IN A TIME
OF WAR
wewe muhuri your past to my imperfect present
wewe draw the future of my memory
wewe make upendo to the moto of my oceans
Luring in the palm of my melancholy
The drowned madness of my delusions
Just for your pleasure
wewe kiss the violence
Of my breathless silence
Like an explosion of shooting stars
Detangling the lust of my scars
From the bowels of my childhood innocence
Expiating the sin of my deliverance
wewe slap my dark passion
Your hands clutching to my armor
Your eyes hung to my emotions
Shivering upendo in my face
In an ageless journey to a place
Where your long sigh numbs my terror
Every smile wewe dance
Resurrects a moment of trance
When your invisible touch of silence
Hangs the promise of a chance
To liberate time and space from a distance
MUSIC
My Bijou *
wewe gave me All the best of wewe **
Now I need All the rest of wewe **
To DIE to LIVE All That I Am
To LEARN To BE All That We Are
* Thanks Freddie !
** Thanks Billy !
JoGi ‘98
Elusive dreams
This pre-life crisis, is killing me
A beautiful tragedy
Who I was wasn't me
wewe make it easier to be
Easier to be me
It's hard to believe
wewe make it easy
Speaking silence
Words can break
It feels like we are falling awake
In a place, in a time of our own
wewe make it easier to be
Easier to be me
It's hard to believe
It felt like the world
Fell from my feet
Gave up on myself
wewe didn't give up on me
Let myself go
wewe were still there
Like coming nyumbani
Coming up for air
wewe make it easier to be
Easier to be me
It's hard to believe
wewe make it easy
Easier to be
To be me
[Lifehouse – Who We Are]
Times.
There are times when wewe feel lonely.
Times when wewe can't talk to your best friend, because she won't take it seriously.
Times when wewe can't talk to your mum,
because your scared she'll bring it up again.
Times when the people who would usally distract wewe only make wewe feel worce without knowing it.
Times when the one person wewe can talk to is ast asleep at 00:45.
These are the times when wewe just cry.
(Please forgive any spelling au grammer mistakes.)
First thought.
The first time I saw you,
was only a glance.
I was a fool, wewe know,
taking a chance.
Thoughts of wewe and me
Filled my dreams,
only to be ripped
at the seams.
So I'll lay here,
My haert in tatters.
In hope that one day
wewe might see
Me.
There are times when wewe feel lonely.
Times when wewe can't talk to your best friend, because she won't take it seriously.
Times when wewe can't talk to your mum,
because your scared she'll bring it up again.
Times when the people who would usally distract wewe only make wewe feel worce without knowing it.
Times when the one person wewe can talk to is ast asleep at 00:45.
These are the times when wewe just cry.
(Please forgive any spelling au grammer mistakes.)
First thought.
The first time I saw you,
was only a glance.
I was a fool, wewe know,
taking a chance.
Thoughts of wewe and me
Filled my dreams,
only to be ripped
at the seams.
So I'll lay here,
My haert in tatters.
In hope that one day
wewe might see
Me.
March Madness
By
Jeremy Gould
31 Days will come and go
Through each I'll remember
a past life
of everlasting strife
Each siku I'll dismember
a little bit zaidi of my soul
4 Weeks, one lasting memory
will arrive to do its worst
to tie me down
I'll lose zaidi ground
my moyo will nearly burst
my mind will agree
1 mwezi will rear its ugly head
I'll return to solitary confinement
a prisoner in hell
it's just as well
'cause if I would break my last commandment
then I'd be better off dead
We're down to the final 4
the grief, the pain, the mourning, the sadness
which shall win this brutal war?
Welcome to my March Madness
By
Jeremy Gould
31 Days will come and go
Through each I'll remember
a past life
of everlasting strife
Each siku I'll dismember
a little bit zaidi of my soul
4 Weeks, one lasting memory
will arrive to do its worst
to tie me down
I'll lose zaidi ground
my moyo will nearly burst
my mind will agree
1 mwezi will rear its ugly head
I'll return to solitary confinement
a prisoner in hell
it's just as well
'cause if I would break my last commandment
then I'd be better off dead
We're down to the final 4
the grief, the pain, the mourning, the sadness
which shall win this brutal war?
Welcome to my March Madness
have
fears
when i have fears that i may cease to be
before my pen has glean’d my teeming brain,
before high piled books, in charact’ry,
hold like rich garners the full-riper’d grain;
when i behold, upon the night’s starr’d face,
huge cloudy symbols of a high romance,
and think that i may never live to trace their shadows,
with the magic hand of chance;
and when i feel, fair creature of an hour!
that i shall never look upon thee more,
never have relish in the faery
power of unreflecting love
then on the pwani of
the wide world i stand alone,
and think till upendo and fame to nothingness do sink.
