Summary: Three years have passed since Humphrey ran away from Jasper after all the heartbreak, now he's a lone mbwa mwitu living as if it all never happened thanks to a head injury. However he will soon realize just what he has forgotten when he gets an unknown visitor. Will he come to terms with the past that he lost, au will it end up just causing him to break and feel the hurt all over again?
Fragments of a Lost Life – TheChriZ1995
I keep having these strange flashes in my dreams lately, visions that at first seem like only a normal dream but for some reason feel so familiar. I see myself living in the confines of a pack around other Mbwa mwitu loups that I do not recognize. It's making me confused, for as long as I can remember I have been a lone mbwa mwitu living here in the mountains, I have never been in a pack yet why am I having these visions? When I close my eyes I see all kinds of things like other wolves, landscapes, and even experiences of traveling a long distance with a particular wolf. Yet it's all a blur of mystery that makes no sense but feels as real as my memories of what happened yesterday. I feel like I'm being haunted, as if there's a point of time in my life that I have forgotten about, but how? How could I have forgotten something when there's no physical way I could have, I don't recall getting a bad injury involving brain damages. Perhaps this is just a phase and it will all just go away allowing me to go back to living my life like normal, for now I'm at the mercy of these visions and I'll just have to try and put the pieces together.
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Humphrey's POV
Today had been going pretty well for me so far, spring was in the air and with it brought relieving warmth after a long cold winter. I sometimes wondered why I decided to live in the mountains, it was much baridi being higher up however it's also a pretty secluded and salama place up here. I had gone out early to do some hunting in the local area and ended up bringing down one deer meaning that I would be fed well for several days now. I dragged it back to my little pango located inayofuata to a small pond and clearing that I've called nyumbani for many years now. I decided to get a little rest in the suns warmth but this only ended up with me just having the visions pay me another visit. I have learned to accept it and did my best to keep a visual note as to what they looked like considering it all passed kwa so fast.
During this particular time I found myself sitting beside another mbwa mwitu talking with them, however I couldn't hear any of the words being said. This mbwa mwitu came up a lot during these dreams, their fur, manyoya color was tan with brown eyes to match but I still didn't know whether they were male au female. There were times where things were friendly between us, but then there were times where we didn't get along. Maybe we were Marafiki but then had a falling out of sorts, the defiant answer was still not clear, and it may never be. These visions have only been happening for a week au so now and I'm still trying to make sense of it all. The tan mbwa mwitu wasn't the only mbwa mwitu I have seen frequently though, in fact there was a group of three which I found to be friendly and spent time with as well.
Of course the zaidi I would see the zaidi maswali I would get about why am I seeing these things and why do they feel like their something major and not just another dream. I ended up waking back up from my nap and found the sun still shining up above, it was afternoon and I had nothing else I needed to do. I stretched my body before getting off of the warm rock I slept on, it was times like this I would think of something to do other than sit around all day. Sometimes it could get pretty lonely here in between times of meeting other wolves, I know a few others that lived in the area but we never talked much. The ones I would end up talking to would be the ones just passing through between the packs of Mbwa mwitu loups that lived on either side of the mountain peaks. In all my years of living here I have never gone to visit either of the packs, I was doing fine out here for myself ever sense I left my parents at the age of one. I wondered if I would ever see them again, they lived several miles away as lone Mbwa mwitu loups as well.
But a lot of things can change in the three years sense I left them to go try my luck out here in the wild wilderness. I learned how to look after myself kwa hunting and building my strength so that I had the best chances of surviving in a fight. Fortunately I haven't found myself in a fight yet, there were times I would have to ask Mbwa mwitu loups to leave if they were near where I lived. But it never escalated to the point of physical conflict, and I was glad, I didn't see the need in fighting au even killing another wolf. I was the peaceful kind of mbwa mwitu rather than one that wanted to fight others as a good kind of challenge au entertainment.
I decided to go out and scout around the area to make sure my scent border was still strong and that no one has intruded it, as a lone mbwa mwitu I considered the area around my pango to be mine and I was sure to keep it that way. It wasn't a large area considering it's just for one mbwa mwitu but it was plenty large enough for me. So far things were fairly normal for a walk around the border until I caught the scent of an unknown wolf. It was pretty fresh leading me to believe that they had just passed kwa here, I decided to follow it considering it was going towards the pond inayofuata to my den. I had memorized the scents of the other lone Mbwa mwitu loups around these peaks but this one seemed foreign. I was hoping whoever this mbwa mwitu was they wouldn't be trying to steal the deer I had lying beside the pango and in plain view of the pond. It didn't take long to arrive back nyumbani but I stalked my way around to make sure the mbwa mwitu wouldn't hear me if they were still here. I hid behind a kichaka as I looked around it so see a mbwa mwitu drinking out of the pond in front of me, I watched them for a bit before deciding to go and confront them. I got up and silently walked up behind them and sat down a few feet away as they continued to drink. I didn't mind if they were only here to get some water, and it wouldn't be the first mbwa mwitu too but I always told them to leave and pointed them in the direction of a river about a mile away.
I cleared my throat before speaking "Hello, can I help you?" I greeted
The mbwa mwitu immediately spun around to face me surprised, I could sense they were afraid as they back away a little "Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't realize that wewe lived here" They replied with a voice indicating that she was a female.
"It's alright, your just here for water right?" I asked
"Yeah sorry, I'll just leave if wewe don't want me here" She alisema sounding disappointed
For some reason I felt like forgiving this wolf, it wasn't that it was because she was female but because she seemed nice and I could use a little company for the moment. "No you're fine, feel free to continue what wewe were doing" I said
She thanked me before lowering her head to drink some zaidi as I just looked around waiting for her to finish, her fur, manyoya color was a golden tan color with white underbelly. Her eyes were amber and she was fairly attractive although her fur, manyoya was a bit of a mess, but I wasn't trying to make a songesha on her kwa being kind. I've never been one to understand upendo so I've never been looking for it, and I'm okay with that. I was happy with living out my life alone if it ended up coming to that. She finished before sitting down and looking at me although it wasn't a normal stare, it was as if she recognized me in some way I didn't understand. She didn't look like someone I've met before so I decided to ignore it and ask what she was doing here.
