Inside the darkness of my tortured mind
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living kwa the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my uchungu, chungu existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
I see a lifelless body
Covered with blood
As I run to hold it tight
I see myself
As tears run over my cheeks
And while the whole body is trembling
My mind is looking for a justification
In loathing and despite:
Oh, what did I achieve,
What have I become?
Living kwa the someone elses rules
Deprived of my one desires,
Just a shadow in this world
Where its beauty has never been shown
To my sad eyes.
But, is this the only exit of my uchungu, chungu existence,
Is this the way to end this resident pain?
And in the darkness of my mind
Tears run over my cheeks
Asking why,
Why rain never stops,
Why sun never shines
In my eyes,
Deadness is sleeping in its depravity
And I know that I don't belong
To this world,
I'm living in my own,
Living on my own.
if the upendo of your life died,
what would wewe do if they died a terrible death,
would wewe get revenge,
would wewe hate everyone,
would wewe become a murderer in return,
would wewe cry your life away,
au would wewe take your life away?
What would wewe do,
if your best friend committed suicide,
what would wewe do if they died terribly,
would wewe laugh because no tears will come,
would wewe cry until it is all over,
would wewe do the same,
would wewe run away,
au would wewe just throw it all away?
What would wewe do,
if wewe were hit kwa a car,
what would wewe do if wewe were dying,
would wewe feel sorry for yourself,
would wewe cry until the end,
would wewe remember everything wewe have ever done,
would wewe call your mom,
au would wewe hate the person until your life has gone away?
What would wewe do,
when everything ends for wewe au a friend?
What would wewe do?
Here is another poem. It is a bit dark but the truth is always darker than it seems.
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My moyo is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen kwa the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am Lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to kumeza me forever
Isolated,
I am isolated,
I isolate myself from the people who might care about me...
Watching,
They watch me but are blind,
Blind to the emotions that are always rinning through my mind while they just stare...
Broken,
My moyo is broken,
The cracks run deep and I know will never be filled...
Unseen,
I feel unseen,
Unseen kwa the ones who walk the halls and just look right through me...
Tears,
They never want to stop,
The tears stream down my face until the burn my cheeks...
Darkness,
I am Lost in a sea of black,
The waves crash around me and threaten to kumeza me forever
There are times when our loss makes us to feel happy
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if moyo is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with upendo that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
When in a problem one small support makes us to feel lucky
Times when we are crying one word makes us to laugh
Even if moyo is all ours they live in half
Making fun even if we don’t like is their habit
On our single smile in sadness they jump and run like rabbit
Don’t recall the past, don’t worry about future
They teach us like experienced tutor
They are my dearest friends
Who live with me with upendo that never ends
No end, everyday is a new start
There is no way we can be apart
Dedicated to a friend of mine, may he and his family and everyone who knew him know that he now is with God
____________________________________________________
Only knew wewe for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
wewe always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
wewe always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
wewe just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew wewe would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
wewe and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
wewe ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never alisema goodbye
I wish i could of alisema goodbye
For wewe are here
No more
__________________________________________________
In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss wewe and wewe will never be forgotten
____________________________________________________
Only knew wewe for a few years
Cause of Dad's new job
wewe always were my favorite
One of them to talk to
wewe always smiled
And never thought a bad thing
Even when your son was messing up
wewe just laughed and helped him
And always forgave
No one knew wewe would leave us
On that cold winter day
Now i cant rember your name without crying
We never were close
Yet we had so much in common
No one needed to know us
wewe and I were fine
I knew it wasnt a cold
It was always something more
wewe ignored it all
And went on with your life
I wanted to say something
And i never alisema goodbye
I wish i could of alisema goodbye
For wewe are here
No more
__________________________________________________
In memory of a friend who didnt deserve to die, we all miss wewe and wewe will never be forgotten