IN A TIME
OF WAR
wewe muhuri your past to my imperfect present
wewe draw the future of my memory
wewe make upendo to the moto of my oceans
Luring in the palm of my melancholy
The drowned madness of my delusions
Just for your pleasure
wewe kiss the violence
Of my breathless silence
Like an explosion of shooting stars
Detangling the lust of my scars
From the bowels of my childhood innocence
Expiating the sin of my deliverance
wewe slap my dark passion
Your hands clutching to my armor
Your eyes hung to my emotions
Shivering upendo in my face
In an ageless journey to a place
Where your long sigh numbs my terror
Every smile wewe dance
Resurrects a moment of trance
When your invisible touch of silence
Hangs the promise of a chance
To liberate time and space from a distance
MUSIC
My Bijou *
wewe gave me All the best of wewe **
Now I need All the rest of wewe **
To DIE to LIVE All That I Am
To LEARN To BE All That We Are
* Thanks Freddie !
** Thanks Billy !
JoGi ‘98
A pittance in the kisima, chemchemi grants the wish of the good hearted
A single bud of rose
Petals flurished, a deep blood crimson only seen if the moon were upon it
A mess of thorns among a mangled wound
Its result not closely matching such a profound deepness
Not in wound, not in blood
A perfect bud
A perfect gift to the one who gifted him with her presence
Worthy of such a love
He returns to her
His eagerness stained kwa parched lips and teary eyes
Letting sadness well up within them and drop upon the granite stone
On his knees he drops his rose
It tumbles to the soft dirt
His eyes fall to her name
To his inscription upon her headstone
Loving mother, never to be forgotten
A single bud of rose
Petals flurished, a deep blood crimson only seen if the moon were upon it
A mess of thorns among a mangled wound
Its result not closely matching such a profound deepness
Not in wound, not in blood
A perfect bud
A perfect gift to the one who gifted him with her presence
Worthy of such a love
He returns to her
His eagerness stained kwa parched lips and teary eyes
Letting sadness well up within them and drop upon the granite stone
On his knees he drops his rose
It tumbles to the soft dirt
His eyes fall to her name
To his inscription upon her headstone
Loving mother, never to be forgotten
Lying broken
On the floor
The phone smashed
Everywhere
He broke my heart
I broke his face
Our upendo is history
I don't want him back,
I don't want someone else instead.
I lay crying in my bed,
Wishing I'd never said
Anything, could've been different kwa now
Got to woo him back
Got to get my life on track
How do I do that exactly?
He cheated on me,
The sekunde time
I feel so close to breaking
Snapping
Crying
Shaking
Forgetting
I try to forget the past
But only the future can be forgotten
I wish it could change
So many times it's happened
So many times times to me
Been cheated, lied to,
I feel so sick.
(Just a collection of feelings from me and my friends. The sekunde one's mine :P)
On the floor
The phone smashed
Everywhere
He broke my heart
I broke his face
Our upendo is history
I don't want him back,
I don't want someone else instead.
I lay crying in my bed,
Wishing I'd never said
Anything, could've been different kwa now
Got to woo him back
Got to get my life on track
How do I do that exactly?
He cheated on me,
The sekunde time
I feel so close to breaking
Snapping
Crying
Shaking
Forgetting
I try to forget the past
But only the future can be forgotten
I wish it could change
So many times it's happened
So many times times to me
Been cheated, lied to,
I feel so sick.
(Just a collection of feelings from me and my friends. The sekunde one's mine :P)
A walk into the Death Tunnel
Behind the light of life that succumbs the outer layer of the physical tomb
And into the hollow frigid of darkness of welcoming death
Reaper's tendrils seep into the life barrier, ripping away the flesh
Hanging deep blackness hovers thick as a sickly breath
Life is just a mere thought not yet a memory of ago
Forsaken souls from inside the moto scream their protests from their master's whip
Their pains of life echoes eternally as the blood drips
To the hell hound's mouth
The journey ends as wewe enter the undead realm
Your damnation of never resting in peace
But to roam endlessly through the shadow's depths
Behind the light of life that succumbs the outer layer of the physical tomb
And into the hollow frigid of darkness of welcoming death
Reaper's tendrils seep into the life barrier, ripping away the flesh
Hanging deep blackness hovers thick as a sickly breath
Life is just a mere thought not yet a memory of ago
Forsaken souls from inside the moto scream their protests from their master's whip
Their pains of life echoes eternally as the blood drips
To the hell hound's mouth
The journey ends as wewe enter the undead realm
Your damnation of never resting in peace
But to roam endlessly through the shadow's depths
Chills will haunt you, the grim will reap.
From your lips will venom seep.
Warm and cold and living and dead.
Was that really what I said?
Black as darkness, black as night.
A ghostly vapour creeps into sight.
Light and dark and upendo and hate.
Has this now become our fate?
An evil melody will play
To bind your fear and chase wewe away.
moto and water and sun and moon.
Will we find the exit soon?
Ride the darkened, haunted train
And hear the moaning of the murdered crane.
Evil and good and silver and gold.
Has the secret, to you, been told?