"You new around here?" I asked while drawing circles in the soft dirt
"Yeah I'm just passing through" She answered
I nodded "I'm Humphrey" I alisema holding out my paw to shake
"Humphrey? wewe don't happen to come from a place called Jasper Park do you?" She asked sounding hopeful about it
"Um no I don't, I was raised a ways away with my parents but it wasn't a place called Jasper." I answered putting my paw back down
"Oh..." She alisema holding her head down in shame
I could tell something was wrong so I decided to ask her about it "You looking for someone?"
"Yeah, it's kind of a long story" She replied looking back at me
"Well your free to tell me if wewe like, besides I'm sure wewe need a place to stay for the night so your welcome to stay here if wewe wish." I said
Normally I was never this kind to strangers but I wanted to hear her out considering she's looking for a mbwa mwitu named Humphrey so it struck my curiosity. Besides she didn't look hostile and she appeared to be fairly worn out and tired so I wanted to be kind in giving her a secure place to rest for the night before she would continue on her journey.
"Oh that is very kind of wewe but I don't want to be a bother to you" She replied
"I insist, besides wewe must be hungry and tired from traveling" I said
"Thank wewe Humphrey, wewe are the nicest mbwa mwitu I've met out here so far." She alisema giving a smile "I'm Kate"
I smiled as well from her compliment "Nice to meet you, come I already got some chakula for wewe back in my den" I alisema before tuning and leading her the few yards to the den.
"Feel free to grab what wewe can eat, I'll be inside" I alisema pointing to the deer I had caught earlier that laid beside the entrance
She nodded her head and thanked me again as I retired into the dark but large open space that I've called my home, I sat at the back of the pango and waited for her to come and jiunge me. I was looking mbele to getting to talk with someone for once after a long week and a half of just being myself. A dakika later she walked into the pango with a chunk of the deer meat in her mouth, she sat across the way from me but was faced towards me.
"This is quite the nyumbani wewe got here" She admired looking around the room "You’re a lone mbwa mwitu right?"
"Sure am, have been for around three years now after I left my parents" I replied
"I see, aren't wewe going to eat too?" She asked
"Nah I'm fine right now, I might later though but don't let that stop wewe from eating." I alisema looking at her as she took a bite
"Aright, well since we're going to be here for a while why don't we get to know each other" She suggested
"Sounds good to me, wewe go first" I answered
"I'm Kate and I am an alpha that comes from Jasper Park, a place fairly far away from here, I like to do things adventurous but also help serve my pack." She said
"Very nice, I'm Humphrey and I have been a lone mbwa mwitu for all of my life since my parents were lone Mbwa mwitu loups themselves. I like to play games to keep myself occupied on juu of taking care of myself and this little place I call home." I alisema summing up who I was
"So you've never been a part of a pack?" She asked
"Not at all, I have an understanding of how their structure works but I haven't been the one who wants to be in the confines of a pack around other wolves." I replied
"I understand how wewe feel, it can get pretty hectic at times" She alisema after she finished eating "That was good, again thank you"
I smiled hearing how thankful she was for my act of kindness "You are welcome" I said
"I don't mean to be rude but why have wewe done this for me? I have met plenty of other lone Mbwa mwitu loups on my travels but none that allowed me to stay at their pango instead of me trying to find my own place." She asked looking at me after cleaning off her muzzle
"You seem like a kind wolf, and I like to have some company every now and then, I find it interesting meeting others that come from faraway places, I sometimes learn new things." I replied
She smiled and nodded her head happy with my answer, we sat quietly for a few dakika as the light outside slowly began to grow dim as the sun was beginning to set. I decided to get some chakula for myself seeing that we will most likely be sitting here and talking for the rest of the night. I still didn't know about this mbwa mwitu that she was looking for which held the same name as myself so I changed the subject to it.
"So, why exactly are wewe way out here and not back with your pack?" I asked
"It's a long story..." She alisema making it sound like it wasn't a happy one
"I'm all ears" I alisema looking at her but took bites of the chunk of deer I grabbed earlier
"Well it all started when I got back from alpha school..." She began
She told me about the course of events beginning with finding out that she held the responsibility of marrying a mbwa mwitu of another pack in order to unite them both. This was only the start of her problems, later on she got taken away and relocated to a place called Idaho alongside an omega from her pack. She alisema he was a good friend from her puppyhood days and that without his help she would have never made it back nyumbani on her own. I was really getting in to this story she was telling because it sounded like quite the journey for two wolves. She began to get feelings towards this mbwa mwitu and along the way nyumbani and they even howled together which sounded nice kwa the way she described it. However things went south once they arrived back home, she had failed to tell him about the arranged wedding simply because she thought he already knew. At the time she alisema she was so overwhelmed and confused kwa everything that she hadn't even stopped to think about her true feelings. She paid the price kwa losing the mbwa mwitu she truly cared about because he ran away to become a lone wolf, which explains why she's out here.
"... I was so close to sealing my fate with a mbwa mwitu I didn't upendo but I backed out while I still had the chance, everyone was confused but I announced that I didn't upendo Garth because I loved Humphrey. It was a major shock to everyone because an alpha couldn't upendo an omega but I didn't care. In fact it turned out while I was gone Garth and Lilly had fallen in upendo so they ended up uniting the pack through their marriage." She alisema as the pango grew dark to the point where I could barely see her.
"Wow..." Was all I could say from hearing what she has gone through in the course of a few weeks long zamani "So now you’ve been out here searching for this mbwa mwitu wewe love, even after three years?" I alisema seeing how it would make sense
"Yes, but it has been on and off though, I would spend a few months searching around and then head back nyumbani to Jasper to rest and stay in the loop with my family." She said
"Now that is some true upendo right there, I've never heard of a mbwa mwitu who would spend years to find the one they care about." I said
She smiled "I upendo him with all my moyo and still do, but the searching in its self has been pretty fun yet saddening. I've been to all kinds of places and met many faces but as each siku goes kwa I know that eventually I will just have to give up my search. Will I ever upendo another wolf? Probably not because I can only see myself with him, I just want to see him again and tell him how much I upendo him. I know he loves me back because I have noticed how he has always cared and looked after me during the course of our friendship." She alisema starting to get a little emotional talking about it.
