OH MY GOSH???!!!!!!!!

Ok so two nights ago, I was falling asleep and I looked out my window and it had a bunch of perspiration on it and made the lights outside look really dreamlike and just really beautiful and I got this urge to talk to Peter Pan which is a huge deal for me because I’m 15 and am struggling, not with belief in him, but in the faith he will ever come for me. Anyway, the inayofuata siku I’m in the car with my mom, heading nyumbani and I see this tiny nyota but it’s so blindingly white I kid wewe not, it looked like a diamond in the sky and I just got this overwhelming feeling it was Neverland. A feeling I have not felt since years zamani when I was still a KID. And then TONIGHT I saw TWO clouds shaped exactly like PIRATE SHIPS, TWO!!!!! I honestly don’t know what to think au what any of this means, please please please someone help me out. I’m obviously SUPER happy, but I don’t want to get my hopes up and be disappointed when all this magic seems to fade away again...