this is my favourite upendo poem, please read, it's beautiful ...
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Love's Philosophy

The fountains mingle with the river,
And the rivers with the ocean;
The winds of heaven mix forever,
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single;
All things kwa a law divine
In one another's being mingle;--
Why not I with thine?
See! the mountains kiss high heaven,
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister maua, ua would be forgiven,
If it disdained it's brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea;--
What are all these kissings worth,
If thou kiss not me?


Percy Bysshe Shelley
(1803-1882)

My name is hurt,
I make u feel bad,
I was created by
Someone u know.

I make u feel very bad,
I'm an emotion
U can't c me,
Because I'm inside u.

I make u feel sad,
I make u cry
About the stupidest things
And I give u the tears in ur eyes.

Someone created me
kwa something they did,
Then they put me inside u
2 haunt u forever.

I haunt u every day,
I'm like an itch u can't scratch,
U think of me,
Beautifully bad I am.

I may b
Young au very old,
I won't dissappear,
U have 2 deside when I should die.

I'm really bad,
No good inside,
Though people always say
I learnt something.

I don't help a lot
Mostly I destroy u
From the inside out,
I'm not easy 2 stop.

I create the bad times u have,
I make the desitions,
I'm bad
And my name is hurt.

Tears rolling down my cheek,
eyes red fighting to breathe.
Alone in a room,
dark and sound.
In despair for a long time.
Something wewe can't escape,
some unbearable
Words seem to slip,
body feels so weak
Windows down, curtains closed
Alone
Dark thoughts race
Memories fly
In despair for a long time
Again
Eyes closed
Skin cold, ready to walk away
Have the freedom to make choices
Forget despair
Ignore everyone who ignores you
It hurts to think
about despair
Complications, frustrations,
leave them behind.

Your here kwa my side!
Although both trapped and tied.
both confused.
used.
abused.
Your laying with me,
out in the dark,
Stars still blinding
sirens still chiming.
At least we are together
but why can't wewe see
why your really here
right beside me.
your adding to the problem
but yet wewe heal.
your like a drug
that makes me feel
like the pain is gone.
I need you
want wewe
upendo wewe
A word to strong
for wewe to bare
so wewe act if
wewe don't even care.
But deep inside
Inside your heart
wewe know I was yours
right from the start.
Although the pain that is causes
to have to wait
for wewe to realize
your certain fate.
It's well worth it
in the end
when your spending eternity with me
hand in hand

now standing on last siku of mwaka
i look back and see smiles and tears
somedays it was new too
somedays our mailboxes were filled with greetings
greetings of arrival of 01/01/2011
siku kwa siku we got used to
night kwa night we got close
so many starts so many ends
so many left so many got friends
learnt so much taught so much
learnt to smile learnt to give
learnt to die learnt to live
with loads of hugs and kisses
bye bye 2011
inayofuata time we'll say
"damn our moyo still misses
THE 2011"
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.they wanted a longer makala :P

In toss of my thoughts
are memories that still breathe.
Can wewe feel my sorrow?


Scourge this body
sodden kwa sweat
and never been washed away.
Can wewe imagine the pain?


Trapped and tied for this place,
that's your fate,
wewe will never run away.
Can I just fade away?


wewe have fought before.
Will wewe keep fighting now?
This dawn is always the same,
siku full of difficulties,
sweaty shati and empty eyes,
shaking hand that holds
this cigarette,
mind that wander in
yellow field.
Can wewe forgive your life now?

The line 'love is a fallacy' isn't justified,
it is evidence of a coward's voice.
But when upendo is understood, pain is nullified
it all fades away as we smile and rejoice.

Know that dhahabu has no value to the soul
that it cannot just simply fill and empty hole.
upendo cannot be sold; neither can it be bought
but the truth that upendo can hold, can only be caught.

I would not compare upendo to a rose
the comparative pairing is what I find far too bold.
upendo is meant to be kept exclusive and beautiful,
not to be shown off which isn't meaningful.

The feeling flows freely as water.
It's our necessity and a hope-giving trait.
'Tis beautiful, desirable, there absolutely is no other,
'Tis a strong surge of current that overpowers all hate.

Let your mind floating freely
and wewe will see.
Open your soul to those
who will listen,
they'll onyesha wewe the bright side,
the side wewe have forgotten.

