I dont think of this as a poem its zaidi like sadness and confusion today one of my neighbours died my brother called me over to see i saw them songesha the body coverd in a red blanket and the men in black suits and i thought to myself in that moment i never alisema hello never waved au smiled at her when i come to think of it i never saw her have one visitor i alisema to myself i wish i could cry right now but i couldnt i just couldnt i told myself i hope whatever i have done in my life would not make me die alone thats all i ask for and all i wish for