IN A TIME
OF WAR
wewe muhuri your past to my imperfect present
wewe draw the future of my memory
wewe make upendo to the moto of my oceans
Luring in the palm of my melancholy
The drowned madness of my delusions
Just for your pleasure
wewe kiss the violence
Of my breathless silence
Like an explosion of shooting stars
Detangling the lust of my scars
From the bowels of my childhood innocence
Expiating the sin of my deliverance
wewe slap my dark passion
Your hands clutching to my armor
Your eyes hung to my emotions
Shivering upendo in my face
In an ageless journey to a place
Where your long sigh numbs my terror
Every smile wewe dance
Resurrects a moment of trance
When your invisible touch of silence
Hangs the promise of a chance
To liberate time and space from a distance
MUSIC
My Bijou *
wewe gave me All the best of wewe **
Now I need All the rest of wewe **
To DIE to LIVE All That I Am
To LEARN To BE All That We Are
* Thanks Freddie !
** Thanks Billy !
JoGi ‘98
My Trust Has Now Died, kwa Vampiyaa
Simple words cannot describe my anger towards you.
I wish for wewe to cry; to know that I am crying too.
Nothing wewe can say can ever allow me to forgive.
Now it is my turn to fight; it is my turn to live.
This friendship, these memories... mean nothing to me now.
I spend my time alone crying and wondering how
wewe could have ever betrayed me in such a sad way.
To you, to the world, I have nothing at all to say.
wewe have to know that I am finished with your lies.
upendo to wewe is less than nothing... because it always dies.
The universe now knows the reasons why I have cried,
But for everything that's happened, my trust has now died.
Simple words cannot describe my anger towards you.
I wish for wewe to cry; to know that I am crying too.
Nothing wewe can say can ever allow me to forgive.
Now it is my turn to fight; it is my turn to live.
This friendship, these memories... mean nothing to me now.
I spend my time alone crying and wondering how
wewe could have ever betrayed me in such a sad way.
To you, to the world, I have nothing at all to say.
wewe have to know that I am finished with your lies.
upendo to wewe is less than nothing... because it always dies.
The universe now knows the reasons why I have cried,
But for everything that's happened, my trust has now died.
I am at the edge, i look down and see an endless pit.
It calls to me, whispers sweet nothing into my ears,
But suddenly it is replaced kwa your voice, telling me to turn around and walk away
To come to you, hold wewe and care for you, to be the one who won the battle against the pit
I follow your voice, through meadows and forests, and find myself in a familiar place, Home.
Your voice is louder, stronger and if possible zaidi beautiful, I know i am close,I walk, anticipation coursing through every bit of my body
I breath in deeply and smell your scent, a mixture of rain and lavender
I turn and see you, your eyes full of the upendo that i missed
I run to wewe and wrap, upangaji pamoja my arms around you, knowing that i am where i am meant to be....
It calls to me, whispers sweet nothing into my ears,
But suddenly it is replaced kwa your voice, telling me to turn around and walk away
To come to you, hold wewe and care for you, to be the one who won the battle against the pit
I follow your voice, through meadows and forests, and find myself in a familiar place, Home.
Your voice is louder, stronger and if possible zaidi beautiful, I know i am close,I walk, anticipation coursing through every bit of my body
I breath in deeply and smell your scent, a mixture of rain and lavender
I turn and see you, your eyes full of the upendo that i missed
I run to wewe and wrap, upangaji pamoja my arms around you, knowing that i am where i am meant to be....
Do remember those times when we used talk nonstop?
Those times when wewe told those guys to leave me alone and knock it off?
So tell me, why'd wewe throw it all away?
wewe were there for me like I was for you.
It's true.
Yea, we'd fight sometimes, but that's what Marafiki do time to time.
So tell me, what happened to the old you?
The one I couldn't get enough, too?
And even sometimes called me Boo?
I thought that sinced I moved, You'd still care about me.
And and be there for me. Atleast try to be.
Guess I was wrong.
If I had that chance to atleast say goodbye before I moved, would wewe still wanted to try talking to me?
au see?
No matter what, I'll always have in my moyo and memories..