"...and when I first saw wewe earlier today I thought I had finally found him because wewe look just like he did only wewe look larger in body size." She said
I grew confused kwa hearing this, so she is looking for a mbwa mwitu named Humphrey who also looks exactly like me, this seemed too strange to be true considering the chances of there being another mbwa mwitu like me in this world were very slim. But obviously there had to be because why else would she be here right now.
"Now that is strange" I alisema looking at her
"I know, and not to mention your voice is similar which now that I think about it, it has to be you..." She alisema suddenly looking up at me
I eyed her strangely "But I already told wewe I have never been to au heard of a place called Jasper, I've never been a part of a pack either." I said
"I don't understand... how can there be two Humphrey's on this world that speak and look exactly the same?" She alisema getting up and walking closer to me
The moon had begun to shine meaning we could both see each other fairly well now thanks to a skylight in my pango "I don't know either, but I don't see any way how I could be this wolf. I haven't even met wewe before in my life let alone develop feelings for you." I alisema looking back at her
She looked at me in a way that alisema she still was not satisfied, I had no idea what was happening now, in fact I was getting a little scared thinking that this mbwa mwitu was pulling some joke au act on me. She walked around me slowly, continuing to look at me from head to paw, I just sat still not knowing what to do other than figure out what the hell was happening.
"Where did wewe get that scar?" She asked stopping in front of me again to sit down.
"What scar?" I asked looking down at my sides to see what she was talking about
"The one on the back of your head, it looks like wewe got hit kwa something." She said
I then knew what she was talking about, and honestly I've had the scar for as long as I can remember and don't know how I got it.
"I don't remember, all I know is it hurt like hell after I got it" I said
"I think I know how..." She alisema knowing something I did not
At this point I just decided to go along with whatever it is she's doing "Alright, what makes wewe such the expert?" I said
"Well wewe see my mother is the healer of our pack and what I've heard from her is that if a mbwa mwitu lives through a serious impact to the head they can lose some of their memory." She alisema sounding calm about it.
"So you’re saying I have Lost some of my memory?" I said
"What I'm saying is wewe are the Humphrey I have been looking for these past three years but wewe just don't know it because you've somehow Lost your memory in between the time wewe left and now." She said
I began to back away slowly until I was against the ukuta of my pango as she continued to sit looking at me "No... No you're crazy!" I exclaimed not wanting to believe what she's telling me.
"I'm telling wewe Humphrey, what I speak is the truth and I know for a fact kwa looking at wewe that wewe are the mbwa mwitu that I grew up with and love." She alisema not backing down
"Okay why are wewe truly here, did one of the nearby packs send wewe here to mess with me, because I am going to make them regret that choice." I alisema getting tired of hearing this
"I told wewe why I am here, I'm not trying to hurt wewe au be mean, and in fact I'm trying to help wewe remember what you've lost." She argued
"I haven't Lost anything, I was raised kwa lone Mbwa mwitu loups and then moved away out here, that's it! So how can I remember that if I have Lost the memory of my past?" I alisema seeing a way through this.
"I never alisema a mbwa mwitu would lose all their memory from a head injury, sometimes they do but it's rare. And a mbwa mwitu that has Lost some of their memory can sometimes get some of it back over time. wewe were not born in my pack Humphrey, in fact your lone mbwa mwitu parents placed wewe in our pack so that wewe would stay safe. It seems that wewe have forgotten all your memories of being in Jasper." She said
It had become obvious that she knew what she was talking about, but I still didn't believe her, not that I should anyway. I think anyone would think someone was crazy if they suddenly started telling them about things that they don't remember. I thought about just asking her to leave and spare me all of the confusion and craziness but after arguing with her I've come to realize that she was a stubborn wolf, and wouldn't back down so easily.
I just let out a frustrated sigh "So what now?" I asked thinking she still had maswali to ask me.
"Well seeing that wewe think I'm crazy I'm just going to leave wewe to your thoughts and maybe... just maybe it will all suddenly click. Because I am out of options other than asking wewe to come back to Jasper with me." She said.
"How would that help?" I asked
"Well I have a theory, if I bring wewe nyumbani and wewe see and meet all the Mbwa mwitu loups wewe grew up with then wewe might suddenly realize all that wewe have lost." She said
My head was spinning at this point, do I trust this mbwa mwitu that says I have Lost my memory and let her take me to this place she says I've come from, au do I just ask her to leave in the morning? I didn't see what I had to lose kwa going and a change in scenery would be nice, besides if it turned out she had been wrong about me then I can just come back home. It was at this moment that I remembered about the visions I have been having these past few days, perhaps there was a connection going on here. Here I am having these dreams that feel very real and strangely familiar and then I just met this mbwa mwitu who says I have Lost my memory. What if this is true and these visions are really just the memory's I've Lost trying to work their way back into my head. Maybe I was just getting ahead of myself but it seemed to be a good possibility, all I really wanted was to get these damn visions to stop haunting me.
I decided to go along with her but as I looked back up to tell her that I would go she was gone, I looked around the pango to find her curled up on the ground. I had must of been thinking long enough to the point where she decided to just get some rest and hear my answer in the morning. She must be pretty frustrated like I am right now after the argument we had. I couldn't help but realize something as I looked at her sleeping, the moon was shining down on her which made her pelt shine beautifully, but that wasn't why I was looking at her. I slowly walked over to her and it was that moment something in my mind clicked, like I have seen this very image of this mbwa mwitu sleeping like this in the moonlight. I do recall of a particular dream where I wake up the mbwa mwitu I saw all the time in these visions. It was in a small room dark room too but the moon was shining down on them, much like how Kate looks right now, and as I look down upon her it finally hit me...
