Vent. Just go ahead and Vent.

Ok, I'll vent.

If wewe knew me in real life, I'm a withdrawn/shy/quiet person. I'm that person who sits quietly in class while everyone else is having a swell time chatting away, and laughing with each other. I don't mind if people swali my quiet nature. But I do mind when people, especially the loud fools that can't shut up, pick on me because of my quiet nature instead of initiating a conversation with me. Those fucking brutes. Maybe I would be zaidi talkative if they initiated a conversation, but no...they decided to dehumanize, and antagonize me. Those people are the fucking reason why I'm a quiet person. I wanted fucking talk to you, but wewe just scoff and ignore me. Well, fine. wewe have just Lost the chance of befriending an amazing person, because there won't be a inayofuata time.

Okay.

Here it goes...


I'm tired of my school. The kids. They are horrible. The maarufu people make fun of EVERYONE who isn't as maarufu as them.

The only reason they are maarufu is because people are afraid not to be nice to them.

I was sitting in class, not saying anything to anyone, minding my own business and this guy just walks kwa me and starts making fun of me to his friends. I mean, really? WTF did I do?

Then we had to have these groups for this project and this other guy (who is popular) was in my group with some of my friends, and he alisema "Ugh. Looks like I got the bad group..."

-___-

Then my school is so racist. My school is basically all white. I'm white, but I feel offended for other people.

People write "DIE **insert N-word here*! GO BACK nyumbani SLAVES" on the bathroom wall.

And there is stuff like that EVERYWHERE in the school, yet the teachers do nothing about it. Why? Because there are two teachers in the entire school who aren't white.

Then we have a seating chart and someone scratched out my Marafiki name (who is Black) and wrote "Gary Coleman", then over my name "Snooki" then above it wrote "GO BACK TO JERSEY SHORE" because I'm Italian.

And no one understands why I hate school...

*pouts*

I want my Xbox back.
Do wewe know that, that son of a piece of sh** is broken?
F*cking red rings of death.
Now, I got to send that b*tch in because there is no other way to fix it.
100 smakaroos, because my warranty expired.
Ain't that some hog head sh*t?
Am I made of money?
I have needs to take care of and I don't have any support from 'adults' so I gotta do this sh*t on my own.
Cock wipers :(
I want my damn xbox.
I miss xbox live and playing gta and laughing at the dumb remarks people say on there.
I miss my Marafiki playing with me and targeting me because I'm the only girl they play with.
I want my sh*t back.
And my mp3 player.
That shit broke too but that was my fault.
Threw it at a radiator...

My family are so... I don't even know! I can't decide whether they want to tear each other au me apart! I want to upendo them, but... GYUYYAAAA!!!

Im seriously not liking (dont wanna say hate) my fcuking mother right now!! She acts as if i have to be perfect in EVERYTHING! When i do anything bad au wrong, she overreacts! I got in a fight and swore at a girl that pushed me down, and of course she gives me a choice of youth court au a fucking behavioral hospital!!! If I make anything below an 90 in school au forget to turn in something, she'll smack me in the face! And everytime im mad and she tries to 'talk' about it, the first thing she says is, " are wewe mad at your dad?" ( my mom has been divorced alot) apparently she doesnt get that im mad at HER. im mad at HER because she keeps finding abusive/mean/computer-addict husbands and getting divorces after she thinks hes 'the perfect one'. Im mad at HER for not letting me songesha in with my grandparents, eventhough i would be much happier with them. Im mad at HER because she calls me a suicidal freak because i cut myself. I HATE HER! i would write much more, but i dont feel like rambling... If wewe want to hear the rest (dont know why youd want to) inbx me i guess...

Vent? I could use a nice long rant about my personal life. And I figure, I don't actually know anyone on here, so I'll just spill my guts. No response required.

Here goes. *deep breath*

Yesterday afternoon was a lovely day, 70 degrees, yeah? So my friend and I, one I happen to have a crush on, were at a local state park, eating ice cream and "awww!"ing at mtoto wa mbwa and walking beside the river. And it was kinda like a boy meets girl story, except with two girls, and we ended up holding hands as we walked. Lovely, yeah?

No. Because then some homophobic asshole of a mother literally shielded her child from us when we walked past her. She took one look at us and her smile faltered and her eyes narrowed and she looked at us with pure hate. She didn't say anything to us, but her expression was enough. She positioned herself between us and her son, and the kid... Christ. He looked up at her with these big brown eyes, the perfect picture of innocence. He was questioning her without words; I guess he sensed something was wrong. And so this girl and I... We heard the mother telling her son about how he has to stay away from "people like them." That kid is going to grow up and hate gays, the product of a homophobic family. I wanted to turn around and scream at that woman, but the girl I was with tugged me along and told me to leave it. And so I did, because she didn't want a scene.

