MY PEACE
IN A TIME
OF WAR
wewe muhuri your past to my imperfect present
wewe draw the future of my memory
wewe make upendo to the moto of my oceans
Luring in the palm of my melancholy
The drowned madness of my delusions
Just for your pleasure
wewe kiss the violence
Of my breathless silence
Like an explosion of shooting stars
Detangling the lust of my scars
From the bowels of my childhood innocence
Expiating the sin of my deliverance
wewe slap my dark passion
Your hands clutching to my armor
Your eyes hung to my emotions
Shivering upendo in my face
In an ageless journey to a place
Where your long sigh numbs my terror
Every smile wewe dance
Resurrects a moment of trance
When your invisible touch of silence
Hangs the promise of a chance
To liberate time and space from a distance
MUSIC
My Bijou *
wewe gave me All the best of wewe **
Now I need All the rest of wewe **
To DIE to LIVE All That I Am
To LEARN To BE All That We Are
* Thanks Freddie !
** Thanks Billy !
JoGi ‘98
IN A TIME
OF WAR
wewe muhuri your past to my imperfect present
wewe draw the future of my memory
wewe make upendo to the moto of my oceans
Luring in the palm of my melancholy
The drowned madness of my delusions
Just for your pleasure
wewe kiss the violence
Of my breathless silence
Like an explosion of shooting stars
Detangling the lust of my scars
From the bowels of my childhood innocence
Expiating the sin of my deliverance
wewe slap my dark passion
Your hands clutching to my armor
Your eyes hung to my emotions
Shivering upendo in my face
In an ageless journey to a place
Where your long sigh numbs my terror
Every smile wewe dance
Resurrects a moment of trance
When your invisible touch of silence
Hangs the promise of a chance
To liberate time and space from a distance
MUSIC
My Bijou *
wewe gave me All the best of wewe **
Now I need All the rest of wewe **
To DIE to LIVE All That I Am
To LEARN To BE All That We Are
* Thanks Freddie !
** Thanks Billy !
JoGi ‘98
I'm in a living hell
Seeing wewe in upendo with someone
else
And I know
I have to let wewe go
Even if wewe aren't time
It's my time......
My time to let wewe go
To stop loving you
zaidi then it should be
Falling zaidi in upendo with you
Then I thought I would have
Because every second
Every min
Every hour
Every day
Every week
Every month
Every year
I fall zaidi in upendo with you
No stop, we've been through this before
Be strong and songesha on
Yeah.... I guess I have to.....
{If its upendo he'll come back to you
I have to deal with it..
Seeing wewe in upendo with someone
else
And I know
I have to let wewe go
Even if wewe aren't time
It's my time......
My time to let wewe go
To stop loving you
zaidi then it should be
Falling zaidi in upendo with you
Then I thought I would have
Because every second
Every min
Every hour
Every day
Every week
Every month
Every year
I fall zaidi in upendo with you
No stop, we've been through this before
Be strong and songesha on
Yeah.... I guess I have to.....
{If its upendo he'll come back to you
I have to deal with it..
Crying,
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
wewe know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight wewe back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
wewe are insensitive,
wewe only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
songesha to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember wewe as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Blackmailing.
This won't work
On me, anyway.
I don't
Respond
To the things
That other teenagers
Would.
I am not
Scared of you,
wewe know.
I have a soul,
A voice,
A heart, and
I can fight wewe back.
I don't care if I
Am small, I am
Much older
Than you
Why tease
Little kids? Do you
Like being
Cruel,
Halfhearted
Coldhearted?
wewe are insensitive,
wewe only care
About you,
Yourself,
and who?
Life is
Hard enough,
Without you
Poking your nose in,
Uprooting old things
I said.
Get lost.
I won't care.
songesha to South Africa.
It won't
Bother me.
Change your name,
Even better.
I will always remember wewe as
The monster under my
Bed,
The horror waiting for me
On the bus.
Thanks, dude.
Made my life that much harder.
As if I needed trouble now.
Everyone sees a certain special light in them.
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I onyesha my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if there
is something wrong with me.
People tell me to stop feeling down.
They worry I send a negative vibe
instead of a positive one.
I can't help it.