SHE was the mbwa mwitu from my visions! The fur, the eyes, everything about her matched this mbwa mwitu that plagued my mind for the past week.
"That's it!" I alisema louder than I should have which caused her to wake up
"What's it?" She asked opening her eyes to look up at me
"It's you, you're the mbwa mwitu I keep seeing in my dreams!" I alisema suddenly getting excited about it
"Dreams?" She asked sounding confused as to what I was going on about
I knew I had some explaining to do which normally would sound crazy to anyone but I think she would understand considering after all she has told me today. "For the past week au so I keep having these visions that look like normal dreams yet feel so real and familiar." I alisema sitting down in front of her.
"Most of them are with me and another mbwa mwitu that looks exactly like you, eyes and all, we seem friendly and most of the time it seems that we are traveling to somewhere..." I alisema continuing to describe to her what I have experienced and come to understand so far.
For some reason she just smiled after I finished speaking and sat up to face me better "I knew it was you" She alisema pulling me into a hug which I didn't expect, I didn't understand why she did this but I went along with it until we broke the embrace "and I can help make those visions make sense"
"How?" I asked
"Well seeing that I am the mbwa mwitu in these dreams of yours then I should know what you’re experiencing, and I already know the majibu because I was there with you." She replied
"Then explain why it looks like we are traveling to somewhere" I asked looking at her
I wanted majibu because as each dakika passed kwa I was starting to see how her memory loss theory and my visions were linked up meaning that what she has been telling me these past few hours are really the solid truth.
"That's easy, that was during our trip to Idaho and back" She answered
It all made sense now, I have been seeing all the memories of when I lived in Jasper Park, it was why I saw a pack of Mbwa mwitu loups and it was why I always saw Kate. I can see how the story she told me earlier fits in with what I've been seeing, it was like I had just opened my eyes to a whole new world. Things were coming back to me as a door opened in my head linking me to the past.
"You forgot to say that we had help from two birds on our way back home" I alisema with a smile after sitting quietly in my thoughts for the past several minutes
She laughed in response and smiled back "I'm glad to see wewe remember now" She said
"Well it's all mostly a blur still but I'm sure aliyopewa time I will start to understand it all, with your help of course." I said
"Are wewe saying wewe want to go back to Jasper with me?" She asked sounding hopeful
"Yes I am" I replied
I could sense that she was jumping with Glee on the inside now that she has finally found me after three years apart, but that left the obvious swali which was why she was here. If I'm the Humphrey she's looking for, which I know I am now, then that's means we upendo each other, right?
"So since I'm the Humphrey wewe have been looking for then that means... we're in upendo aren't we?" I asked not knowing how to feel right now
"I do upendo wewe Humphrey, I want to spend the rest of my life with wewe but I guess the real swali is do wewe still upendo me?" She alisema looking at me seriously.
I thought a dakika before answering the swali I'm sure she was dying for me to answer "Honestly I don't know..." I answered seeing her lower her head in shame "Obviously I loved wewe all those years zamani so I guess that means I can fall upendo wewe again right?"
"I hope so" She answered looking back up at me
I looked into her eyes and thought about everything that has changed in the past hours after we met, I had my whole perspective on my life flipped and thrown upside down and I still had maswali to ask about it. At least now I could rest easy again knowing the answer as to why I was getting these dreams. There were many things left to understand but now I know that I have Lost my memory and it was time to work on getting it back with some help from Kate. I thought about my feelings towards her and came up with an idea to see if I would in fact fall in upendo with her again.
"Tell wewe what, when we get back to the pack we can start seeing each other and we'll see how it goes from there." I alisema stating my idea
"You mean date?" She asked
"Yes" I answered
She giggled happily to herself before doing the unexpected, I felt her lips press against mine, feeling frozen on the spot from the sudden affection I let myself kiss her back. It lasted for a dakika and I savored it all, I could feel that we shared a connection between us only I have yet to find it myself. We pulled apart and sat a moment looking into each other’s eyes before she let out a yawn.
"We better get some sleep, it’s going to be a long walk home" She alisema laying back down where she sat earlier
"You don't want to stay here a siku au two and rest?" I asked, I didn't see a rush in heading straight to Jasper just yet.
"Oh that's fine, I just thought wewe would be in a rush to relearn what you've lost" She replied
"Not really, I'd rather let wewe rest seeing how wewe have been traveling a lot lately." I answered
"You're so sweet, good night Humphrey" She alisema smiling
"Good night Kate" I replied before lying down in my usual spot at the back of my den.
I closed my eyes and for once there was nothing, just black emptiness all around me which was a relief because maybe now I could get some nice uninterrupted sleep. I didn't know whether to be happy au what at this moment, so much had been told to me today that I think I'm just going to sit back at let things play out.
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Adjusting back to the pack life had been quite the learning experience for me, I've met all kinds of Mbwa mwitu loups all over again and I even recognized some of them. There was a little welcome party for me and Kate when we returned but she made sure that Winston, her father, addressed the pack of what my condition was mentally. Her mother examined the scar I had and gave a theory that I must had been hunting a deer au something and got kicked in the head. I myself have learned to never to get kicked kwa a large animal because it can be quite powerful which obviously I have experienced firsthand. Each siku I began to remember new things and if I had a swali I would ask Kate about it and she usually helped me out.
We had begun to tarehe just as I promised and so far I have been enjoying it, she's an amazing mbwa mwitu to be around and our new friendship has been getting stronger. I reunited with my old omega Marafiki who also appeared in my visions and at first it was weird talking to them again. But as we visited zaidi and zaidi I think wewe would say were back to the way we once were long ago. All I can say is that I have a lot on my plate right now with remembering the past but I know that one siku things will be like what they should be. Where I can remember everything like I had never gotten the injury in the first place, where I can live a good life and possibly have a mate and family. For now I will just live each siku one at a time trying to adjust from the life a lone mbwa mwitu and back to the life of a pack wolf.
THE END
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A/N: That’s a warp to a little story idea I got from a few months ago, and this turned out to be pretty challenging thanks to having to change the plot a few times. I hope wewe enjoyed this little story and feel free to leave a review on your thoughts about kusoma it. I will not be continuing this so please don’t go asking, however I already got yet another short story planned that will be longer. Cya later!