Part two of the story. To make it worse, she decided to stay Marafiki with me (rather than taking a step further) because she doesn't want anything like that to happen again. She's bi though, I suppose she'll be okay. So what I did last night? Came home, took a nice hot shower, and came out of alisema kuoga with a shiny new cut on my wrist. But it made me feel a little better.

So my venting? It's about homophobes. The idiotic ignorant assholes who can't see past sexual orientation.

I. Fucking. Hate. Them.

-Not long ago, a small lady came to our house late at night, covered in blood, insisting that her husband who she had known since 3rd grade had beaten her, and he was know asleep. They lived just down the road. She wanted us to take her to a nearby town. She was rambling and looking back the whole way there. She couldn't make up her mind whether she wanted us to take her to her ex-husband's house au the police department. I was terrified, and I could tell my mom was too. I still wonder what happened to her after we dropped her off at her ex's house.

-I want to make my life better, I just don't know how. I don't neccesarily know what's actually wrong with it.

-Yes, Dad, I ate the donut. (That sounded stupid, I know, but It's been bothering me, seriously.)

-I'm way to good at lying to be comfortable with.

There's this girl that is horrible and troubling. I don't want to say her name, so I'll just call her Cube for now.
Cube is a nice girl who has gotten awards from the principal for being nice and has good grades and friends. She isn't so peachy, though. She teases everyone whom she thinks is weird, and always gets away with it.
What has she done to me? Last year, I was new to my school, and she told all of her Marafiki (she has plenty) to act as if her name is another (let's say Brick for now). So she made them make me belive that her name was Brick instead of cube. I didn't know that her name was Cube until my friend told me. She also told me the reason that Cube was doing this to me. What was it? It was because I was new at the school, AND BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT I WAS CREEPY. She had also tried to be my 'friend' (I could tell she was lying), but I refused.
This year, I was talking to my friend (a different one) at her locker before homeroom. Cube's locker is right inayofuata to hers. Cube reached to get her in the books, and I accidentaly hit her in the head. Apparently, the word 'accident' isn't in her dictionary. She had looked at me nastily and even growled at me when she saw me. She even tried to elbow me in the stomach, but luckily, I jumped in the other direction.
Thankfully, I don't see her that much because she's in none of my classes exept for my band class. She plays the flute and I play percussion, so we keep a good distance away from eachother. I told my mom about Cube, and I'm waiting a little while to tell a teacher because she's so 'perfect'. But just because I took action, it doesn't mean that I'm not intimidated kwa her anymore.

My mother is such an aggravation right now. She can't get a fucking clue. EVERY siku I hear her bitch, kahaba about me, what I do, au something in general. Every. Fucking. Day. I can not stand her. I wish she'd just get locked in a mental asylum for the rest of my life so I can finally find something enjoyable about living for once.

She never realizes that her own bullshit is the problem. It's always someone else au something else, she's always the victim. And she makes it seem like I'm the one who acts like that.

At least I can see my own flaws, she can't see shit about her au anything unless it bites her in the punda (surprisingly she can realize it at all).

I can't wait until I'm eighteen so I can finally get fucking rid of her and songesha to Oregon au somewhere :/

Vent

I hate my dad! Ugh I can't stand Him!! wewe know what he alisema to me today?
"Shut up, Because everything wewe say is bad.."
wewe Know How bad he is??? When i was 6 years Old. I was doing my Abc! I was sing them doing my homework. And my little sister was sing too. He thought i was try to sing over her and he hit him. I Had this very Big Mark on my arm! Can wewe belive that???? 6 years old. I was Alway not his favortie.... My little sister all way protecting me from him. Because He only listens to her! Her! That is so Sad.... My little 8 mwaka old sister having to protect me. He is not in the house right Now. I realiy really hate him. i am all ways yell and fighting with him. I was one the computer with my sister and he wanted it. I was like " I was here first, wewe spend Hours on it every day.." And My Little sister alisema " We are trying to wacth some videos. Now go away!" And He Got him finer Put it on her head and push it and made her head go back and she started crying.. Later i telled my Mom. And Boy she was Pissed. They were yelling and all i did was Smile. Serveds him right. As wewe see i really hate him...

Ok, so there's this girl in my school, Kay, who's also in my band, and this girl is driving me insane! She's such a b****!

Freshman mwaka at band camp, she aliiba from half the kids in my cabin, including my best friend. And we knew it was her, because we ended up looking through her bag and found all of our missing stuff together at the bottom!