Trust just this once
and wewe will see.

The sea of your Lost memories
shall return again
if wewe make a right choice,
the choice that changes everything.

Trust just this once
and wewe will see.

How many people wewe want to save?
Who do wewe want to follow you
in this journey we call living?

Try,
trust just this once
and wewe will see.

All those dark thoughts
that have been imprisoned
in your mind
could be silenced by
the light
wewe see cloudy
and it all seems unattainable
and impossible.
Although,
the real truth is in your heart,
wewe just have to decide
what wewe want to believe.

The smallest reason
to be alive again,
one single reason to smile
along with freedom.


~ Feel it and be free... ~

Hold me, don´t ever let me go. Even if the world crashes in, bury me under your love. Even if the spring never comes, don´t let me feel the cold. Hold me when the night is so cruel. au when the scars of siku mark my skin. If wewe won´t let me go, I won´t release you. Two lovers, shielding each other from the storm. That´s who we´re going to be. Never change, never think. Let the actions flow into your hands, don´t stop. Keep going, keep your head up to the light. At the end of the journey, we will be home, the wounds forgotten and healed.

I hate you

But I just can’t seem to break you

Do I want wewe here?

Do I want wewe gone?



Everyone says your such a tease

But not to me

Are wewe real?

Are wewe fake?



Do I need to be

With this drama queen

wewe spout lies

No truth to be found



Why am I still

Trying to see the good in you?

Is it worth it?

Should I listen to them?



They tell me to go

Before I’m a victim

Of wewe mighty undoing

I won’t fall



I’ve made a promise

Can I keep it?

Will I leave?

Will I remain?



Promises

Sins

They all appear

The same



Lies

Sentences

Preach the

Difference



I’m listening to you

I can’t break you

I’m falling now

No one to catch me



Do I leave now

That I’ve fallen

Are wewe worth my time?

Am I worth this pain?



God, help me choose

For this is not my decision

Any longer

I’ve put my faith in my despair



Now onyesha me the answer

Tell me what to do

Do I stay

au do I leave you?

Anger
Nothing but anger
I should have listened to Mama
She knew best
I didn't listen to her
Yes Mama, they all laughed at me.
The blood.
Everyone jeering and cheering
Just like in the locker room
The pig's blood on the dress I made.
The laughter.
Their ear splitting and cruel laughter.
I start to cry
Tommy yells at them, telling them to stop.
The bucket falls down and he lays there unconsious.
The lights turn red.
Still laughter.
They tried going out the door
I trapped them all inside with only my mind.
The hose unwrapped from the emergency glass.
I turn up the water pressure.
They all scream.
Electrical wiring
The fires
I did it
The town I grew up in
Damaged and destroyed.
All from my mind.
I go home
I go inside.
And I wake up
In a pile of stones from the sky.
All from my mind.
This destruction I caused.
They laugh at me no more.

Clouds of happiness have covered my sky,i was thinking its a gift of god,i wish i could fly.Rain of upendo showered all the night,i found each siku so bright, i felt kind a sweet touch of flowers, i plucked each bud in the garden of wishes,i filled my bucket and sang the happy song ,i was walking,thinking about my upendo and life.on my way i met a single flower,i glanced at it,and i thought to pluck this one.but it looked so sad!i asked ,why are u so sad?he answered me i was just like you,i had wishes just like wewe have,i was in upendo with rain,clouds and garden of wishes.clouds have gone,rain of upendo never came again to my garden,and my wishes left me alone!,now i admit that i have nothing to love,i smiled and take him in my hands and alisema dont cry !every thing will be fine, why do not wewe upendo your self,it will give wewe life,love your sky,spread your fragrance, make your own garden of wishes,clouds of happiness will soon come to wewe and bring your rain of love......................

Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Do wewe understand?
Do wewe get it?
Do wewe even care?
Do wewe understand bit kwa bit?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Well I'm asking,
I'm pleading on my knees,
I'm begging to you,
Why should I believin' thee?
Why should I wonder?
Why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.
Ya, some friend I have,
Some Marafiki I got,
Some Marafiki care,
And wewe were the friend, I never thought,
Why should I wonder?
why should I feel pain?
Why should I think about this?
Until I go insane.