Blood is splattered on the mirror.
Your dark aura is stained with fear.
Rain and shine and clear and opaque.
Your whole life is now at stake.
From your lips will venom seep.
Warm and cold and living and dead.
Was that really what I said?
Black as darkness, black as night.
A ghostly vapour creeps into sight.
Light and dark and upendo and hate.
Has this now become our fate?
An evil melody will play
To bind your fear and chase wewe away.
moto and water and sun and moon.
Will we find the exit soon?
Ride the darkened, haunted train
And hear the moaning of the murdered crane.
Evil and good and silver and gold.
Has the secret, to you, been told?
Blood is splattered on the mirror.
Your dark aura is stained with fear.
Rain and shine and clear and opaque.
Your whole life is now at stake.
A stabed wound over 1000 times
please just hurry im wanting to die
just hurry up and kill me
i cant stand to suffer like this
If wewe wont kill me
ill kill myself
so i can become free
free this tourchered soul
and kiss me good bye into the blackened night
youll never see me as long as wewe live
youllnever upendo me as long as i live
but im forced to be held hostage under evils wing
ill always miss you
to be never loved
forwhen wewe hold me in your ars agian
i will cry
i will fly
i will die
opon the ashes of our love
our upendo has caged me
Traped me
st me free
let me die
its the only way
happyness once came
happyness killed me
like i once killed my mother
the fallen angels call me the devil
while god laughs in my face and curses my name
pain i will always feel
please just hurry im wanting to die
just hurry up and kill me
i cant stand to suffer like this
If wewe wont kill me
ill kill myself
so i can become free
free this tourchered soul
and kiss me good bye into the blackened night
youll never see me as long as wewe live
youllnever upendo me as long as i live
but im forced to be held hostage under evils wing
ill always miss you
to be never loved
forwhen wewe hold me in your ars agian
i will cry
i will fly
i will die
opon the ashes of our love
our upendo has caged me
Traped me
st me free
let me die
its the only way
happyness once came
happyness killed me
like i once killed my mother
the fallen angels call me the devil
while god laughs in my face and curses my name
pain i will always feel
To the dream I'll never meet,
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream, I smiled,
To the dream, I adored,
To the dream that is not possible,
To the dream that is now ignored,
To the dream, I wrote about,
To the dream, I thought,
To the dream, I admired,
To the dream, I want,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream that is long gone,
To the dream I beg for,
To the dream I dreamt
And nothing more,
To the dream I'll never meet,
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant.
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream, I smiled,
To the dream, I adored,
To the dream that is not possible,
To the dream that is now ignored,
To the dream, I wrote about,
To the dream, I thought,
To the dream, I admired,
To the dream, I want,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant,
To the dream that is long gone,
To the dream I beg for,
To the dream I dreamt
And nothing more,
To the dream I'll never meet,
To the dream that is above the stars,
To the dream that was never reached,
To the dream that has to be put behind bars,
To the dream, I loved,
To the dream, I dreamt,
To a dream, to a dream
And only I knew what it meant.
Fifteen Bones of an ancient man.
Among them, the warriors of his clan.
And now a serene silver gas
Will slide along the bloody grass.
Take the aqua weapon of your choice.
No time to love, no time to rejoice.
wewe turn your head from north to south.
wewe know that poison spills from your mouth.
What fresh hell has come anew?
Upon them a curse wewe will beshrew.
You'll break their wings and destroy their hearts.
They are naught but your work of art.
They are your canvas on which to dispense
Your lack of knowledge au common sense.
And from a single silver feather
Relfects the lonely World of Nether.
Among them, the warriors of his clan.
And now a serene silver gas
Will slide along the bloody grass.
Take the aqua weapon of your choice.
No time to love, no time to rejoice.
wewe turn your head from north to south.
wewe know that poison spills from your mouth.
What fresh hell has come anew?
Upon them a curse wewe will beshrew.
You'll break their wings and destroy their hearts.
They are naught but your work of art.
They are your canvas on which to dispense
Your lack of knowledge au common sense.
And from a single silver feather
Relfects the lonely World of Nether.
heyya, i wrote a poem , its title is "My Dear" ,so check out tell me, howz it..
Here I'm disconnected
and feeling so alone
Whatever I see,I feel
I know wewe don't know
no,no, I'm not fading
I'm just broken and Lost inside
Living in a situation,where darkness took the light
I wanna see that sight,
havin u all the time,
Holdin' me, Lovin' me
Why u are not here??
My dear...
Whenever I see u, My dear, I smile,
I'm not out of the pain, but at-least, I try.
Sometimes I cry, I scream,
Why all the time spent with u My Dear, looks like a dream??
Please, My Dear, stay with me,
I know u will not come now, but My Dear, hope never dies,
at-least come for a while,
when I will die...
~by
Mehakdeep Kaur
well m thinking to hv a pen name..but not decided yet!! :)
Here I'm disconnected
and feeling so alone
Whatever I see,I feel
I know wewe don't know
no,no, I'm not fading
I'm just broken and Lost inside
Living in a situation,where darkness took the light
I wanna see that sight,
havin u all the time,
Holdin' me, Lovin' me
Why u are not here??
