that to my best friend, is that still meaning something? is that still hiding anything? is that still zaidi than a best friend? is that still teasing? is that still insulting?"
and then, i will continue........."no, it is just a friend."
*my life full with untrusted friendship. i don't think they will assume me as their best friend, but if anyone seeking for a trustful friend, i'm here to help you.*
to a person,
is that meaning something?
a gift,
to a person,
is that hiding anything?
a smile,
to a person,
it is zaidi that just a friend?
a laugh,
to a person,
is that teasing them?
a book,
to a person,
is that called insulting?
everything must have the negative thought kwa people surround me.
they ask me, "is that just a friend?"
and i will say, "yes, why not?"
they again will ask, "are wewe like him?"
and i will answer, "people always thinking in negative way. how if i give that to my best friend, is that still meaning something? is that still hiding anything? is that still zaidi than a best friend? is that still teasing? is that still insulting?"
and then, i will continue........."no, it is just a friend."
*my life full with untrusted friendship. i don't think they will assume me as their best friend, but if anyone seeking for a trustful friend, i'm here to help you.*
Many people feel that upendo hurts...that it's only gonna bring pain and sadness. But to tell wewe the truth...love won't do that. upendo is when everything is perfect and no matter how bad your siku is wewe still find a reason to smile because wewe feel like wewe have the most amazing person in your life. Yeah wewe may be going through some problems in this relationship but let me tell wewe something...Love conquers all. No matter how bad the situation is wewe can get through it together. Don't let a silly little argument au what anyone says about your relationship go in front of your judgement on your own relationship. And I'm going to give advice to those people who Lost someone and sees that person with someone else...Listen if wewe truly loved them wewe would let them be happy with whoever. Don't interfere. wewe will be happy and so will they. And plus it will give wewe peace at mind. Dream Big. upendo Forever. Live like today is your last day
my problem is that my parents don't understand me well , and I don't see my bigger sister
i have a little sister , but i can't relate to her , and i have an older brother who helps me a lot but not enough.
i'm always depressed and i just listen to music all the time , actually music helps me a lot to express my anger , sadness , happiness .
i really Love Avril Lavigne because she is the only person who helped me in hard time , her music is so inspiring And meaningful .
and then , i have you fanpop users , you are my only family , my only friends , and my only hope.
so , please tell me what can i do to get rid of the negativity .
Thanks for your time,
Tamara
