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xElvenPiratex said:
This is going to be TMI, but wewe asked for it :D I first started kusoma the HP vitabu at a really horrible time in my life, just after one of my best Marafiki died of a moyo attack at only 29 years old. I was feeling angry and uchungu, chungu and depressed, and a friend decided to cheer me up kwa recommending HP to me because the series had once helped her through a difficult time. Long story short I eventually picked up The Sorcerer's Stone and oddly enough, as I read about Harry's first potions class, I felt an instant kinship with Snape. I knew I was supposed to hate him because he was mean to Harry and was constantly doing things that made him look like a villain, but something about his anger and bitterness and sense of loneliness called out to me. As hard as I tried to see him as a bad guy, it wasn't long before I loved everything about him - his snarkiness, his mystery, his brilliance, his brokenness, his loneliness, the layers of pain and regret he kept tightly locked behind an apathetic expression... I loved all of it. As much as I adored Harry and all the other characters, the truth is that kwa the time I read OotP, Snape's journey was the one that mattered most to me. I kept thinking, "I know there's a story there! No one is that closed off without some tragic reason behind it." I was so worried that Rowling would never tell his whole story au that he'd simply end up being as evil as he sometimes seemed. When I finished kusoma DH and his beautiful, heart-wrenching story was finally revealed, I felt real joy for the first time in months. Just as I had hoped, he was a hero all along and I couldn't stop crying as I read his memories over and over again, smiling through my tears every time my eyes lit on the word "always". I felt ridiculous for getting so emotionally involved in a fictional character's life, but he felt so real to me, like a friend that had come along to comfort me and commiserate just when I needed him most. I know that at the end of the day, Severus Snape is just a character in a book, but to the ones who are broken and hurting and seeking redemption...he's real for us :) I'll always be thankful to Rowling for that.
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