okay guys, this is really short. im sorry, i've just had no time this week. please tell me what wewe think anyway :)
part 22
“If there was only some way to make wewe see that I can’t leave you.” I whispered. “Time, I suppose, will be the way to convince you.”
The corner of her mouth pulled up slightly. The idea must have pleased her. “Okay.” She alisema agreeably.
I was glad to see her happier again but the pain was still flowing through me at full force.
A questioning look came into her eyes before she asked “So—since you’re staying. Can I have my stuff back?” she spoke in a falsely light tone.
Her attempt at a distraction was so transparent that I laughed, but the pain was still there.
“Your things were never gone,” I explained. “I knew it was wrong, since I promised wewe peace without reminders. It was stupid and childish, but I wanted to leave something of myself with you. The CD, the pictures, the tickets—they’re all under your floorboards.”
“Really?” surprise and happiness filled her face, a smile lighting her eyes.
I nodded, slightly cheered that she was so happy from finding out this trivial fact.
“I think,” she began slowly. “I’m not sure, but I wonder... I think maybe I knew it the whole time.”
part 23
Curiosity flickered and I tried to push the pain away. Bella was upset that I was in pain, but she shouldn’t be upset, I had already caused her far too much pain.
“What did wewe know?” I asked, trying to distract myself.
“Some part of me, my subconscious maybe, never stopped believing that wewe still cared whether I lived au died. That’s probably why I was hearing the voices.” She stated, while I immediately began questioning her sanity.
I remembered back to when she first found out what I was, how she was curious and not the least bit frightened. I had been unsure of her sanity then too. At least there were options. Carlisle knew the best psychologists, and I could visit her whenever I was allowed.
“Voices?” I asked in a flat tone.
“Well, just one voice. Yours. It’s a long story.” She seemed wary. I wondered if that had anything to do with the expression on my face. it was my fault this time, that she wasn’t experiencing normal things. Well, as normal as could be in the current circumstances.
“I’ve got time.” I said, trying to keep my voice as even as possible.
“It’s pretty pathetic.” She said, an odd look of relief in her eyes. What was she relived about?
I waited, knowing she would tell me.
She looked thoughtful for a sekunde before starting.
“Do wewe remember what Alice alisema about extreme sports?”
I spoke the words without inflection au emphasis. “You jumped off a cliff for fun.”
“Er, right.” She looked nervously at me. “And before that, with the motorcycle—”
“Motorcycle?” I cut in, trying to retain my calm.
“I guess I didn’t tell Alice about that bit.” she bit her lip, a sign of tension.
“No.” I answered, unable to form a complete sentence.
“Well, about that...See, I found that...when I was doing something dangerous au stupid...I could remember wewe zaidi clearly.” She said, looking like she was confessing to murder. “I could remember how your voice sounded when wewe were angry. I could hear it, like wewe were right there inayofuata to me. Mostly I tried not to think about you, but this didn’t hurt so much—it was like wewe were protecting me again. Like wewe didn’t want me to be hurt. And, well, I wonder if the reason I could hear wewe so clearly was because, underneath it all, I always knew that wewe hadn’t stopped loving me.”
I was so appalled, my words came out sounding strangled. “You...were...risking your life...to hear—”
“Shh,” she interrupted me. “Hold on a second. I think I’m having an epiphany here.”
Her face looked thoughtful, and I struggled to remain quiet. I was not used to being so patient, it had been so long and I was out of practice. I was about to say something, unable to hold my tongue any longer, when a look of happiness and understanding washed across Bella’s face.
“Oh!” she exclaimed quietly.
“Bella?” I needed to know, now.
“Oh. Okay. I see.” She said, completely ignoring me and driving me insane at the same time.
“Your epiphany?” I asked, my voice sounding strained.
“You upendo me.” she stated simply.
I smiled. “Truly, I do.”
She smiled such a smile that it brightened her whole face. I took her warm face into my hands and kissed her until her moyo was beating at double time.
