Huh. I guess I didn't keep my promise. I alisema that I would leave wewe all alone, but I have something to say. This is on behalf of all the TDI-Fanpoppers who felt as I did. No, this is not TDI-related. Is there a problem? It's what I think. wewe deal with it.

Superficially,

I tend to be selfish at times. I want things I probably don’t need. I say things that nobody deserves to hear. My thoughts ... aren’t always pleasant. I like it when people give me things and I like praise. I like hearing that I’ve done a good job no matter what it is. I subtly take advantage of people.

I say bad things about people I do not know. I say to myself that isn’t right, but hey, I’m not hurting anyone. I don’t do what I’m told. I like saying no. I like feeling powerful.



But on the inside?

I’m gullible. I wish for things that everyone wishes for too. I say things that make people feel beautiful because its true. My thoughts put everyone on a level higher than me. I feel bad taking things that people give me and know deep inside that I don’t deserve the praise I hear. I wish I could take advantage of people, but they usually beat me to it.

I only talk about people I don’t know because I wish I knew them. I stick to the rules way too much. Power is something far beyond my reach.



But sometimes...

I’m with my Marafiki and I laugh so hard I think that forever is possible.

I talk to him and he tells me that he dreams of me.

There’s no reason to say no because everything is too wonderful.

I lie on my kitanda and feel excited for tomorrow.

I smile as I walk down the sidewalk. Sometimes people smile with me too.

I know I’ll make it somehow.

I know I’ll grow up and make my dreams come true.

I know I’ll remember everyone I’ve ever met.

I know I’ll be everything I ever wanted to be.

I know because there’s no price to wishing for happiness, dreaming about forever, and falling in love.


Because I have a life, and I’m going to live it.