Fragments of a Lost Life – TheChriZ1995
I keep having these strange flashes in my dreams lately, visions that at first seem like only a normal dream but for some reason feel so familiar. I see myself living in the confines of a pack around other Mbwa mwitu loups that I do not recognize. It's making me confused, for as long as I can remember I have been a lone mbwa mwitu living here in the mountains, I have never been in a pack yet why am I having these visions? When I close my eyes I see all kinds of things like other wolves, landscapes, and even experiences of traveling a long distance with a particular wolf. Yet it's all a blur of mystery that makes no sense but feels as real as my memories of what happened yesterday. I feel like I'm being haunted, as if there's a point of time in my life that I have forgotten about, but how? How could I have forgotten something when there's no physical way I could have, I don't recall getting a bad injury involving brain damages. Perhaps this is just a phase and it will all just go away allowing me to go back to living my life like normal, for now I'm at the mercy of these visions and I'll just have to try and put the pieces together.
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Humphrey's POV
Today had been going pretty well for me so far, spring was in the air and with it brought relieving warmth after a long cold winter. I sometimes wondered why I decided to live in the mountains, it was much baridi being higher up however it's also a pretty secluded and salama place up here. I had gone out early to do some hunting in the local area and ended up bringing down one deer meaning that I would be fed well for several days now. I dragged it back to my little pango located inayofuata to a small pond and clearing that I've called nyumbani for many years now. I decided to get a little rest in the suns warmth but this only ended up with me just having the visions pay me another visit. I have learned to accept it and did my best to keep a visual note as to what they looked like considering it all passed kwa so fast.
During this particular time I found myself sitting beside another mbwa mwitu talking with them, however I couldn't hear any of the words being said. This mbwa mwitu came up a lot during these dreams, their fur, manyoya color was tan with brown eyes to match but I still didn't know whether they were male au female. There were times where things were friendly between us, but then there were times where we didn't get along. Maybe we were Marafiki but then had a falling out of sorts, the defiant answer was still not clear, and it may never be. These visions have only been happening for a week au so now and I'm still trying to make sense of it all. The tan mbwa mwitu wasn't the only mbwa mwitu I have seen frequently though, in fact there was a group of three which I found to be friendly and spent time with as well.
Of course the zaidi I would see the zaidi maswali I would get about why am I seeing these things and why do they feel like their something major and not just another dream. I ended up waking back up from my nap and found the sun still shining up above, it was afternoon and I had nothing else I needed to do. I stretched my body before getting off of the warm rock I slept on, it was times like this I would think of something to do other than sit around all day. Sometimes it could get pretty lonely here in between times of meeting other wolves, I know a few others that lived in the area but we never talked much. The ones I would end up talking to would be the ones just passing through between the packs of Mbwa mwitu loups that lived on either side of the mountain peaks. In all my years of living here I have never gone to visit either of the packs, I was doing fine out here for myself ever sense I left my parents at the age of one. I wondered if I would ever see them again, they lived several miles away as lone Mbwa mwitu loups as well.
But a lot of things can change in the three years sense I left them to go try my luck out here in the wild wilderness. I learned how to look after myself kwa hunting and building my strength so that I had the best chances of surviving in a fight. Fortunately I haven't found myself in a fight yet, there were times I would have to ask Mbwa mwitu loups to leave if they were near where I lived. But it never escalated to the point of physical conflict, and I was glad, I didn't see the need in fighting au even killing another wolf. I was the peaceful kind of mbwa mwitu rather than one that wanted to fight others as a good kind of challenge au entertainment.
I decided to go out and scout around the area to make sure my scent border was still strong and that no one has intruded it, as a lone mbwa mwitu I considered the area around my pango to be mine and I was sure to keep it that way. It wasn't a large area considering it's just for one mbwa mwitu but it was plenty large enough for me. So far things were fairly normal for a walk around the border until I caught the scent of an unknown wolf. It was pretty fresh leading me to believe that they had just passed kwa here, I decided to follow it considering it was going towards the pond inayofuata to my den. I had memorized the scents of the other lone Mbwa mwitu loups around these peaks but this one seemed foreign. I was hoping whoever this mbwa mwitu was they wouldn't be trying to steal the deer I had lying beside the pango and in plain view of the pond. It didn't take long to arrive back nyumbani but I stalked my way around to make sure the mbwa mwitu wouldn't hear me if they were still here. I hid behind a kichaka as I looked around it so see a mbwa mwitu drinking out of the pond in front of me, I watched them for a bit before deciding to go and confront them. I got up and silently walked up behind them and sat down a few feet away as they continued to drink. I didn't mind if they were only here to get some water, and it wouldn't be the first mbwa mwitu too but I always told them to leave and pointed them in the direction of a river about a mile away.
I cleared my throat before speaking "Hello, can I help you?" I greeted
The mbwa mwitu immediately spun around to face me surprised, I could sense they were afraid as they back away a little "Oh I'm so sorry, I didn't realize that wewe lived here" They replied with a voice indicating that she was a female.
"It's alright, your just here for water right?" I asked
"Yeah sorry, I'll just leave if wewe don't want me here" She alisema sounding disappointed
For some reason I felt like forgiving this wolf, it wasn't that it was because she was female but because she seemed nice and I could use a little company for the moment. "No you're fine, feel free to continue what wewe were doing" I said
She thanked me before lowering her head to drink some zaidi as I just looked around waiting for her to finish, her fur, manyoya color was a golden tan color with white underbelly. Her eyes were amber and she was fairly attractive although her fur, manyoya was a bit of a mess, but I wasn't trying to make a songesha on her kwa being kind. I've never been one to understand upendo so I've never been looking for it, and I'm okay with that. I was happy with living out my life alone if it ended up coming to that. She finished before sitting down and looking at me although it wasn't a normal stare, it was as if she recognized me in some way I didn't understand. She didn't look like someone I've met before so I decided to ignore it and ask what she was doing here.
