I look back on all those memories,
and wonder, what did this all mean to me?
i new there where feelings,
i loved you!
i loved you!
i cant deny that i didn't,
but now i think back and once again wonder,
what is it that i fell for,
your controlling,
your exhausting,
i cant trust you,
i cant be around my own friends,
guys au girls,
wewe just don't let,
Ive finally come to realize,
that none of this is my fault,
it wasn't me who tore the hearts,
it was you,
your ripped,
wewe tore,
wewe broke,
wewe yelled,
and wewe screamed,
wewe caused me all of this misery,
wewe brought these scars upon my wrists,
and wewe punched the hole in my heart,
i blamed myself,
out of my own stupidity,
i hate you!
i hate you!
this is what wewe did to me!
take a look at that picture!
and look at it closely!
fucking look at it!
i carved my upendo for you,
i carved it into my arm,
so that everyone can see,
that these are the things wewe did to me,
don't listen to his bullshit,
as its waste of time,
don't waste your life in love,
cause all it does is tear wewe apart,
upendo is just an excuse to die,
because once wewe play the cards of love,
your moyo breaks and turns stone cold,
then you'll end up walkin' the death road,
i dug my grave,
so i'll fucking die in it,
thankyou verry much,
cause this is what youve done,
so here i go,
never to be seen again,
fuck you,
i really hate you,
these are my last words,
I LOVED YOU
and wonder, what did this all mean to me?
i new there where feelings,
i loved you!
i loved you!
i cant deny that i didn't,
but now i think back and once again wonder,
what is it that i fell for,
your controlling,
your exhausting,
i cant trust you,
i cant be around my own friends,
guys au girls,
wewe just don't let,
Ive finally come to realize,
that none of this is my fault,
it wasn't me who tore the hearts,
it was you,
your ripped,
wewe tore,
wewe broke,
wewe yelled,
and wewe screamed,
wewe caused me all of this misery,
wewe brought these scars upon my wrists,
and wewe punched the hole in my heart,
i blamed myself,
out of my own stupidity,
i hate you!
i hate you!
this is what wewe did to me!
take a look at that picture!
and look at it closely!
fucking look at it!
i carved my upendo for you,
i carved it into my arm,
so that everyone can see,
that these are the things wewe did to me,
don't listen to his bullshit,
as its waste of time,
don't waste your life in love,
cause all it does is tear wewe apart,
upendo is just an excuse to die,
because once wewe play the cards of love,
your moyo breaks and turns stone cold,
then you'll end up walkin' the death road,
i dug my grave,
so i'll fucking die in it,
thankyou verry much,
cause this is what youve done,
so here i go,
never to be seen again,
fuck you,
i really hate you,
these are my last words,
I LOVED YOU
tell me why do wewe pretend
to let the agonizing memories
of your damaged past let wewe
be the person that wewe are
now,
please let your body,
mind, heart, soul,and
feelings escape the
tragic night-mares and
feel my: "etreindre de'
amour" around wewe for-
ever.
my etreindre de' amour
is what i can offer to you,
through this time that you
will feel from me.
will wewe feel my ever-
lasting touch of upendo as
wewe grieve over the Lost
memories and moments
that wewe never gotten back.
let me take your
emphasized wounds
and give them to the
crumbling world that
never lets wewe feel the
upendo that wewe need to
feel in your life now.
but wewe look for my
casual-words that will
give wewe strength that
wewe need to go on with
your life.
your endless obession
for living this lie trying
to get past this pain, that
will forever remains inside
your soul now.
to let the agonizing memories
of your damaged past let wewe
be the person that wewe are
now,
please let your body,
mind, heart, soul,and
feelings escape the
tragic night-mares and
feel my: "etreindre de'
amour" around wewe for-
ever.
my etreindre de' amour
is what i can offer to you,
through this time that you
will feel from me.
will wewe feel my ever-
lasting touch of upendo as
wewe grieve over the Lost
memories and moments
that wewe never gotten back.
let me take your
emphasized wounds
and give them to the
crumbling world that
never lets wewe feel the
upendo that wewe need to
feel in your life now.
but wewe look for my
casual-words that will
give wewe strength that
wewe need to go on with
your life.
your endless obession
for living this lie trying
to get past this pain, that
will forever remains inside
your soul now.
My anger came that day,
i tried to stay calm through
it all but my emotions just
gave way without me telling
them too.
She saw my frustration
taking shape and took
me in her loving arms
and told me it would be
okay.
I knew that my personal
emotions would show,that
i would pretend not to be
upset, and playing them
off as casual-words and not
the hurtful words as to what
they sounded to me.
I wanted to barricade
myself inside my head
and listen to those supposed
hurtful words that were being
alisema about me,
The thoughts that raced
through my mind were not
the words that i heard coming out
of his mouth that day,
All i can say to wewe is
that i accused him of
being wrong and that
was unfair for me to do,
i tried to stay calm through
it all but my emotions just
gave way without me telling
them too.
She saw my frustration
taking shape and took
me in her loving arms
and told me it would be
okay.
I knew that my personal
emotions would show,that
i would pretend not to be
upset, and playing them
off as casual-words and not
the hurtful words as to what
they sounded to me.