Those times when wewe told those guys to leave me alone and knock it off?
So tell me, why'd wewe throw it all away?
wewe were there for me like I was for you.
It's true.
Yea, we'd fight sometimes, but that's what Marafiki do time to time.
So tell me, what happened to the old you?
The one I couldn't get enough, too?
And even sometimes called me Boo?
I thought that sinced I moved, You'd still care about me.
And and be there for me. Atleast try to be.
Guess I was wrong.
If I had that chance to atleast say goodbye before I moved, would wewe still wanted to try talking to me?
au see?
No matter what, I'll always have in my moyo and memories..
I drew this in 7th grade called The Mystery Girl.
The color of lips as you're out there cold
Blue
The name wewe got from a gypsy wise and old
Blue
The color for me and you
Blue
The way we spent time together as friends
Blue
The way we stick to uchungu, chungu ends
Blue
The color for just me and you
Blue
The way the impact hit us
Blue
The way others never shown justice
Blue
The reason why they saved me from the wreckage but not you
Blue
The color for only me and you
Blue
The way your lips looked like on that sad day
Blue
The way wewe left me on a Monday
Blue
The color for me and you
Blue
I hate that they saved me and not you
Blue
They alisema there was nothing they could do
Blue
The mood for just me not you
Blue
How I feel right now without you
Blue
I wish there was something I could do
Blue
I wish I was there with you
Blue
Forever the color for just me and you
Blue
Another 7th grade drawing called The Blue Circus Girl.
The zaidi I wipe them away
The zaidi they flow
I hide them
So wewe don't know
I'm drowning,
Frowning,
My life feels over
I could use something lucky,
perhaps a clover
Voice shaking,
Words cracked
All because you'll never come back
When wewe left wewe took something,
My happiness, my pride
Now the tears I'm left to hide
Your gone,
Never returning
Heartbroken yelps from the depths of my soul,
Patting,
Consoling,
It's okay, I'm told
It's not the end of the world for most, My my world is crumbling to a tragic toast
A river big and flowing,
Leaving my face slightly glowing
These tears won't end no matter what,
All because of our endless love
The zaidi they flow
I hide them
So wewe don't know
I'm drowning,
Frowning,
My life feels over
I could use something lucky,
perhaps a clover
Voice shaking,
Words cracked
All because you'll never come back
When wewe left wewe took something,
My happiness, my pride
Now the tears I'm left to hide
Your gone,
Never returning
Heartbroken yelps from the depths of my soul,
Patting,
Consoling,
It's okay, I'm told
It's not the end of the world for most, My my world is crumbling to a tragic toast
A river big and flowing,
Leaving my face slightly glowing
These tears won't end no matter what,
All because of our endless love
I listen to the rain
Outside of my window
Gently tapping
Calmly rapping
On my window pane
I listen to the rain
As it feels like a luliby
Quietly hitting against the window
As the time goes by
The wind blowing against the trees
As it warns the birds and the bees
To find a new place to stay
As nature's storm is into play
The rain song
The rain song
So calm and gentle
As I keep writing
My mind longs to rest
But Poe, Plath, au Frost could never put it best
About this beautiful rain song
This is not dark au creepy
au boring to make a baby sleepy
This is relaxation beyond serenity
As the rain is calming my noisy city
I stop my uandishi and end kwa closing
That I feel no anger au loathing
This rain song is happy and beautiful
Making me tired and relaxed in rest
There is slight thunder and lightning
But nothing can stop this feeling that I'm getting
I close kwa resting
In my kitanda nesting
The comfort and relaxation
of the wonderous rain song.
Outside of my window
Gently tapping
Calmly rapping
On my window pane
I listen to the rain
As it feels like a luliby
Quietly hitting against the window
As the time goes by
The wind blowing against the trees
As it warns the birds and the bees
To find a new place to stay
As nature's storm is into play
The rain song
The rain song
So calm and gentle
As I keep writing
My mind longs to rest
But Poe, Plath, au Frost could never put it best
About this beautiful rain song
This is not dark au creepy
au boring to make a baby sleepy
This is relaxation beyond serenity
As the rain is calming my noisy city
I stop my uandishi and end kwa closing
That I feel no anger au loathing
This rain song is happy and beautiful
Making me tired and relaxed in rest
There is slight thunder and lightning
But nothing can stop this feeling that I'm getting
I close kwa resting
In my kitanda nesting
The comfort and relaxation
of the wonderous rain song.