"You new around here?" I asked while drawing circles in the soft dirt
"Yeah I'm just passing through" She answered
I nodded "I'm Humphrey" I alisema holding out my paw to shake
"Humphrey? wewe don't happen to come from a place called Jasper Park do you?" She asked sounding hopeful about it
"Um no I don't, I was raised a ways away with my parents but it wasn't a place called Jasper." I answered putting my paw back down
"Oh..." She alisema holding her head down in shame
I could tell something was wrong so I decided to ask her about it "You looking for someone?"
"Yeah, it's kind of a long story" She replied looking back at me
"Well your free to tell me if wewe like, besides I'm sure wewe need a place to stay for the night so your welcome to stay here if wewe wish." I said
Normally I was never this kind to strangers but I wanted to hear her out considering she's looking for a mbwa mwitu named Humphrey so it struck my curiosity. Besides she didn't look hostile and she appeared to be fairly worn out and tired so I wanted to be kind in giving her a secure place to rest for the night before she would continue on her journey.
"Oh that is very kind of wewe but I don't want to be a bother to you" She replied
"I insist, besides wewe must be hungry and tired from traveling" I said
"Thank wewe Humphrey, wewe are the nicest mbwa mwitu I've met out here so far." She alisema giving a smile "I'm Kate"
I smiled as well from her compliment "Nice to meet you, come I already got some chakula for wewe back in my den" I alisema before tuning and leading her the few yards to the den.
"Feel free to grab what wewe can eat, I'll be inside" I alisema pointing to the deer I had caught earlier that laid beside the entrance
She nodded her head and thanked me again as I retired into the dark but large open space that I've called my home, I sat at the back of the pango and waited for her to come and jiunge me. I was looking mbele to getting to talk with someone for once after a long week and a half of just being myself. A dakika later she walked into the pango with a chunk of the deer meat in her mouth, she sat across the way from me but was faced towards me.
"This is quite the nyumbani wewe got here" She admired looking around the room "You’re a lone mbwa mwitu right?"
"Sure am, have been for around three years now after I left my parents" I replied
"I see, aren't wewe going to eat too?" She asked
"Nah I'm fine right now, I might later though but don't let that stop wewe from eating." I alisema looking at her as she took a bite
"Aright, well since we're going to be here for a while why don't we get to know each other" She suggested
"Sounds good to me, wewe go first" I answered
"I'm Kate and I am an alpha that comes from Jasper Park, a place fairly far away from here, I like to do things adventurous but also help serve my pack." She said
"Very nice, I'm Humphrey and I have been a lone mbwa mwitu for all of my life since my parents were lone Mbwa mwitu loups themselves. I like to play games to keep myself occupied on juu of taking care of myself and this little place I call home." I alisema summing up who I was
"So you've never been a part of a pack?" She asked
"Not at all, I have an understanding of how their structure works but I haven't been the one who wants to be in the confines of a pack around other wolves." I replied
"I understand how wewe feel, it can get pretty hectic at times" She alisema after she finished eating "That was good, again thank you"
I smiled hearing how thankful she was for my act of kindness "You are welcome" I said
"I don't mean to be rude but why have wewe done this for me? I have met plenty of other lone Mbwa mwitu loups on my travels but none that allowed me to stay at their pango instead of me trying to find my own place." She asked looking at me after cleaning off her muzzle
"You seem like a kind wolf, and I like to have some company every now and then, I find it interesting meeting others that come from faraway places, I sometimes learn new things." I replied
She smiled and nodded her head happy with my answer, we sat quietly for a few dakika as the light outside slowly began to grow dim as the sun was beginning to set. I decided to get some chakula for myself seeing that we will most likely be sitting here and talking for the rest of the night. I still didn't know about this mbwa mwitu that she was looking for which held the same name as myself so I changed the subject to it.
"So, why exactly are wewe way out here and not back with your pack?" I asked
"It's a long story..." She alisema making it sound like it wasn't a happy one
"I'm all ears" I alisema looking at her but took bites of the chunk of deer I grabbed earlier
"Well it all started when I got back from alpha school..." She began
She told me about the course of events beginning with finding out that she held the responsibility of marrying a mbwa mwitu of another pack in order to unite them both. This was only the start of her problems, later on she got taken away and relocated to a place called Idaho alongside an omega from her pack. She alisema he was a good friend from her puppyhood days and that without his help she would have never made it back nyumbani on her own. I was really getting in to this story she was telling because it sounded like quite the journey for two wolves. She began to get feelings towards this mbwa mwitu and along the way nyumbani and they even howled together which sounded nice kwa the way she described it. However things went south once they arrived back home, she had failed to tell him about the arranged wedding simply because she thought he already knew. At the time she alisema she was so overwhelmed and confused kwa everything that she hadn't even stopped to think about her true feelings. She paid the price kwa losing the mbwa mwitu she truly cared about because he ran away to become a lone wolf, which explains why she's out here.
"... I was so close to sealing my fate with a mbwa mwitu I didn't upendo but I backed out while I still had the chance, everyone was confused but I announced that I didn't upendo Garth because I loved Humphrey. It was a major shock to everyone because an alpha couldn't upendo an omega but I didn't care. In fact it turned out while I was gone Garth and Lilly had fallen in upendo so they ended up uniting the pack through their marriage." She alisema as the pango grew dark to the point where I could barely see her.
"Wow..." Was all I could say from hearing what she has gone through in the course of a few weeks long zamani "So now you’ve been out here searching for this mbwa mwitu wewe love, even after three years?" I alisema seeing how it would make sense
"Yes, but it has been on and off though, I would spend a few months searching around and then head back nyumbani to Jasper to rest and stay in the loop with my family." She said
"Now that is some true upendo right there, I've never heard of a mbwa mwitu who would spend years to find the one they care about." I said
She smiled "I upendo him with all my moyo and still do, but the searching in its self has been pretty fun yet saddening. I've been to all kinds of places and met many faces but as each siku goes kwa I know that eventually I will just have to give up my search. Will I ever upendo another wolf? Probably not because I can only see myself with him, I just want to see him again and tell him how much I upendo him. I know he loves me back because I have noticed how he has always cared and looked after me during the course of our friendship." She alisema starting to get a little emotional talking about it.
