A/N: Sorry for the late update, I've been busy but well anyway I hope wewe like this chap. As always criticism is accepted. Mmmh I didn't know of whom to do this POV chap but well I think it's fair to have Hugh again. =)
We stand there just staring into each other’s eyes. What am I here? Why did I lie to Jo again?
I think we have to make things clear but what if things get worse. I mean if I tell Lisa Jo's still here she will kick me and... I don't know.
“You didn’t screw up, I did.” She smiles, why is she even smiling? She’s so joyful to see me and I’m about to make it worse. What kind of human being am I? Isn’t this called cheating?
Breath Hugh Breath. wewe won’t fall in that trap again. wewe will do things right this time. But what is right? I upendo this wo… Shut up! Ok now she’s waiting for me to continue.
“ I don’t think you-“ She says but I interrupt her in time.
“Yes I did. Jo hasn’t gone to England, she’ll be gone in 3 days same as me.” Your smile fades, the warmth in your eyes disappears. I can’t see if you’re mad, I think wewe must. Please be mad at me, I’ll understand.
“Three days? “ What? Oh God this is bad.
“Did wewe hear what I say? Jo’s still here.” I need wewe to push me away. I can’t be happy with you, that’s not my decision. I took Jo years zamani and I can’t go back. She’s supposed to be the women in my life. neno muhimu : Supposed.
“I know but I mean what can I expect? She’s your wife. wewe protecting her, I guess.”
No, no, no! wewe can’t be ok with this. I lied to wewe because I wanted to cheat on her. Wait now it doesn’t make sense anymore. I don’t think I was protecting her, I was protecting us but then what am I protecting if there is no us? wewe don’t feel the same way as I do.
God! I like this woman. That can’t be right, I am in upendo with Jo that’s why I married her The why did wewe cheat? Stop bothering me. I need to talk to the shrink about this, there’s a war going on in my head. I upendo her, no! There I just did it again. Your eyes are still in mine. I feel my moyo skip a beat. I feel the urge of touching your cheek and slowly plant a kiss in those carmine lips but I can’t, it’s too dangerous.
I stay silent, wewe don’t move. You’re analyzing this moment too. I wonder what wewe think. I want wewe to have a war in your mind, just like mine. Slowly I see how your eyes build a barrier of water. You’re suffering. This war is affecting you. I’m so sorry that I caused it, if wewe only knew I’ve been fighting this battle for zaidi than a year.
“Are wewe ok?” I ask not knowing what else to say.
wewe don’t respond and a tear goes down your cheek. I sweep it but it isn’t enough. I can see your loosing the battle.
We stand there just staring into each other’s eyes. What am I here? Why did I lie to Jo again?
I think we have to make things clear but what if things get worse. I mean if I tell Lisa Jo's still here she will kick me and... I don't know.
“You didn’t screw up, I did.” She smiles, why is she even smiling? She’s so joyful to see me and I’m about to make it worse. What kind of human being am I? Isn’t this called cheating?
Breath Hugh Breath. wewe won’t fall in that trap again. wewe will do things right this time. But what is right? I upendo this wo… Shut up! Ok now she’s waiting for me to continue.
“ I don’t think you-“ She says but I interrupt her in time.
“Yes I did. Jo hasn’t gone to England, she’ll be gone in 3 days same as me.” Your smile fades, the warmth in your eyes disappears. I can’t see if you’re mad, I think wewe must. Please be mad at me, I’ll understand.
“Three days? “ What? Oh God this is bad.
“Did wewe hear what I say? Jo’s still here.” I need wewe to push me away. I can’t be happy with you, that’s not my decision. I took Jo years zamani and I can’t go back. She’s supposed to be the women in my life. neno muhimu : Supposed.
“I know but I mean what can I expect? She’s your wife. wewe protecting her, I guess.”
No, no, no! wewe can’t be ok with this. I lied to wewe because I wanted to cheat on her. Wait now it doesn’t make sense anymore. I don’t think I was protecting her, I was protecting us but then what am I protecting if there is no us? wewe don’t feel the same way as I do.
God! I like this woman. That can’t be right, I am in upendo with Jo that’s why I married her The why did wewe cheat? Stop bothering me. I need to talk to the shrink about this, there’s a war going on in my head. I upendo her, no! There I just did it again. Your eyes are still in mine. I feel my moyo skip a beat. I feel the urge of touching your cheek and slowly plant a kiss in those carmine lips but I can’t, it’s too dangerous.
I stay silent, wewe don’t move. You’re analyzing this moment too. I wonder what wewe think. I want wewe to have a war in your mind, just like mine. Slowly I see how your eyes build a barrier of water. You’re suffering. This war is affecting you. I’m so sorry that I caused it, if wewe only knew I’ve been fighting this battle for zaidi than a year.
“Are wewe ok?” I ask not knowing what else to say.
wewe don’t respond and a tear goes down your cheek. I sweep it but it isn’t enough. I can see your loosing the battle.
And then her favorite part of the morning...