I leant my forehead against hers, both of us breathing harder than usual.
im so sorry about the length, but please tell me what wewe think anyway :)
and, please if wewe haven't already can wewe please check out the eternal night spot. soon i will only be posting eternal night in that spot, so take a look if wewe want to keep reading.
hope wewe enjoyed, despite it's length :)
part 22
“If there was only some way to make wewe see that I can’t leave you.” I whispered. “Time, I suppose, will be the way to convince you.”
The corner of her mouth pulled up slightly. The idea must have pleased her. “Okay.” She alisema agreeably.
I was glad to see her happier again but the pain was still flowing through me at full force.
A questioning look came into her eyes before she asked “So—since you’re staying. Can I have my stuff back?” she spoke in a falsely light tone.
Her attempt at a distraction was so transparent that I laughed, but the pain was still there.
“Your things were never gone,” I explained. “I knew it was wrong, since I promised wewe peace without reminders. It was stupid and childish, but I wanted to leave something of myself with you. The CD, the pictures, the tickets—they’re all under your floorboards.”
“Really?” surprise and happiness filled her face, a smile lighting her eyes.
I nodded, slightly cheered that she was so happy from finding out this trivial fact.
“I think,” she began slowly. “I’m not sure, but I wonder... I think maybe I knew it the whole time.”
part 23
Curiosity flickered and I tried to push the pain away. Bella was upset that I was in pain, but she shouldn’t be upset, I had already caused her far too much pain.
“What did wewe know?” I asked, trying to distract myself.
“Some part of me, my subconscious maybe, never stopped believing that wewe still cared whether I lived au died. That’s probably why I was hearing the voices.” She stated, while I immediately began questioning her sanity.
I remembered back to when she first found out what I was, how she was curious and not the least bit frightened. I had been unsure of her sanity then too. At least there were options. Carlisle knew the best psychologists, and I could visit her whenever I was allowed.
“Voices?” I asked in a flat tone.
“Well, just one voice. Yours. It’s a long story.” She seemed wary. I wondered if that had anything to do with the expression on my face. it was my fault this time, that she wasn’t experiencing normal things. Well, as normal as could be in the current circumstances.
“I’ve got time.” I said, trying to keep my voice as even as possible.
“It’s pretty pathetic.” She said, an odd look of relief in her eyes. What was she relived about?
I waited, knowing she would tell me.
She looked thoughtful for a sekunde before starting.
“Do wewe remember what Alice alisema about extreme sports?”
I spoke the words without inflection au emphasis. “You jumped off a cliff for fun.”
“Er, right.” She looked nervously at me. “And before that, with the motorcycle—”
“Motorcycle?” I cut in, trying to retain my calm.
“I guess I didn’t tell Alice about that bit.” she bit her lip, a sign of tension.
“No.” I answered, unable to form a complete sentence.
“Well, about that...See, I found that...when I was doing something dangerous au stupid...I could remember wewe zaidi clearly.” She said, looking like she was confessing to murder. “I could remember how your voice sounded when wewe were angry. I could hear it, like wewe were right there inayofuata to me. Mostly I tried not to think about you, but this didn’t hurt so much—it was like wewe were protecting me again. Like wewe didn’t want me to be hurt. And, well, I wonder if the reason I could hear wewe so clearly was because, underneath it all, I always knew that wewe hadn’t stopped loving me.”
I was so appalled, my words came out sounding strangled. “You...were...risking your life...to hear—”
“Shh,” she interrupted me. “Hold on a second. I think I’m having an epiphany here.”
Her face looked thoughtful, and I struggled to remain quiet. I was not used to being so patient, it had been so long and I was out of practice. I was about to say something, unable to hold my tongue any longer, when a look of happiness and understanding washed across Bella’s face.
“Oh!” she exclaimed quietly.
“Bella?” I needed to know, now.