"...and when I first saw wewe earlier today I thought I had finally found him because wewe look just like he did only wewe look larger in body size." She said
I grew confused kwa hearing this, so she is looking for a mbwa mwitu named Humphrey who also looks exactly like me, this seemed too strange to be true considering the chances of there being another mbwa mwitu like me in this world were very slim. But obviously there had to be because why else would she be here right now.
"Now that is strange" I alisema looking at her
"I know, and not to mention your voice is similar which now that I think about it, it has to be you..." She alisema suddenly looking up at me
I eyed her strangely "But I already told wewe I have never been to au heard of a place called Jasper, I've never been a part of a pack either." I said
"I don't understand... how can there be two Humphrey's on this world that speak and look exactly the same?" She alisema getting up and walking closer to me
The moon had begun to shine meaning we could both see each other fairly well now thanks to a skylight in my pango "I don't know either, but I don't see any way how I could be this wolf. I haven't even met wewe before in my life let alone develop feelings for you." I alisema looking back at her
She looked at me in a way that alisema she still was not satisfied, I had no idea what was happening now, in fact I was getting a little scared thinking that this mbwa mwitu was pulling some joke au act on me. She walked around me slowly, continuing to look at me from head to paw, I just sat still not knowing what to do other than figure out what the hell was happening.
"Where did wewe get that scar?" She asked stopping in front of me again to sit down.
"What scar?" I asked looking down at my sides to see what she was talking about
"The one on the back of your head, it looks like wewe got hit kwa something." She said
I then knew what she was talking about, and honestly I've had the scar for as long as I can remember and don't know how I got it.
"I don't remember, all I know is it hurt like hell after I got it" I said
"I think I know how..." She alisema knowing something I did not
At this point I just decided to go along with whatever it is she's doing "Alright, what makes wewe such the expert?" I said
"Well wewe see my mother is the healer of our pack and what I've heard from her is that if a mbwa mwitu lives through a serious impact to the head they can lose some of their memory." She alisema sounding calm about it.
"So you’re saying I have Lost some of my memory?" I said
"What I'm saying is wewe are the Humphrey I have been looking for these past three years but wewe just don't know it because you've somehow Lost your memory in between the time wewe left and now." She said
I began to back away slowly until I was against the ukuta of my pango as she continued to sit looking at me "No... No you're crazy!" I exclaimed not wanting to believe what she's telling me.
"I'm telling wewe Humphrey, what I speak is the truth and I know for a fact kwa looking at wewe that wewe are the mbwa mwitu that I grew up with and love." She alisema not backing down
"Okay why are wewe truly here, did one of the nearby packs send wewe here to mess with me, because I am going to make them regret that choice." I alisema getting tired of hearing this
"I told wewe why I am here, I'm not trying to hurt wewe au be mean, and in fact I'm trying to help wewe remember what you've lost." She argued
"I haven't Lost anything, I was raised kwa lone Mbwa mwitu loups and then moved away out here, that's it! So how can I remember that if I have Lost the memory of my past?" I alisema seeing a way through this.
"I never alisema a mbwa mwitu would lose all their memory from a head injury, sometimes they do but it's rare. And a mbwa mwitu that has Lost some of their memory can sometimes get some of it back over time. wewe were not born in my pack Humphrey, in fact your lone mbwa mwitu parents placed wewe in our pack so that wewe would stay safe. It seems that wewe have forgotten all your memories of being in Jasper." She said
It had become obvious that she knew what she was talking about, but I still didn't believe her, not that I should anyway. I think anyone would think someone was crazy if they suddenly started telling them about things that they don't remember. I thought about just asking her to leave and spare me all of the confusion and craziness but after arguing with her I've come to realize that she was a stubborn wolf, and wouldn't back down so easily.
I just let out a frustrated sigh "So what now?" I asked thinking she still had maswali to ask me.
"Well seeing that wewe think I'm crazy I'm just going to leave wewe to your thoughts and maybe... just maybe it will all suddenly click. Because I am out of options other than asking wewe to come back to Jasper with me." She said.
"How would that help?" I asked
"Well I have a theory, if I bring wewe nyumbani and wewe see and meet all the Mbwa mwitu loups wewe grew up with then wewe might suddenly realize all that wewe have lost." She said
My head was spinning at this point, do I trust this mbwa mwitu that says I have Lost my memory and let her take me to this place she says I've come from, au do I just ask her to leave in the morning? I didn't see what I had to lose kwa going and a change in scenery would be nice, besides if it turned out she had been wrong about me then I can just come back home. It was at this moment that I remembered about the visions I have been having these past few days, perhaps there was a connection going on here. Here I am having these dreams that feel very real and strangely familiar and then I just met this mbwa mwitu who says I have Lost my memory. What if this is true and these visions are really just the memory's I've Lost trying to work their way back into my head. Maybe I was just getting ahead of myself but it seemed to be a good possibility, all I really wanted was to get these damn visions to stop haunting me.
I decided to go along with her but as I looked back up to tell her that I would go she was gone, I looked around the pango to find her curled up on the ground. I had must of been thinking long enough to the point where she decided to just get some rest and hear my answer in the morning. She must be pretty frustrated like I am right now after the argument we had. I couldn't help but realize something as I looked at her sleeping, the moon was shining down on her which made her pelt shine beautifully, but that wasn't why I was looking at her. I slowly walked over to her and it was that moment something in my mind clicked, like I have seen this very image of this mbwa mwitu sleeping like this in the moonlight. I do recall of a particular dream where I wake up the mbwa mwitu I saw all the time in these visions. It was in a small room dark room too but the moon was shining down on them, much like how Kate looks right now, and as I look down upon her it finally hit me...
SHE was the mbwa mwitu from my visions! The fur, the eyes, everything about her matched this mbwa mwitu that plagued my mind for the past week.