Then she was in our cabin, kibanda again this mwaka because our band instructor wouldn't believe that she aliiba our stuff the awali year. So on Wednesday, all of the flutes were going to wear our flute bows, but mine and my best friend's just happened to go missing that day, and then magically we both found them in our suitcases Thursday! I wonder why.

So then the worst was Thursday night. She had been going on all siku talking to us about how she can't stand all of these other kids who are our friends, and going on about how awful her life is, and she's one of those spoiled rich kids who complain about every little thing. Well, news flash, you're not the only one with problems! Other people have to put up with much worse things than you! When I told her that, she just scoffed at me. But that wasn't the worst part that night. She went on to complain about band camp, and alisema "Well, since I couldn't have a good time in band camp my freshman year, I'm going to make sure that no one else does!" I mean, seriously, who's actually says that? All she cares about is herself!

Oh, and even better, she considers us friends, cuz I'm too d***ed nice to tell her off. So, some of the band kids that are really close Marafiki hump eachother for good luck before competitions, and on Wednesday at band camp. I'm not a big shabiki of that, and people know me well enough so they usually leave me out of it. But she stands behind me in opening set in our show, and one bila mpangilio practice, Kay decided to frickin hump me! There's seriously something wrong with her, why would she do that?! And she was just standing behind me laughing her head off like we were best Marafiki and it was no big deal.

Well, maybe it WAS a big deal for me, maybe I have a reason for not liking being touched. I have torrettes, and any kind of touch sets it off, and maybe it was gettin better for the last two years, and that set it off again! I don't know exactly how torrettes work, it's different for different people, but for me one thing that makes it worse is when anyone touches me, and when I get really mad. And when she did that and my torrettes got really bad, it was like there was a barrier holding it back, and it shattered then. I couldn't even play my flute the rest of the rehearsal, I was shaking so badly! And it STILL hasn't gotten better! I can't even come on fanpop for zaidi than 15 dakika without it getting bad now! It's driving me crazy!

Ok, done.

Ok.I'll vent.

*ahem*

wewe can't take it anymore?
Y-You can't take it anymore??
I'm the one who went a week without sleep because I had to watch hours of lame camera footage,of wewe kusoma inappropriate magazines from 60 different camera angles!
I'M the one,who has to find a killer from 6 BILLION PEOPLE IN THE WORLD.
I'M THE ONE,who has to sit in this same outfit everyday of my life and never clean it,because there are too many people LIKE YOU,WHO WANT TO BREAK THE LAW!!!
SO DON'T GO TELLING ME, THAT wewe CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE ASHTON KUTCHER!!!>:(

okay
here it goes
tearfully looks around*
blows nose*
-- my old step dad, whom my mom left years and years ago, had a sick, sexual fascination with me. he never touched me, but he did attempt to rape me when i was 12. i ran though. i ran with all my might. i told my mom, and she personally alisema to him that she would kill him if she heard of him trying anything else. thats about as much closure as i got in that situation. and i feel like i needed more, because i think of that moment almost everyday.. and it didnt help, that he use to sneak into my room and watch me sleep at night(beyond creepy). he's gone now though.and i hate him so much... i remember a time when i was like 7 and he hit me because he was drunk and i did something to piss him off. i just think i need zaidi closure. but he's in jail now. and my mom has married a new guy.

--i have this amazing girlfriend. she's beautiful and kind, the whole package. we've been dating for a mwezi and some now. and i think she is already cheating on me. i thought everything was going great. i was trying to be the best girlfriend possible. then i notice she is becoming a bit zaidi detached. she doesnt spend as much time with me. she doesnt want to kiss me anymore, and then i hear around, that she is spending a lot of time with another girl when she's not with me. now i just dont know what to believe.
so.. DOne*

Excuse me? Vent? *slaps with purse*

Alright. *lets out a looooooooooooooooooong nasty fart*

vent well ok 3 things 1 is that so one days my mom was in the kuoga someone texted her so i checked it and it was a guy so his dick then i looked back and they started to do it both and one alisema last night was great i mean she is freaking married to my dad whom i dont like but still they are married