My dear...
Whenever I see u, My dear, I smile,
I'm not out of the pain, but at-least, I try.
Sometimes I cry, I scream,
Why all the time spent with u My Dear, looks like a dream??
Please, My Dear, stay with me,
I know u will not come now, but My Dear, hope never dies,
at-least come for a while,
when I will die...
~by
Mehakdeep Kaur
well m thinking to hv a pen name..but not decided yet!! :)
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if moyo is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with upendo that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
They will never stop our mutual loves and cares cart…..
(Dedicated to all my Marafiki whom I upendo so much, who made my life worthy and never asked for anything for their care and love. My friends, who are funny and lovable make me alive. They give me hope and they are my light. I have nothing but my emotions and my words. So my dearest Marafiki that’s all I have to gift you. (I upendo wewe ALL)
dear herat please come back
to your upendo who is still waiting
who still has hope in moyo
tears in eyes but smile on lips
people ask why do i smile?
but do i need a reason?
now my tounge forgot all taste except salty
taste of nasty salty yet delicious tears
with all my tears
i sollowed all my glooms
but come back i need you
can wewe crush your feelings, my feelings, our feelings?
i was your crush can wewe crush me now?
night and days are one for me
all time i spend in waiting for you, tears shed along
come back let single one remain in my eyes
i plead wewe to come back
with all my upendo and......what was it??
yeah that of my SMILE
to your upendo who is still waiting
who still has hope in moyo
tears in eyes but smile on lips
people ask why do i smile?
but do i need a reason?
now my tounge forgot all taste except salty
taste of nasty salty yet delicious tears
with all my tears
i sollowed all my glooms
but come back i need you
can wewe crush your feelings, my feelings, our feelings?
i was your crush can wewe crush me now?
night and days are one for me
all time i spend in waiting for you, tears shed along
come back let single one remain in my eyes
i plead wewe to come back
with all my upendo and......what was it??
yeah that of my SMILE
I use my smile
to hide my pain.
I use my knowledge
to keep me tame.
A uchungu, chungu feeling,
A uchungu, chungu thought.
If I have cried
It is for naught.
I keep my sorrow
locked tight inside.
In nobody
I can confide.
I have my locks
I have my keys
I do not have
Sweet memories.
I was alone
I was astray
I was used up
And tossed away
I use my laugh
to hide my fears.
I use my skill
to hide my tears.
I listen as
the Angel sings,
But still I cannot
Spread my wings.
I have no body,
I have no soul.
No story is left
It has been told.
I use my upendo
to lock my heart.
wewe use your hatred
to tear me apart.
to hide my pain.
I use my knowledge
to keep me tame.
A uchungu, chungu feeling,
A uchungu, chungu thought.
If I have cried
It is for naught.
I keep my sorrow
locked tight inside.
In nobody
I can confide.
I have my locks
I have my keys
I do not have
Sweet memories.
I was alone
I was astray
I was used up
And tossed away
I use my laugh
to hide my fears.
I use my skill
to hide my tears.
I listen as
the Angel sings,
But still I cannot
Spread my wings.
I have no body,
I have no soul.
No story is left
It has been told.
I use my upendo
to lock my heart.
wewe use your hatred
to tear me apart.
Glass walls are like
Knifes, they make wewe bleed
The shattered pieces
Can cut wewe deep
So fragile and delicate
Like a teenager's heart
One wrong move
And it falls apart
Brick walls however are
Tough to defeat
With their strong bases
Of non-concrete
Now plexiglass and glass
Walls are like the
Same, only with the
First wewe feel nothing
I see my walls
Of trasparent plastic
That contain my emotions
Like "affection" and "erattic"
If we don't ever
Get the chance to
Meet, know my plexiglass
Walls make me me
Knifes, they make wewe bleed
The shattered pieces
Can cut wewe deep
So fragile and delicate
Like a teenager's heart
One wrong move
And it falls apart
Brick walls however are
Tough to defeat
With their strong bases
Of non-concrete
Now plexiglass and glass
Walls are like the
Same, only with the
First wewe feel nothing
I see my walls
Of trasparent plastic
That contain my emotions
Like "affection" and "erattic"
If we don't ever
Get the chance to
Meet, know my plexiglass
Walls make me me
A sonnet with iambic pentametre.
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Sneaking out the windows,
creeping in the cold,
the little blackened widows—
it's the truth that we will hold.
When working in collusion
with our enemy;
our trust is an illusion,
while no one holds the key.
Your final destination
is just around the bend.
wewe gave in to temptation
you now repent your sin.
The dawn is just beginning, so is serenity.
But no one will remember how wewe lost all sanity.
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Sneaking out the windows,
creeping in the cold,
the little blackened widows—
it's the truth that we will hold.
When working in collusion
with our enemy;
our trust is an illusion,
while no one holds the key.
Your final destination
is just around the bend.
wewe gave in to temptation
you now repent your sin.
The dawn is just beginning, so is serenity.
But no one will remember how wewe lost all sanity.