"That's it!" I alisema louder than I should have which caused her to wake up
"What's it?" She asked opening her eyes to look up at me
"It's you, you're the mbwa mwitu I keep seeing in my dreams!" I alisema suddenly getting excited about it
"Dreams?" She asked sounding confused as to what I was going on about
I knew I had some explaining to do which normally would sound crazy to anyone but I think she would understand considering after all she has told me today. "For the past week au so I keep having these visions that look like normal dreams yet feel so real and familiar." I alisema sitting down in front of her.
"Most of them are with me and another mbwa mwitu that looks exactly like you, eyes and all, we seem friendly and most of the time it seems that we are traveling to somewhere..." I alisema continuing to describe to her what I have experienced and come to understand so far.
For some reason she just smiled after I finished speaking and sat up to face me better "I knew it was you" She alisema pulling me into a hug which I didn't expect, I didn't understand why she did this but I went along with it until we broke the embrace "and I can help make those visions make sense"
"How?" I asked
"Well seeing that I am the mbwa mwitu in these dreams of yours then I should know what you’re experiencing, and I already know the majibu because I was there with you." She replied
"Then explain why it looks like we are traveling to somewhere" I asked looking at her
I wanted majibu because as each dakika passed kwa I was starting to see how her memory loss theory and my visions were linked up meaning that what she has been telling me these past few hours are really the solid truth.
"That's easy, that was during our trip to Idaho and back" She answered
It all made sense now, I have been seeing all the memories of when I lived in Jasper Park, it was why I saw a pack of Mbwa mwitu loups and it was why I always saw Kate. I can see how the story she told me earlier fits in with what I've been seeing, it was like I had just opened my eyes to a whole new world. Things were coming back to me as a door opened in my head linking me to the past.
"You forgot to say that we had help from two birds on our way back home" I alisema with a smile after sitting quietly in my thoughts for the past several minutes
She laughed in response and smiled back "I'm glad to see wewe remember now" She said
"Well it's all mostly a blur still but I'm sure aliyopewa time I will start to understand it all, with your help of course." I said
"Are wewe saying wewe want to go back to Jasper with me?" She asked sounding hopeful
"Yes I am" I replied
I could sense that she was jumping with Glee on the inside now that she has finally found me after three years apart, but that left the obvious swali which was why she was here. If I'm the Humphrey she's looking for, which I know I am now, then that's means we upendo each other, right?
"So since I'm the Humphrey wewe have been looking for then that means... we're in upendo aren't we?" I asked not knowing how to feel right now
"I do upendo wewe Humphrey, I want to spend the rest of my life with wewe but I guess the real swali is do wewe still upendo me?" She alisema looking at me seriously.
I thought a dakika before answering the swali I'm sure she was dying for me to answer "Honestly I don't know..." I answered seeing her lower her head in shame "Obviously I loved wewe all those years zamani so I guess that means I can fall upendo wewe again right?"
"I hope so" She answered looking back up at me
I looked into her eyes and thought about everything that has changed in the past hours after we met, I had my whole perspective on my life flipped and thrown upside down and I still had maswali to ask about it. At least now I could rest easy again knowing the answer as to why I was getting these dreams. There were many things left to understand but now I know that I have Lost my memory and it was time to work on getting it back with some help from Kate. I thought about my feelings towards her and came up with an idea to see if I would in fact fall in upendo with her again.
"Tell wewe what, when we get back to the pack we can start seeing each other and we'll see how it goes from there." I alisema stating my idea
"You mean date?" She asked
"Yes" I answered
She giggled happily to herself before doing the unexpected, I felt her lips press against mine, feeling frozen on the spot from the sudden affection I let myself kiss her back. It lasted for a dakika and I savored it all, I could feel that we shared a connection between us only I have yet to find it myself. We pulled apart and sat a moment looking into each other’s eyes before she let out a yawn.
"We better get some sleep, it’s going to be a long walk home" She alisema laying back down where she sat earlier
"You don't want to stay here a siku au two and rest?" I asked, I didn't see a rush in heading straight to Jasper just yet.
"Oh that's fine, I just thought wewe would be in a rush to relearn what you've lost" She replied
"Not really, I'd rather let wewe rest seeing how wewe have been traveling a lot lately." I answered
"You're so sweet, good night Humphrey" She alisema smiling
"Good night Kate" I replied before lying down in my usual spot at the back of my den.
I closed my eyes and for once there was nothing, just black emptiness all around me which was a relief because maybe now I could get some nice uninterrupted sleep. I didn't know whether to be happy au what at this moment, so much had been told to me today that I think I'm just going to sit back at let things play out.
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Adjusting back to the pack life had been quite the learning experience for me, I've met all kinds of Mbwa mwitu loups all over again and I even recognized some of them. There was a little welcome party for me and Kate when we returned but she made sure that Winston, her father, addressed the pack of what my condition was mentally. Her mother examined the scar I had and gave a theory that I must had been hunting a deer au something and got kicked in the head. I myself have learned to never to get kicked kwa a large animal because it can be quite powerful which obviously I have experienced firsthand. Each siku I began to remember new things and if I had a swali I would ask Kate about it and she usually helped me out.
We had begun to tarehe just as I promised and so far I have been enjoying it, she's an amazing mbwa mwitu to be around and our new friendship has been getting stronger. I reunited with my old omega Marafiki who also appeared in my visions and at first it was weird talking to them again. But as we visited zaidi and zaidi I think wewe would say were back to the way we once were long ago. All I can say is that I have a lot on my plate right now with remembering the past but I know that one siku things will be like what they should be. Where I can remember everything like I had never gotten the injury in the first place, where I can live a good life and possibly have a mate and family. For now I will just live each siku one at a time trying to adjust from the life a lone mbwa mwitu and back to the life of a pack wolf.
THE END
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A/N: That’s a warp to a little story idea I got from a few months ago, and this turned out to be pretty challenging thanks to having to change the plot a few times. I hope wewe enjoyed this little story and feel free to leave a review on your thoughts about kusoma it. I will not be continuing this so please don’t go asking, however I already got yet another short story planned that will be longer. Cya later!