2 is that there is this girl who is maarufu but not really i mean everybody hates her but is nice to her face i mean they say she is a dead cow a bitch, kahaba and many others so she thinks she is so maarufu and i am kinda anti social but i have a lot of Marafiki who i have a lot in common with and she has the nerve to say i have only 1 and a half Marafiki and i have like 10 to 15 she only has 2 real Marafiki and then like 5 to 10 who actully worship her and she has the nerve to do that might i mention i am way stronger than her she is a tooth pick

finally that person had a friend lets call her #1 well i was talking to my friend who we will call talkative well i alisema that girl is is being bitchy today meaning the whinig bitching and so #1 was listening in and so she heard me and told that girl lets call her annoying and so that causes an even bigger fight between annoying and me so she went from ignoring me to talking bullshit about me and comfronting me infront of every one and almost makes me cry cause i told her personal things when we were very best Marafiki and so i told her about my life my crushes everything and so she tell every in 4 and 5 and 3 and 8 and every other one of my classes and every one listens to her whether they want to au not cause they dont want to upset her and she tells them to start spreading rumors about me cause she knows i will tell and so she will be *innocent*

THANK THE EFFING LORD SOMEONE MADE THIS swali AND I FOUND IT! I am SO mad right now, and I really need to let off some steam.
Rant time!

Okay, so long long zamani in a land called Georgia I met a girl named [I'mma use code names] Friend M [Yes, I am so creative]. She was my best friend! inayofuata mwaka came along and she stopped being Marafiki with me for no reason for two months. After, she begged me to be Marafiki with her again, and I obliged. We were friends, then our class took a trip to Washington, D.C.
In D.C. Friend M was dating a guy friend of mine, Friend JN. My other friend, Friend JO, told M to dump JN. So, to keep the trip drama-free, friend M dumped him. After, JO was like, "OMG POOR JN! wewe RUINED HIS ENTIRE TRIP!" So, to keep it drama-free, M dated him again. Then the same thing repeated.
All was fine the first night, but the sekunde night we went to Hard Rock cafe, and M and JN were about to get back together, so I texted JO and told her that they were probably gonna get back together and then my other friend, Friend D, went spazzy and freaked out on us. We got into a fight, and our room mom calmed us down and all was fine.
Friend JO was only uigizaji friendly to us in the room, so friend D told her off and told her that if she was gonna act like we're BFF's in the room then she better act like it out of it. Everyone except me started screaming at each other, and the teachers ended up getting involved. Everything ended up okay after Washington was over.
inayofuata mwaka came around and all was well until the Homecoming football game. Friend E, another person I know, spazzed out on D, making D get extremely pissed off. There's an outdoor hall at my school called the breezeway and my crush was there, Crush S, and his friend, Friend C, they could see I was pissed off so they were asking me what was up. I made M go calm D down while I attempted to tell S and C what happened. After, S hugged me and it was like a movie(:
The night ended unresolved.
The inayofuata game was the last game and it was an away game, S and I got extremely close that night, we were along a lot and then D ruined it kwa telling me something false that S alisema about me. I confronted him, and he told me it was all false. I almost started crying and he held me (: again - JUST LIKE THE EFFING MOVIES.
But anyways, I spazzed out on D and screamed at her.
Again, the night ended unresolved as I left with M and was too pissed off to go home, so I went nyumbani with M and stayed there for two nights.
The inayofuata thing that happened was at the beginning of 2011, M stopped talking to me randomly and that was basically all that happened.
Two weeks ago, D spazzed out and told S that I liked him. For a few days we didn't talk, but then I wished at 11:11 for us to be friends, and the inayofuata day, we were. Which utterly CONFUSED me. XD
Yesterday, M told me she wanted to be Marafiki again. We talked and had a good time like we used to.
Today, D lied to M about something I said

I just needed something like this! Thank you!

OK, so lately my life has just been so stressful... I've been sick for six weeks. Six freaking weeks! I just can't stand it! I've almost fainted a few times, I'm up until the early hours of the morning cough the heck out of myself, constant headaches, watery eyes, my nose is pretty much a new waterfall, and a whole lot more... >.< And to juu it all off whenever I go to have a kuoga to clear my sinuses and help soothe my head, wanna know what happens? The kuoga breaks! And I can't use the tub cause the water is always negative three-thousand degrees! I'm not ready to die thank wewe very much! So anyway, later in the week one of my mom's best Marafiki has her first baby, and I'm not allowed to go in because of it. But my mom is just a little less sick than I am, and she HOLDS the baby! I MEAN COME ONE! WHAT THE HECK?! So anyway, today at lunchtime my brother was trying to sneak some cereal, but I had caught him, and taken it from his hand. He tried to take it back but I grabbed his hand and told him to have a real lunch. Wanna know what he decides to do? He decides it'd be a good idea if he kicked me in the ribs, ngumi, punch me a couple times in various places, and kick me in other places. I had trouble breathing because of that... The idiot! And I'M the one that gets yelled at! NOT HIM!!! I MEAN COME ON!!!!