I am what I am...
People ask if I'm ok.
They think just because I feel
down there's something wrong.
Others just judge saying
I'm always like that.
No one knows the real me.
On the outside I onyesha my emotion
on the inside: Darkness.
Sometimes my soul feels
like it's slowly dieing, on the brink of death.
The thing about me is,
I won't pretend everything is ok when
I know it's not.
Life will knock people down.
I'm the prepared type.
Sure, I might seem the
type to draw dark
things while other girls are into
girly hearts and bright colours.
This is who I am.
I see darkness.. While others see light..
Dear prince,
I`m tired of living in this unusual life
My diary
Took me to an old distain memory
when I become your wife
I don`t know why ?!!
Every good memory has became whiter then white
Except the siku I saw wewe
You`re right
Special memories always colored with special liquids
But which kind of inks should I use to erase my past
I tried everything
Harm
Hate
Even pain!
But this distain memory seems to be
My number one aim
I decided to listen to my wise moyo
But suddenly
I was falling apart
It gave me a magical ink
All I have to do is only to spring
one , two , three drops au four
and everything started to be like old time before
THE SADNESS OF THE MOON
by: Charles Baudelaire
HE Moon zaidi indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her kitanda at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
by: Charles Baudelaire
HE Moon zaidi indolently dreams to-night
Than a fair woman on her kitanda at rest,
Caressing, with a hand distraught and light,
Before she sleeps, the contour of her breast.
Upon her silken avalanche of down,
Dying she breathes a long and swooning sigh;
And watches the white visions past her flown,
Which rise like blossoms to the azure sky.
And when, at times, wrapped in her languor deep,
Earthward she lets a furtive tear-drop flow,
Some pious poet, enemy of sleep,
Takes in his hollow hand the tear of snow
Whence gleams of iris and of opal start,
And hides it from the Sun, deep in his heart.
Just something I wrote! :)
Forever I am Yours
A tear falls on the page smearing the words
The last upendo letter wewe ever wrote to me
i hold on to it tight, hugging the word for comfort
I shall never see your smile and hear wewe laughter
But I Have these word,true words of love
wewe may be gone from my site but not from my heart
wewe broken once but when wewe fixed it wewe made it stronger
I hope to see wewe again, but for now i must live with our memories
They may be able to take wewe away from me, but they can never take my love
Forever I will upendo wewe
Forever I will Remember
Forever I am yours
Forever I am Yours
A tear falls on the page smearing the words
The last upendo letter wewe ever wrote to me
i hold on to it tight, hugging the word for comfort
I shall never see your smile and hear wewe laughter
But I Have these word,true words of love
wewe may be gone from my site but not from my heart
wewe broken once but when wewe fixed it wewe made it stronger
I hope to see wewe again, but for now i must live with our memories
They may be able to take wewe away from me, but they can never take my love
Forever I will upendo wewe
Forever I will Remember
Forever I am yours
In the midnight sky the air grows cool and crisp
As the moons blows away the clouds
Swirling into a small wisp
While the bugs serenade sleepy children in there beds
Who doze off to counting shooting stars
With wide eyes and dreams in there small heads
As the moon shines on seeping light onto the world
I lay wonder struck at the sight
Of five graceful fireflies
Dancing in the night
They were pearls of white against the night sky
Prettier than fireworks
Like the frost on my window that I edged the word hi
Hoping the the moon would respond
From within the midnight sky
As the moons blows away the clouds
Swirling into a small wisp
While the bugs serenade sleepy children in there beds
Who doze off to counting shooting stars
With wide eyes and dreams in there small heads
As the moon shines on seeping light onto the world
I lay wonder struck at the sight
Of five graceful fireflies
Dancing in the night
They were pearls of white against the night sky