I lie awake
Sleepless and dead
The blood pounds in my head
Pressure builds
My eyes begin to bleed
A crown of shame
Is placed upon me
For the world to see
Mocked and tortured
No upendo to be found
In the City of Evil
Remorse pulls me down
Deeper into the ground
Cleansing air fills my lungs
Delicate hands caress me
A feeling so alien but alive
Warmth fills my veins
My moyo begins to heal
My body starts to feel
I am no longer numb
My afterlife has come
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Ugh: "Please write a longer makala au consider posting to the forum."
Idiots....
You're upendo is just like falling
Like falling from a tall building screaming
Falling
Free falling down
Too late to be saved now
Staying with wewe is like crashing
Crashing down and breaking
wewe cannot fix my broken pieces
Too late to be saved now
If wewe really cared
I would've been balanced
I would stand tall
But no
I had to fall
I crawl back up to get you
I crawl back up to see you
I crawl back up for revenge
I look at wewe laughing at me
Covered in blood I push wewe down!
Down!
Down!
Free falling
Down!
As wewe break into a million pieces
I feel free and good inside
As I know now
I am not a suicide
wewe homicidal maniac
wewe have finally fallen down
Without any wings to save you
I was dead but now wewe see
That the ending wewe has set me free
So now I can fly
As wewe touched the ground and died
So now the beginning of me
Was the ending of you
wewe were evil and heartless
I was just cold hearted
But at least cold hearted people have hearts
Like falling from a tall building screaming
Falling
Free falling down
Too late to be saved now
Staying with wewe is like crashing
Crashing down and breaking
wewe cannot fix my broken pieces
Too late to be saved now
If wewe really cared
I would've been balanced
I would stand tall
But no
I had to fall
I crawl back up to get you
I crawl back up to see you
I crawl back up for revenge
I look at wewe laughing at me
Covered in blood I push wewe down!
Down!
Down!
Free falling
Down!
As wewe break into a million pieces
I feel free and good inside
As I know now
I am not a suicide
wewe homicidal maniac
wewe have finally fallen down
Without any wings to save you
I was dead but now wewe see
That the ending wewe has set me free
So now I can fly
As wewe touched the ground and died
So now the beginning of me
Was the ending of you
wewe were evil and heartless
I was just cold hearted
But at least cold hearted people have hearts
My Death
Silver sparkles in my eyes
An image comes to mind;
A gun
My hands from around the gun
I look at it and see all the features of it;
Muzzle, hammer, trigger and barrel
My mind races of the past
Fights with parents, hit kwa parents
my life screwed
But i have to do this
For me
No one wants me
No one does......
I pulled the gun to my head and squeezes it
and see a place where
I'm comforable and safe
The Letter
To my sweet beautiful love
I write to you
I can't deal with this
and wewe don't need to worry
Its not you
But i think of you,
Your scent, smile, the way your eyes sparkle,
that laugh I can't get enough of
But I'll see wewe soon my love
Yours truly
Your Love
I upendo you
Silver sparkles in my eyes
An image comes to mind;
A gun
My hands from around the gun
I look at it and see all the features of it;
Muzzle, hammer, trigger and barrel
My mind races of the past
Fights with parents, hit kwa parents
my life screwed
But i have to do this
For me
No one wants me
No one does......
I pulled the gun to my head and squeezes it
and see a place where
I'm comforable and safe
The Letter
To my sweet beautiful love
I write to you
I can't deal with this
and wewe don't need to worry
Its not you
But i think of you,
Your scent, smile, the way your eyes sparkle,
that laugh I can't get enough of
But I'll see wewe soon my love
Yours truly
Your Love
I upendo you
The warmth of your embrace
My wild man
Oh how I upendo you
The strong scent
Of honey suckles and floral trees
Kiss my nose as wewe wrap, upangaji pamoja me in your muscular arms
I upendo my new jungle home
I feel free and loved
As I enjoy my honey suckle summer romance
Alas, is this yet just a dream?