"posthumous and fugitive poems"
john keats [1795-1821]
when darkness is no less than everything
you've built become undone
there's no fight and no flight
disaster leaves your passion overrun
it's time to let go
it's time to carry on with the show
don't mourn what is gone
greet the dawn
and i will be standing kwa your side
together we'll face the turning tide
remembrance can be a sentence
but it comes to wewe with
a sekunde chance in tow
don't lose it, don't refuse it,
cause wewe cannot learn a thing
wewe think wewe know
a new light is warm
shining down on wewe after the storm
don't mourn what is gone, greet the dawn
and i will be standing kwa your side
together we'll face the turning tide
we grow old with time
yet young with years
never to give up to fears
but we are never fine
yet we always sing
we live on this earth for all our lives
always experiencing something new
like emotion au sights
there is never peace always pain
and life goes on with time
as we grow so do our souls
without life the would be no time
and without time we would mot have pain
and without pain there is no soul
and with no soul there is no life
"i still live i still think i still have to lice for i still have to think.... Fredrick Nietzsche" he also alisema " he who has a why to live can bare almost any how"
yet young with years
never to give up to fears
but we are never fine
yet we always sing
we live on this earth for all our lives
always experiencing something new
like emotion au sights
there is never peace always pain
and life goes on with time
as we grow so do our souls
without life the would be no time
and without time we would mot have pain
and without pain there is no soul
and with no soul there is no life
"i still live i still think i still have to lice for i still have to think.... Fredrick Nietzsche" he also alisema " he who has a why to live can bare almost any how"
The Amulet
by
Jeremy Gould
The bands of dhahabu remind me
of the way wewe held my hand
so tightly
so comfortably
like wewe never would let go
Nobody ever wants to let go
including me
Perhaps it's just we don't know how
The ubunifu is striking
just like wewe were
with every breath
with every movement
I could watch wewe for hours
and never be tired
of seeing you
of being near you
The cold chill that comes
and tickles my neck
every time I put on
that lovely amulet
takes me back to wewe
The only place I want to be
The only person I care to see
Missing wewe here with me
by
Jeremy Gould
The bands of dhahabu remind me
of the way wewe held my hand
so tightly
so comfortably
like wewe never would let go
Nobody ever wants to let go
including me
Perhaps it's just we don't know how
The ubunifu is striking
just like wewe were
with every breath
with every movement
I could watch wewe for hours
and never be tired
of seeing you
of being near you
The cold chill that comes
and tickles my neck
every time I put on
that lovely amulet
takes me back to wewe
The only place I want to be
The only person I care to see
Missing wewe here with me
here is a poem... my therapist wants me to find ways to talk about my feelings....
i have felt sad before,
but this is so much stronger.
i feel like i am drowning,
deeper and deeper in to the black cold water.
i can not scream,
i can not swim to the surface.
i am to lost,
the sadness has consumed me,
as i slowly fade away.
the monster is consuming me,
where has the real me gone?
is she lost?
au did the moster take her over,
and leave me for dead.
no one understands the monster,
no one but those who live consumed kwa it.
deeply consumed like me.
i have felt sad before,
but this is so much stronger.
i feel like i am drowning,
deeper and deeper in to the black cold water.
i can not scream,
i can not swim to the surface.
i am to lost,
the sadness has consumed me,
as i slowly fade away.
the monster is consuming me,
where has the real me gone?
is she lost?
au did the moster take her over,
and leave me for dead.
no one understands the monster,
no one but those who live consumed kwa it.
deeply consumed like me.
this is a lyric (a type of poem) that i wrote as an assignment for language arts class and i chose to write one about my grandpa who has passed away because he was very sick, anyways tell me what u think. btw i got an A for this one :]
sadness is knowing i will never hear my grandpa's voice again
it feels like he left this world all too soon
sadness is watching a movie that we both loved
it reminds me of all the happy times we used to spend together
like the days when wewe would pull me in my wagon
sadness waits for me after i do the things we used to do
sadness is the endless tears flowing down my face
it brings me to tears when i remember all our wonderful times
those are my sad, sweet memories of you
sadness is knowing i will never hear my grandpa's voice again
it feels like he left this world all too soon
sadness is watching a movie that we both loved
it reminds me of all the happy times we used to spend together
like the days when wewe would pull me in my wagon
sadness waits for me after i do the things we used to do
sadness is the endless tears flowing down my face
it brings me to tears when i remember all our wonderful times
those are my sad, sweet memories of you
i'm so confuses right now.
how i feel.
if its real au in my head.
if wewe like me au is our fate just friends.
if wewe do would wewe tell me.
au keep it from me.
afrade that i dont feel the same.
i hope that if wewe do that you'll tell me soon.
i'v falln hard for you.
wewe dont have to tell me now but soon if wewe do..
we'er spending krisimasi together
so that would be the perffect time to do so
to tell me that its not just in my head that wewe like me back
that wewe want me that way i want you.
okay this is just some free writting
plz tell me what u think about this
is it any good?
is it bad?
well thanks for the support lol =)
how i feel.
if its real au in my head.
if wewe like me au is our fate just friends.
if wewe do would wewe tell me.
au keep it from me.
afrade that i dont feel the same.
i hope that if wewe do that you'll tell me soon.
i'v falln hard for you.
wewe dont have to tell me now but soon if wewe do..