“Oh. Okay. I see.” She said, completely ignoring me and driving me insane at the same time.
“Your epiphany?” I asked, my voice sounding strained.
“You upendo me.” she stated simply.
I smiled. “Truly, I do.”
She smiled such a smile that it brightened her whole face. I took her warm face into my hands and kissed her until her moyo was beating at double time.
I leant my forehead against hers, both of us breathing harder than usual.
im so sorry about the length, but please tell me what wewe think anyway :)
and, please if wewe haven't already can wewe please check out the eternal night spot. soon i will only be posting eternal night in that spot, so take a look if wewe want to keep reading.
hope wewe enjoyed, despite it's length :)
hujambo twi-fans, after seeing New Moon in theaters we all want 2 see it again right? well now there is a release tarehe for the New Moon DVD: March 24, 2010!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! this is the prediction tarehe not an official one, it is positive that it will be released early 2010. it is alisema that it may be early cuz of the demand!!!!!!! right now some sites have New Moon available for pre-order!!!! so as of today-November 26, 2009-we have 119 days till New Moon is on DVD!!! oh and 217 days till Eclipse is in theaters!!!!
Preface
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the moyo which will stop beating soon, the moyo which was the reason for me to live, the moyo which she had aliyopewa to me to keep salama just like how I had aliyopewa her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
I had done it, all of it.
All of which I never wanted to do.
I had hurt her.
I had risked her life....again....
I had made her suffer.
I had caused her enough pain to last an eternity.
And here I was, getting ready to do give here more pain, getting ready to do what I always wanted and never wanted to do.
I took a deep breath, and the scent of her blood burned my throat like white hot knifes, though I did not have any urge to drink it.
Yes….This just proves it, I am a monster. How could I even think about my thirst when she was suffering because of me?
Because of me…yes, it’s entirely my fault.
I ignored the throbbing in my throat and injected the venom straight into her heart...the moyo which will stop beating soon, the moyo which was the reason for me to live, the moyo which she had aliyopewa to me to keep salama just like how I had aliyopewa her my silent heart, because of my selfishness, it was going to stop beating.....forever.
Okay so I was just looking through my pictures, and I found this:
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what wewe think- does it help at all??
I can't remember where I got it from (possibly edwardandbella.com?) but I just thought it as really interesting.
I mean look how small Alice is, when the book says she's small I didn't think she'd be that much smaller than Bella.
And look how tall Jacob is...hmm maybe he would win in a fight against Edward...maybe not, Edward is good at everything afterall.
So anyway, I just thought it would be useful for people who have trouble picturing the characters heights -like me :).
Tell me what wewe think- does it help at all??
Okay so here's a little game that I found. Just like the real bingo, but for when wewe say one of the maoni -and you've probably alisema one of the maoni zaidi then once lol.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure wewe can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so maarufu if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my Marafiki just don't understand lol). How many do wewe think wewe can fill, maoni below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what wewe think please.
Okay so some of the boxes are a little mean, for example '*ignores Jacobs existence*'. Please don't take offence, I didn't make this. And there are some spelling mistakes too, but I'm sure wewe can read it.
I just glanced over it then, and I would say I fill about 10 (how come it's so maarufu if it's so cr*appy being one I use often-my Marafiki just don't understand lol). How many do wewe think wewe can fill, maoni below :)
I just thought it was something funny; tell me what wewe think please.
So these are, kwa far, my inayopendelewa nukuu from the first 3 books. (I haven't read breaking dawn yet :P)
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I upendo you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD
1.If seth didn't cut it out, I was going to throw a pinecone at him.-Bella (I just think that's hilarious.)
2.Your hair looks like a haystack. But I like it. -Edward
3.I upendo you. I want you. Right now. -Edward.
4.Marry me first. -Edward
5.I'll never forgive myself for leaving you.-Edward
6.Does my being half naked bother you? -Jacob
I can't think of any more... But feel free to add on XD