It seems like heartbreak will be the only aspect of upendo I'll ever be acquainted with and the girls that break my moyo will be the only ones I fall for. I know I can be kinda shallow but I want someone who I can think to myself "she's gorgeous". It seems as if I'll never have that. Even if I'm willing to give up my individuality, be manipulated and abused kwa them they will still only end up leaving me. It almost seems as if upendo is mocking me au maybe it's my own personal problems. Does anybody else feel like a relationship is there reason for being happy rather than it just being a bonus? I never feel complete and I think I'll never feel true happy unless I find a relationship. </3