Too romantic and perfect?
No, it is real
Let me live in this paradise
Paradise doesn't last too long
Because lions prowl for a fight
But my husband knows what to do
He protects me
My Howl
My wonderful love
As we enjoy our honey suckle summer
In the shade
Wrapping arms around each other
Embracing in a nap during this wonderful season
I hope this siku doesn't end so soon
Because this is a beautiful joyous day
Just Howl and me
In a wonderful embrace
Napping on a mti branch
Enjoying our honey suckle summer
My wild man
Oh how I upendo you
The strong scent
Of honey suckles and floral trees
Kiss my nose as wewe wrap, upangaji pamoja me in your muscular arms
I upendo my new jungle home
I feel free and loved
As I enjoy my honey suckle summer romance
Alas, is this yet just a dream?
Too romantic and perfect?
No, it is real
Let me live in this paradise
Paradise doesn't last too long
Because lions prowl for a fight
But my husband knows what to do
He protects me
My Howl
My wonderful love
As we enjoy our honey suckle summer
In the shade
Wrapping arms around each other
Embracing in a nap during this wonderful season
I hope this siku doesn't end so soon
Because this is a beautiful joyous day
Just Howl and me
In a wonderful embrace
Napping on a mti branch
Enjoying our honey suckle summer
As I slip onto unconsciousness
My mind never sleeps
My eyes twitch, indicating dreaming
Odd dreaming
I feel dead inside
As I feel like I'm dying in my sleep
Aching muscles try to awaken me
I try kicking and screaming
My neck cannot turn au move
I feel trapped
It's almost like I'm in a coma
I cannot awaken
Somebody please!
Please!
Awaken me from this nightmare!
I truly think my dreams are trying to kill me!
Where's the morning light?
The light that wakens me
The dawn's light peaking over the horizon
It's not there for me
The mind is a place to escape from harsh reality
Yet it can be awfully deadly
So I hope wewe try to awaken yourself
When your body feels heavy and sleepy
When wewe sleep wewe can be in peace
Sometimes I am
Sometimes I'm not
My mind never sleeps
My eyes twitch, indicating dreaming
Odd dreaming
I feel dead inside
As I feel like I'm dying in my sleep
Aching muscles try to awaken me
I try kicking and screaming
My neck cannot turn au move
I feel trapped
It's almost like I'm in a coma
I cannot awaken
Somebody please!
Please!
Awaken me from this nightmare!
I truly think my dreams are trying to kill me!
Where's the morning light?
The light that wakens me
The dawn's light peaking over the horizon
It's not there for me
The mind is a place to escape from harsh reality
Yet it can be awfully deadly
So I hope wewe try to awaken yourself
When your body feels heavy and sleepy
When wewe sleep wewe can be in peace
Sometimes I am
Sometimes I'm not
What would wewe do if everything in my life was a lie
Would wewe Scold me
Would u Help me Tell the Truth
Would wewe Excpet it
if i lied today
i can lie tomorrow
to hide the pain
if i lied strait to your face
would wewe not be discussted
i Wanna Tell The Truth but cant
The Truth is Unbelivibly Far from my lies
wewe wouldent belive mevany way
shhh hush now in a world wide web of lies i am tangeld in.
Forgiving u
Forgiving me
Lie
wewe Started The lies
With the three simple words
I upendo u
was ur biggest lie
and wewe alisema it with a smilebon your lieing Face
Would wewe Scold me
Would u Help me Tell the Truth
Would wewe Excpet it
if i lied today
i can lie tomorrow
to hide the pain
if i lied strait to your face
would wewe not be discussted
i Wanna Tell The Truth but cant
The Truth is Unbelivibly Far from my lies
wewe wouldent belive mevany way
shhh hush now in a world wide web of lies i am tangeld in.
Forgiving u
Forgiving me
Lie
wewe Started The lies
With the three simple words
I upendo u
was ur biggest lie
and wewe alisema it with a smilebon your lieing Face