we'er spending krisimasi together
so that would be the perffect time to do so
to tell me that its not just in my head that wewe like me back
that wewe want me that way i want you.
okay this is just some free writting
plz tell me what u think about this
is it any good?
is it bad?
well thanks for the support lol =)
i beleive in upendo like kids beleive in magic.
i beviele that there is someone for everyone out there.
i believe when i find him that i'll know he's the one when i see him.
that time will stop for what feels like forever.
i believe that when wewe lose upendo that they stay with wewe for as long as wewe need them.
that the world a little better when theres love.
that if people just upendo a little they'd be happy.
that if people had upendo they would look at life differint.
that everyone every where needs upendo nomatter how old au how young.
okay so this is just alil free uandishi i'm not really sure if its good au not so maoni and tell me plz =)
i beviele that there is someone for everyone out there.
i believe when i find him that i'll know he's the one when i see him.
that time will stop for what feels like forever.
i believe that when wewe lose upendo that they stay with wewe for as long as wewe need them.
that the world a little better when theres love.
that if people just upendo a little they'd be happy.
that if people had upendo they would look at life differint.
that everyone every where needs upendo nomatter how old au how young.
okay so this is just alil free uandishi i'm not really sure if its good au not so maoni and tell me plz =)
IN
YOUR
HOUSE
kwa
JEREMY
GOULD
That first siku wewe let me in
I knew I'd always want to stay
I've never felt zaidi welcome
That safety will never go away
I found peace in your house
Everything seemed so clear
Possibilities on every wall
I wanted to stay there forever
I could've always answered your call
I saw my future in your house
But in a flash wewe were gone
I Lost my future wife
But I gained something new
A hard lesson in life
I left my moyo in your house
YOUR
HOUSE
kwa
JEREMY
GOULD
That first siku wewe let me in
I knew I'd always want to stay
I've never felt zaidi welcome
That safety will never go away
I found peace in your house
Everything seemed so clear
Possibilities on every wall
I wanted to stay there forever
I could've always answered your call
I saw my future in your house
But in a flash wewe were gone
I Lost my future wife
But I gained something new
A hard lesson in life
I left my moyo in your house
The pain I can control
The pain that makes me whole
The pain that stops and brings some tears
The pain that erases all my fears
The pain that I inflict with this knife
The pain that might be last in my life
The pain that brought me to my knees
The pain that woahed me full of pleas
The pain that made me see the light
The pain that is bringing me nyumbani tonight
The pain that is wrong and bitter
The pain that makes me feel fitter
The pain that my Marafiki say is wrong
The pain that makes me feel so strong
The pain that makes my friend sad, and cry
The pain that makes her want to die
The pain thats not just pain to me
The pain that makes everyone see
The pain that thats tearing me apart
The pain thats ripping apart my heart
The pain that I'm addicted to
The pain I can't give up. Not even for you...
The pain that makes me whole
The pain that stops and brings some tears
The pain that erases all my fears
The pain that I inflict with this knife
The pain that might be last in my life
The pain that brought me to my knees
The pain that woahed me full of pleas
The pain that made me see the light
The pain that is bringing me nyumbani tonight
The pain that is wrong and bitter
The pain that makes me feel fitter
The pain that my Marafiki say is wrong
The pain that makes me feel so strong
The pain that makes my friend sad, and cry
The pain that makes her want to die
The pain thats not just pain to me
The pain that makes everyone see
The pain that thats tearing me apart
The pain thats ripping apart my heart
The pain that I'm addicted to
The pain I can't give up. Not even for you...
Pain is my only gain,
Pain is my friend,
Pain so deep and cold,
I feel at nyumbani with the dark pain,
I upendo pain pain is my friend,
Pain will bring back my love,
Pain will give me life once again,
Pain so deep and cold,
Is the only way i can have,
My upendo and my friend,
Pain is the worlds friend,
Pain shows us if we do wrong,
Pain shows us who we are,
Pain is not only in the dark,
But in the light as well,
Pain is so deep and cunning,
Pain can onyesha me who i am,
Pain shows the world who we are,
Pain is my only friend,
Without upendo theres pain,
Without anyone theres pain,
With out the sun with out the moon,
Theres pain so as wewe can see,
Pain is with us and always will be,
Pain will never leave its a marriage,
It's a soul and a part of you,
That will never leave,
Pain is my friend and it is your too....
Pain is my friend,
Pain so deep and cold,
I feel at nyumbani with the dark pain,
I upendo pain pain is my friend,
Pain will bring back my love,
Pain will give me life once again,
Pain so deep and cold,
Is the only way i can have,
My upendo and my friend,
Pain is the worlds friend,
Pain shows us if we do wrong,
Pain shows us who we are,
Pain is not only in the dark,
But in the light as well,
Pain is so deep and cunning,
Pain can onyesha me who i am,
Pain shows the world who we are,
Pain is my only friend,
Without upendo theres pain,
Without anyone theres pain,
With out the sun with out the moon,
Theres pain so as wewe can see,
Pain is with us and always will be,
Pain will never leave its a marriage,
It's a soul and a part of you,
That will never leave,
Pain is my friend and it is your too....