Prettier than fireworks
Like the frost on my window that I edged the word hi
Hoping the the moon would respond
From within the midnight sky
How Clumsy
How clumsy our hands are
To so often give leave to those we love,
Crossing fingers behind backs
And waving wistful farewells
How clumsy our tongues are
Infatuated with power,
Quick to anger and quick to act
Then begging acquittal of Lazarus
How clumsily we handle
The abstracts we cannot fathom,
How clumsily we blunder
The lines we misrepresent
We are but mites surrounded kwa infinity
Enveloped kwa narcissism
And drunk on false pretenses –
How clumsy
Forgive me my upendo
for i cannot go on
this tourchered sould has givein up
wewe can laugh
wewe can cry
but all i scream is
Why oh why
i needed to e free
for great murder
i can not survive
your touch is healing
your kiss is saveing
but without wewe
im dieing on the inside out
literly
i need some one to upendo me
i need some one to care
it can not be wewe
for wewe can not be there
i deal
i cut
i cry
i take the pain
i try
i try
i try
i try to die
but alass
i am traped
i am stuck
relese this tourchered soul
forgive my blackened sin
and try to find the upendo that beats within
for i cannot go on
this tourchered sould has givein up
wewe can laugh
wewe can cry
but all i scream is
Why oh why
i needed to e free
for great murder
i can not survive
your touch is healing
your kiss is saveing
but without wewe
im dieing on the inside out
literly
i need some one to upendo me
i need some one to care
it can not be wewe
for wewe can not be there
i deal
i cut
i cry
i take the pain
i try
i try
i try
i try to die
but alass
i am traped
i am stuck
relese this tourchered soul
forgive my blackened sin
and try to find the upendo that beats within
My moyo cries,
every time I remember you,
my little brother,
full of youth,
only a child,
stolen in the night,
ransomed,
and died before wewe came back to us,
only a child,
so beautiful,
full of love,
they aliiba wewe because wewe were there,
and we were not,
life was hopeless,
at least it felt so,
it was my fault,
I fell asleep,
well I was supposed to watch you,
but my eyes could not stay open,
tears fill my eyes,
my moyo cries,
as I remember you.
Do wewe remember me, too?
(This poem is not my experience, I wrote it for a friend.)
every time I remember you,
my little brother,
full of youth,
only a child,
stolen in the night,
ransomed,
and died before wewe came back to us,
only a child,
so beautiful,
full of love,
they aliiba wewe because wewe were there,
and we were not,
life was hopeless,
at least it felt so,
it was my fault,
I fell asleep,
well I was supposed to watch you,
but my eyes could not stay open,
tears fill my eyes,
my moyo cries,
as I remember you.
Do wewe remember me, too?
(This poem is not my experience, I wrote it for a friend.)
What is the "l" word?
Is it "law" au "lint"?
Those are incorrect,
But I'll give wewe hint
It's defined as affection
It rhymes with "dove"
Figured it out?
If not it's "love"
If your wondering what
This poem's about
The inayofuata few stanzas
Should help wewe out
The word "love" is
Affection, passion, au lust
For me, however
"love" is disgust
Hugs and kisses
Aren't me
At least that's what
I tell my family
Not my whole family
Just ones in my house
Like my mother, sisters
Grandma and her spouse
And just because I
onyesha no affection
They say my life's
Headed a different direction
A life of drugs
Drinking and killing
Everyone in the house
Isn't that silly?
No it's not silly
It's absurd! At least
wewe know my meaning
Of the "l" word
Is it "law" au "lint"?
Those are incorrect,
But I'll give wewe hint
It's defined as affection
It rhymes with "dove"
Figured it out?
If not it's "love"
If your wondering what
This poem's about
The inayofuata few stanzas
Should help wewe out
The word "love" is
Affection, passion, au lust
For me, however
"love" is disgust
Hugs and kisses
Aren't me
At least that's what
I tell my family
Not my whole family
Just ones in my house
Like my mother, sisters
Grandma and her spouse
And just because I
onyesha no affection
They say my life's
Headed a different direction
A life of drugs
Drinking and killing
Everyone in the house
Isn't that silly?