I wanted to barricade
myself inside my head
and listen to those supposed
hurtful words that were being
alisema about me,
The thoughts that raced
through my mind were not
the words that i heard coming out
of his mouth that day,
All i can say to wewe is
that i accused him of
being wrong and that
was unfair for me to do,
I look out my window the rains pouring down
I can't seem to turn this frown upside down
wewe moved far out of town
Now I have no one around
I used to upendo wewe
Sadly wewe don't upendo me too
Pain and agony runs through me
So much wewe can see
But not you, wewe only look for my happiness
but I'm out and in distress
wewe want the green fresh from the press
I just want to be better than the rest
Attention is what I want
But all wewe give is a load of taunt
Are wewe ready for love
Not really, so I'll get a dove
A dove's the bird of passion and feelings
But wewe left me to rot like a banana's peelings
Sweet lover, I miss wewe
Do wewe miss me too?
Sweet Lover, give me your all
Don't let it fall
Give me a call
I get nothing at all
Sweet love, Goodbye
I will upendo wewe always *sigh*
Signed,
Your Sweet Lover
I can't seem to turn this frown upside down
wewe moved far out of town
Now I have no one around
I used to upendo wewe
Sadly wewe don't upendo me too
Pain and agony runs through me
So much wewe can see
But not you, wewe only look for my happiness
but I'm out and in distress
wewe want the green fresh from the press
I just want to be better than the rest
Attention is what I want
But all wewe give is a load of taunt
Are wewe ready for love
Not really, so I'll get a dove
A dove's the bird of passion and feelings
But wewe left me to rot like a banana's peelings
Sweet lover, I miss wewe
Do wewe miss me too?
Sweet Lover, give me your all
Don't let it fall
Give me a call
I get nothing at all
Sweet love, Goodbye
I will upendo wewe always *sigh*
Signed,
Your Sweet Lover
My moyo is filled with sorrow and pain
wewe hurt me for your own gain
But I'm moving on to greater things
No matter how much your words sting
I'll always upendo wewe
But why couldn't wewe say I upendo wewe too
Keep moving is what I tell myself
Crying my eyes out all kwa myself
I'm gone for good not coming back
Go in the closet my clothes are off the rack
My pain goes with me wherever I go
I wanna go back but my moyo says no
Tell me do miss me
Probably not because your searching for your key
Don't wewe miss having me around
If not then but now too late I'm out of town
wewe hurt me for your own gain
But I'm moving on to greater things
No matter how much your words sting
I'll always upendo wewe
But why couldn't wewe say I upendo wewe too
Keep moving is what I tell myself
Crying my eyes out all kwa myself
I'm gone for good not coming back
Go in the closet my clothes are off the rack
My pain goes with me wherever I go
I wanna go back but my moyo says no
Tell me do miss me
Probably not because your searching for your key
Don't wewe miss having me around
If not then but now too late I'm out of town
Sometimes I don't understand
I disconnect my moyo and my head
why
why things happen to the people they happen to
why people hurt other people
why we, he, she got hurt
why wewe hurt me the way-
pardon me-the ways wewe did
no twelve mwaka old should be hurt and treated the way I was
no one should be hurt and treated the way I was
and I know I danced around the truth
and I know I covered up your tracks
your lyin', cheatin', abusin' ass
wewe hurt me
but, as they say,
pain demands to be felt
I disconnect my moyo and my head
why
why things happen to the people they happen to
why people hurt other people
why we, he, she got hurt
why wewe hurt me the way-
pardon me-the ways wewe did
no twelve mwaka old should be hurt and treated the way I was
no one should be hurt and treated the way I was
and I know I danced around the truth
and I know I covered up your tracks
your lyin', cheatin', abusin' ass
wewe hurt me
but, as they say,
pain demands to be felt
Shard of glass
drops the blood
Could have saved me?
No one
Empty promises
washed down the drain
Memories cut deep
harmful even in sleep
I'm always alone
in this broken home
There's to much blood
I'm not safe
in this nightmare.
~Kayla
What did wewe think? Tell me in a maoni au send me a message, please.
drops the blood
Could have saved me?
No one
Empty promises
washed down the drain
Memories cut deep
harmful even in sleep
I'm always alone
in this broken home
There's to much blood
I'm not safe
in this nightmare.
~Kayla
What did wewe think? Tell me in a maoni au send me a message, please.
My family tells me that
i'm very open minded with
the things that i've written out
inside my journal of poetry.
until wewe read the compelling
poems wewe will understand
why my journal of poetry
was written the way that it
was,
I don't want people to
look at my journal of
poetry and discriminate
the tranquility of this private
diary has to influence so many
people who tend to read it.
People around me doesnt
seem to understand why i'm
uandishi this journal in the manner
that i am, so they can understand
why my poetry means the way that it
does to me,
i'm very open minded with
the things that i've written out
inside my journal of poetry.
until wewe read the compelling
poems wewe will understand
why my journal of poetry
was written the way that it
was,
I don't want people to
look at my journal of
poetry and discriminate
the tranquility of this private
diary has to influence so many
people who tend to read it.
People around me doesnt
seem to understand why i'm
uandishi this journal in the manner
that i am, so they can understand
why my poetry means the way that it
does to me,