No it's not silly
It's absurd! At least
wewe know my meaning
Of the "l" word
As the light was gone
thats all i saw
as the baby was born
he blew the horn
the sadness i saw
their was no law
ashes always came
i dont need to blame
all i saw is love
sadness kwa a dove
The tears came
while i was on my chain
darkness was on land
their was no man
as i cry
on no side
i Lost my pride
they lied
as they live
they give
their blonde
is gone
as the young
has done
The path
is on behath
upendo is sad
then wewe get mad
height
shows light
my heart
tares apart
a sorwd
went through more
the moyo bleed
now i hav need
i saw a shard
with a gaurd
so that had began
kwa a ungreatfull man
So the of thou poem must be done as the poem i shall make inayofuata time so pick your right
thats all i saw
as the baby was born
he blew the horn
the sadness i saw
their was no law
ashes always came
i dont need to blame
all i saw is love
sadness kwa a dove
The tears came
while i was on my chain
darkness was on land
their was no man
as i cry
on no side
i Lost my pride
they lied
as they live
they give
their blonde
is gone
as the young
has done
The path
is on behath
upendo is sad
then wewe get mad
height
shows light
my heart
tares apart
a sorwd
went through more
the moyo bleed
now i hav need
i saw a shard
with a gaurd
so that had began
kwa a ungreatfull man
So the of thou poem must be done as the poem i shall make inayofuata time so pick your right
Something about sitting on the lege of a window seal,has some how got my up most appeal, and sitting up kusoma non-fiction books. The nice breezy wind gives me this great big feel. When I look outside I see my green field. Then I look inside at my wide layed out floor covered in teal. I live in a nice big quite country and thats for real. Every night I look at the moon out of my one room house.
An wish my prince would take me away from my bedroom. Only if I let my ideas bloom. wewe dont want to know half the things I think, then wewe might have to send me to a shrink. I think being in captivity dor so long makes me think. What I should do during my midnight blues. After all of that its time to hit the sack. Way in the back were wewe can see a crack of the midnight moon. Then I lay me down in sheets and let myself loose fast asleep.
The End
An wish my prince would take me away from my bedroom. Only if I let my ideas bloom. wewe dont want to know half the things I think, then wewe might have to send me to a shrink. I think being in captivity dor so long makes me think. What I should do during my midnight blues. After all of that its time to hit the sack. Way in the back were wewe can see a crack of the midnight moon. Then I lay me down in sheets and let myself loose fast asleep.
The End
the snow is red and bloody.
The ashes flew
and the damage of moto grew.
Poeple cried
then they died.
A girl and boy
needed joy.
Sadness
made alot of badness.
A black swan
comes into dawn.
upendo is sad
the njiwa wasant glad.
The children run
but with no fun.
They make a red line
and the blood is not a dime.
The girl was in her white dress
and the blood on made a mess.
As the night
has fright.
Their is no doom
when wewe stare at the moon.
Is their a family
thats happily.
We need to grow the hearts
not the parts.
Dont blink
au draw with ink.
We stare
at the lare.
Everyday in the halls, I saw wewe with her.
I saw wewe hug her and kiss her.
It hurts so much.
When wewe told me it was over, I cried for so many nights.
I couldn't believe wewe wanted to end our upendo for that other girl.
Did wewe think I would be happy for you?
Well that was a big mistake.
When we met, I felt like I was the happiest girl to have
met you.
I felt,...like our upendo was going to last for long time..
It hurts so much to see wewe everytime we pass kwa each other.
It hurts so much,that I can't take it anymore.
But, why would wewe want to hurt me like this?
Did wewe think I wouldn't feel pain au sadness?
Well wewe thought wrong.
wewe want to know how I feel?
I feel betrayed.
I feel like wewe grabbed a kisu and...
Just cut it in pieces..
I...I can't go on like this..I just can't..
It..it hurts so much...
I saw wewe hug her and kiss her.
It hurts so much.
When wewe told me it was over, I cried for so many nights.
I couldn't believe wewe wanted to end our upendo for that other girl.
Did wewe think I would be happy for you?
Well that was a big mistake.
When we met, I felt like I was the happiest girl to have
met you.
I felt,...like our upendo was going to last for long time..
It hurts so much to see wewe everytime we pass kwa each other.
It hurts so much,that I can't take it anymore.
But, why would wewe want to hurt me like this?
Did wewe think I wouldn't feel pain au sadness?
Well wewe thought wrong.
wewe want to know how I feel?
I feel betrayed.
I feel like wewe grabbed a kisu and...
Just cut it in pieces..
I...I can't go on like this..I just can't..
It..it hurts so much...